KHAJIT HAS DONE NOTHING WRONG ! <| sep |> Does GSync really make that big of a difference ? I have a 144 hz nonGSync monitor and I feel like I made a mistake . <| sep |> Looks way better than turkey . <| sep |> id guess 15 %, I ran 60 mg for a month and then 120 for another month or two cant remember . Ive had this since jr high here is an album which looks better than it is because my room is freezing right now hahha <| sep |> Would be Chinese food , then ? <| sep |> Fucking dad jokes <| sep |> The strangest part , Jake had decided , was how normal she looked . At first he ' d figured she was some kind of theater geek . Standing under a streetlight with no umbrella or coat . Just that overstarched , retro nurse outfit . Even in the dim yellow light , her skin and blouse shimmered like a pearl . Her hair was pulled into a tight bun , so black it looked as though her cap was floating inches above her forehead . Need a ride ? He half expected her to reply in a phony English accent , or take a drag from a cigarette and give some incharacter , noir response . Instead , she just gaped at him . Eyes wide , mouth ajar , like he was the weird one . Then she slowly brought her hand to her chest and silently mouthed me ? I ' m not a creep or anything , Jake said . It ' s just . . . the rain . If you just want me to call a cab , or something , that ' s fine . Red lips , just about the only color on her whole body , curled into a smile . It was like he ' d just told her Santa was real . She started for the car , hand outstretched , then stopped . The smile faded . She looked down at her hand , then her body , and fixed her gaze at her feet . The inside of Jake ' s car door was getting soaked . It ' s cool , no problem . Look , there ' s a police station a quarter mile down . Just FYI , you know ? She folded her hands in front of her lap . Jake watched her until she disappeared in the rearview mirror . Her gaze never left him . The next time was practically identical , only the rain was worse . He ' d passed by on his way to the gym , but the sidewalk was as empty as ever . But on the way home , there she was . Same outfit . Same tight ebony bun . Jake didn ' t know why he stopped . Why would she say yes this time ? To his own horror , he found himself rolling to a stop without a single thing to say . He couldn ' t even bring himself to roll down the window . When he checked , she was staring right at him , hands clasped . After a few agonizing seconds , genius struck . I ' m lost , he shouted as the passenger window slid down . Do you know where I can find Heaton Drive ? She took a deep breath , then walked up to the car . His heart began racing . She would probably let him have it , call him out as some kind of catcaller or stalker . But when she lowered her head to the passenger window , she looked nervous . Not necessarily scared , just a sort of combination of uncertainty and hopefulness . Can you hear me ? her voice was husky , like she ' d just woken up . Or maybe just wasn ' t used to speaking . Definitely not an actress ' s voice . Yeah , sorry . He turned off the stereo . Better ? She bit her lip . Can I . . . come in ? Sure , Jake replied way too fast . Door ' s unlocked . He saw her reach for the handle , but didn ' t hear the click of her lifting it . Um , can you open it ? she smiled sheepishly . It won ' t open ? She shook her head slowly . Jake reached over and cracked the door open with no problem . No sooner had he apologized than she was seated next to him . The door was still ajar , but too tight for anyone to have slipped through . He didn ' t notice . The nurse had turned to face him . For the first time , he got a good look at her eyes . Black as her hair , yet they glistened like diamonds , reflecting everything from his glowing dashboard to the stars outside the windshield . I ' m Jake . He extended a hand . Elizabeth . She kept hers folded in her lap , but she smiled warmly . It ' s so nice to meet you . Same here . So , where are you heading ? Heading ? Oh , right . 305 Pinewood Avenue . They drove in silence . Jake tried to steal a few glances , but every attempt found her staring right back at him . At a stoplight , he felt a sudden jolt in his shoulder , like an icicle pressed against his bare skin . He flinched and turned just in time to see Elizabeth ' s hand dart back into her lap . 305 Pinewood Avenue was a construction site . No sign of any apartments or houses . I ' m just meeting someone here , she said quickly . Not a boyfriend or anything . My brother , actually . By the time Jake had put the car in park , she was outside the door . Thank you so much . It really means a lot . You have no idea . No problem . Before he could continue , she ' d disappeared . What are you doing ? she whispered , her entire body stiffening . The rides had continued for the next three nights . Every address she gave proved to be either a construction site or abandoned building . She was always just meeting someone there not a boyfriend . But they talked . About jobs , family , whatever Jake could bring up to keep the conversation rolling . I thought you ' d like it . He extended the carnation towards her as he came around the car hood . She backed away as though he were brandishing a dagger . She ' d always insisted that he stay in the car , but he ' d just assumed she was just being considerate . Is everything okay ? Her eyes flew from his to the flower , then down at her own body . And back to the flower . Her red lips quivered and she sank to the ground . Jake dropped the carnation and rushed to her side . It ' s not fair , she whimpered into her palms . Why now ? I ' m sorry , Elizabeth , Jake tried again . I didn ' t know . If you need to be aloneTouch me . Jake blinked . Where ? Anywhere . He reached out carefully towards her shoulder . She peeked over her hands . When he made contact , he gasped . It was the same icy feeling he ' d felt four nights ago , like plunging his hand into a glacier . She was at once material and completely malleable . He could feel his fingertips pass through the fabric of her uniform , yet still felt them brush against the smooth , soft skin underneath . He jerked back his hand , nervous that he ' d crossed some sort of unspoken boundary and fearful that going any further might hurt her somehow . Whatever she felt , she just gazed longingly at him through tearsoaked eyes . This is what I am now . My whole life I dreamed of finding someone like you . There was always time . And then in a flash it was all over , and I ' ve had to watch everyone else live their dreams while I ' ve been invisible . And suddenly you saw me , actually saw me ! And you could talk to me , and look at me with those eyes , and you ' re bringing me flowers , like I ' d always dreamed , like I ' m alive again ! They sat side by side , every silent second weighing heavier than the last . Jake stared straight ahead . His hand still tingled from touching her shoulder . What can you say to comfort a ghost ? Until now , he ' d never even believed in an afterlife . Can you still smell ? What kind of question is that ? Can you ? Yes . Jake rose to his feet and retrieved the fallen carnation . He sat back by her side , closer this time , and held it up to her face . Breath . She closed her eyes and inhaled through her nose . Then a second time . Does it hurt when I touch you ? Jake asked . No . You ' re . . . warm . The slightest twinge of color settled into her cheeks . He reached carefully towards her face , trying his best to hover just on her skin . Then , gently , he let his fingertip brush across her cheek and felt the almostimagined tears get swept away . It ' s all so new , so fast , he said . I don ' t know what ' ll happen . But for now , all I know is that I bought a flower for the beautiful girl I met a few days ago . And whatever she is , whatever we are , she deserves at least that . At that , a pair of timeless opal eyes fixed unblinking onto his and a pair of immaterial lips curled over pearly teeth , and an icy , yet soft hand reached over and caressed his own .