You have no idea how it means to me that someone gets it although , for all I know , since I literally never talked truthfully about food with anyone , maybe everybody gets it . I actually got to the sameish conclusion yesterday when I turned off my computer after posting and went to bed . It would indisputably be beneficial to figure out the origins of all my issues and to fundamentally understand it would make it easier to deal with the negative urges that I get . But , right now , I don ' t think I ' m in the situation to do so . Nevertheless , I can succeed with my weight loss , even if it will be a bit more difficult , by trying to figure out what all my issues are , how they are triggered , and how I can make them go away in the moment they come about . And then , further down along the line , I may be in a life situation where I can afford therapy , and when I ' ve had enough success to not feel so ashamed of it and actually talk to someone about all this in person .