Yeah I only watch it on DVR for that reason . It feels like they have a ton of commercial breaks . <| sep |> Glad it helped . You will be great . It ' s painful because it meant something to you . That shows you have the capacity to love deeply , which is a wonderful trait . As far as coping , it ' s been hard . Having some supportive friends and family are the best . Recruiting a breakup buddy who will answer your call anytime is really helpful . The broken dreams are the toughest . I can ' t quite explain it , but when I get in that place , I tell myself Those are someone else ' s dreams now and I sort of picture this alternate universe dimension timeline kind of scififantasy nerd where everything is working out , like that the life I dreamed of was a possible storyline that couldn ' t happen in this lifetime for me . And then I start to wonder . well , if that ' s not my story , then what is ? And there ' s some sadness there , but also possibility , and I take some comfort in that , in that mystery around how my life will unfold . Good luck . Something good will come your way .