if she had n't started her own firm , if jason were n't 'dead , ' if she had n't gone to ronnie , if bamber were n't working for noah , if , if , ifand # 133 ; but they 'd all happened , and like a daisy chain she could look back and see how all these events interlocked , how one led inexorably to another , and how the end result was always the same : the death of ronnie hart .