then i see the stormy night when my father made a deal to sell me , the first time i called on my illusions in the middle of pouring rain , the real reason why enzo chose to save me on my execution day , all the times i was hurt and abused , left behind and abandoned , the iron stake and the fire and the people chanting below , wishing me dead and gone , teren 's pale eyes staring back at me , the daggers , my training , dante 's sneering face , raffaele 's betrayal .