When I was younger , like 5 or 6 , one of my brothers friends would babysit me since he was older , like 15 . Whenever we were alone he would have me wearing no clothes . This went on for a while and he had me suck his dick and jack him off . Being young I didn ' t say anything about this to anyone . It left me sexually confused and I still am . Though I have been with girls and am emotionally and physically attracted to them , I am extremely turned on by the idea of blowing and having sex with a guy . I haven ' t acted on this but each day I get more tempted so that I can figure out my feelings . It ' s an experience I haven ' t talked about with anyone outside of this post and it is constantly on my mind . <| sep |> Basically earth 19 Wells is Steve Jobs