waking or sleeping , she saw him , saw the gold cloaks fling him down , saw ser ilyn striding forward , unsheathing ice from the scabbard on his back , saw the moment ... the moment when ... she had wanted to look away , she had wanted to , her legs had gone out from under her and she had fallen to her knees , yet somehow she could not turn her head , and all the people were screaming and shouting , and her prince had smiled at her , he 'd smiled and she 'd felt safe , but only for a heartbeat , until he said those words , and her father 's legs ... that was what she remembered , his legs , the way they 'd jerked when ser ilyn ... when the sword ... perhaps i will die too , she told herself , and the thought did not seem so terrible to her .