Also VERY big into horror , but again , feels like something ' s missing <| sep |> I ' d love to feel every inch of you <| sep |> I ' m not gonna tell you sorry . I ' m not going to tell you it gets better . All I ' m going to tell you is that every moment in your life where you swallow your sadness and try to continue , every moment that you take care of yourself and keep him in your mind , it makes him so goddamn happy . It does . I ' ve been there . Just remember that , and that you dont owe anyone anything for being upset . Try to keep your stepdad in your mind , think about him and how much he cares about you and wants to see you caring for your children . I know these words probably don ' t help , and it ' s not going to make anything better , but knowing that they ' re there and cheering you on and the most beautiful thing to them right now is to see you get up and continue marching forward , it ' s one of the only things that ' s keeping me going right now , and I hope it helps you in that sense as well .