Jokes on you , I won ' t get old . <| sep |> My first kind of serious bf and I started dating when we both had 16 . That lasted 3 years one year straight and then on and off and I was always the one that was really invested in the relationship . I knew that at the time but . I really liked the guy . Besides all other big drama I had with him I had a lot , I was jealous of 3 girls at the time one of them was a good friend of my , and I really believed that I had reason to be comments on fb , touches , he refused to but In a relationship on fb when I talked about it , etc . I never made a scene or anything , I just told him how I felt . But he always made me feel like I was out of my mind and he would never cheat on me , and I was just being crazy . Well , one year after I finally was able to put a stop to that relationship , he told me that yes , not only he was cheating on me with those to girls even with the girl I was friends with but he also talked with lots of other girls online . I honestly think I felt a relieve because I was right , I was not crazy . But that affected me in a way I don ' t really know how to explain . It ' s been more than three years and I ' m in a relationship with a wonderful guy that I think it would never cheat on me , but there is always a little bug far away in my mind . And there is always a fear of looking crazy when I feel some kind of jealousy .