The Nix 작가 Nathan Hill 출판 KnopfPublishingGroup 발매 2016 . 08 . 30 . 평점 리뷰 보 기 "' And I told you to bring nine toys , ' she said . ' You brought eight . Next time try to pay more attention . ' And the disappointment in her voice made him cry even harder , so hard that he couldn ' t talk , and thus he couldn ' t tell her that he put eight toys in the wagon because the ninth toy was the wagon itself . "" It always went like this . The kids who were victims of the Nix always felt , at first , fear . Then luck . Then possession . Then pride . Then terror . "" When he told Faye about the Nix , he said the moral was : Don ' t trust things that are too good to be true . But then she grew up and came to a new conclusion , which she told Samuel in the month before leaving the family . She told him the same story but added her own moral : ' The things you love the most will one day hurt you the worst . '"" The girls the other boys loved were always present , right there in front of them in class , right there next to them in the cafeteria . That Bethany was so inaccessible meant , to Samuel , in his head , that he was justified in occasionally spying on her . he was owed . ""' He liked things , ' she said . ' It ' s a classic story . The robber baron gets more stuff , the artist dies with nothing . ' ' He didn ' t die with nothing , ' Samuel said . ' He was broke . He didn ' t even have the score . ' ' He had his memory of it . ' ' His memory ? ' ' Yeah . He could still remember it . That ' s something . ' ' I ' d rather have the money . ' ' Why ? ' ' Because when all you have is the memory of a thing , ' she said , ' all you can think about is how the thing is gone . '""' Everyone loves a prodigy , ' his mother said , herself also standing and clapping . ' Prodigies get us off the hook for living ordinary lives . We can tell ourselves we ' re not special because we weren ' t born with it , which is a great excuse . '"" As with most dysfunctional couples , there was an imbalance between them regarding who needed the relationship more . It was an unspoken fact that she could leave at any moment with very little pain , whereas he would be devastated . A puddle of rejection . Because he knew nothing like this would ever happen to him again for the rest of his life . "" It is remarkable how quickly extraordinary things turn ordinary . "" No , it ' s good you left . That night , I was looking for an easy way out . But the hard way out was better , ultimately , for me , I think . ""' I ' ll call it fiction , ' Samuel said . ' I ' ll change the names . I ' ll be sure to give you a really silly one . ' ' How ' s your mother ? ' Periwinkle asked . "" Anger was such an easy emotion to feel , the refuge of someone who didn ' t want to work too hard . Because his life in the summer of 2011 had been unfulfilling and going nowhere and he was so angry about it . Angry at his mother for leaving , angry at Bethany for not loving him , angry at his students for being uneducatable . He ' d settled into the anger because the anger was so much easier than the work required to escape it . "" Because if you see people as enemies or obstacles or traps , you will be at constant war with them and with yourself . Whereas if you choose to see people as puzzles , and if you see yourself as a puzzle , then you will be constantly delighted , because eventually , if you dig deep enough into anybody , if you really look under the hood of someone ' s life , you will find something familiar . "" Because one thing she ' s learned through all this is that if a new beginning is really new , it will feel like a crisis . Any real change should make you feel , at first , afraid . "