it was quite another to look at his pallid , washed-out wife in her black suit and veiled hat , holding the hands of her two boys ( the younger was about charlie 's age , and they both looked utterly stunned and out of it , as if drugged ) , knowing-as she must-that the friends and relatives must all know how her husband was found , dressed in her underwear , his right arm vaporized nearly to the elbow , sharpened like a living pencil , his blood splattered in the sink and on the wood-mode cabinets , chunks of his flesh- andy 's gorge rose helplessly .