I am halfproud but still proud . We all make mistakes when love is involved . I am sure you did well as a gf for him and you still had the nerves to cut it off . Here we say il vaut mieux tard que jamais <| sep |> My got to for bank standing or skilling me <| sep |> Hosts having breakdowns due to tramatic experiences . is just part of the philosophical underpinnings of the show . It ' s part of that question . What is it that makes humans human ? . like the recent scene where Bernard is conversing with Ford and saying to Ford That ' s what makes you different ? . Humanbeings have reveries and trauma and memories too . The deeper ontological question is . What is it about those things that makes us human ? I don ' t think anyone at Delos or Ford or Arnold even knows for 100 % sure . Although it ' s interesting that they wipe the Hosts memories , . try to improve the code . and continue exploring forward . That ' s pretty much the same as what humans do . Memories fade . and we try to not let them bother us as we learn new things and try to become better . The entire show is a philosophical question about what makes a human human and draws comparisons between artificial hosts and the real thing . which ones are moreless good or evil ? . etc