A . A . Sundries really backs up for Australia , we ' d be lost without him . <| sep |> A month isn ' t a long time . I felt the same for the first month on top of the world every single day . Now it hits me in waves , usually a week feeling down , then a week feeling great . Just keep at it with your new life and don ' t look her up again . The only time you should is after all of the emotional connection is gone , and it will go one day . As for being scared of the future , that ' s a good thing ! Imagine how boring life would be if you know what was going to happen and when it was going to happen . I ' d hate that . You ' ve started a new life in a new place , that ' s a scary thought in itself . You ' ve already done more than most people I know and you ' re just getting started . The future can be as fruitful as you want or as bleak as you want , and let me tell you it isn ' t going to be fruitful if you keep romanticising the past , and deep down you know it ' s true .