It ' s so hard to defend mason on a softy like that <| sep |> Random is random , welcome to what NA was experiencing for over a month as well . <| sep |> FV ? Metjm ? Anything ? <| sep |> I wonder if this is why women used to breastfeed until 2 years of age 😂 <| sep |> My heart goes out to you , from a random internet stranger . After my first miscarriage I stopped telling anyone other than a very select 2 or 3 people that I could count on for support because so many had advice or tried to relate personally when they had no idea what it was like . After my 4 th loss late in my first trimester , my body didn ' t reject and I had to have a DC , my sisterinlaw found out and told me she understood because she ' d had one with her abortion . I almost slapped her , and I have never quite gotten over it . How she could not see the difference between my miscarriage of the child we desperately wanted and had tried to have for years and her elective abortion not that I ' m prolife , just that the situations were very different , with a different emotional toll still baffles me . Honestly makes my blood boil . I refused to tell anyone I was pregnant with our daughter until almost 25 weeks when I could no longer hide it with baggy clothes . I ' m currently 12 weeks pregnant and refuse to tell anyone again until I can ' t hide it . People try so hard to relate on a personal level and tell you they understand your loss when they can ' t , they just don ' t know how to give sympathy when they haven ' t been through it . After 4 losses , I just don ' t want to hear it , or look at the shock on their face , or try to explain why I ' m not ecstatic to be pregnant with a child I desperately want and planned for because I ' m so worried . I wish you all the best , and happiness and peace no matter what happens .