One of the first tInes I visited my father in prison with my family mother and brother , we took my mom ' s car but I drove . It was 45 minutes away from our house , so it was convenient for us that he lived so close . On the way back , we ' re now 40 minutes from our house when I merge onto the turnpike . It ' s one of the first times I ' ve driven on this turnpike in this area since he ' s the only thing I come down here for so I haven ' t memorized the exits and turns . I merge onto the turnpike , get to the far left lane , 5 lanes over , then realize I made a mistake and have to go into the far right lane to merge onto the turnpike and not expressway . What do I do ? I don ' t even look , I just swerve ALL THE way over to the farthest right lane and JUST BARELY make it over the median before it splits off onto grass and dividers . As soon as I realize what I just did I freak the fuck out in my head . then I look behind me and see no cars for a good 100200 feet . That was the day I almost swerved into however many cars could have been next to me at 75 mph . always look to the direction you plan to swerve or turn into . Please . I have recurring nightmares about this because I spent the next 40 minutes of that drive hating myself and almost crying because of my stupid actions . Luckily , nothing happened . But if it had been as busy as it usually is on that highway then , I ' d easily either not be here today or be in very bad shape .