Got this lucky kill on bank so decided to edit it a lil <| sep |> Yeah I think that he ' ll be back tonight . <| sep |> Yeah the whole process seems gross . I can see why some people might like it , but count me out . <| sep |> Best wishes . Keep moving . <| sep |> First of all , you stood up for yourself against your parents . That is a really hard thing to do . Especially with the cultural differences . The important thing isnt if you did it perfectly or not , the important thing is that you actually did it . Be proud of yourself for doing it . You are really strong for doing that . Secondly , if they really value their relationship with you then they will make an effort to repair it . Keeping the relationship going isnt just up to you , they are the adults and the responsibility for keeping a good relationship with you should fall on them , not you . I would also like to add that I went no contact with my mother around ten years ago . It hurts like hell when you realize that they dont care enough about you to change their ways . That they dont want to make an effort to keep you in their lives . But after a couple of years you get some distance to it all . You remember the abusive shit they pulled all the time , and little by little you stop missing them . Sometimes you get angry because you got a shitty deal in life . Sometimes you just get angry at them for all the abuse . But after a while all those strong feelings fade away . Sure , there is a void in your heart where your parents where supposed to be , but it doesnt hurt that much anymore . You realize that despite everything you are actually pretty okay . And you realize that it actually feels pretty good to not being around all that drama anymore . Just focusing on yourself and minding your own business , and not having to give a rats ass about someone elses irrational feelings . It might hurt a bit for now , but in the long run you will be okay . I promise . Hugs .