Hey man , it sounds like you ' re quite concerned for yourself , so firstly I ' ll direct you to the righttab which has a list of resources you can look over and a list of hotlines you can call if you feel you need to . Do you feel safe where you are at the moment ? Is anyone else around ? How much do you talk to your friends about your depression ? I ' ve often bailed on my friends because of my own issues and the number one thing they ' ve all said back to me is that that ' s ok and they just want to be kept in the loop If I ' m not up to going out , just tell them , they won ' t care , and often they ' ll swing by to check on me because of that . What is it about tomorrow that makes you feel like you ' re going to die ?