I love this picture and your post . Your eyes are so expressive , and your face is stoic and beautiful like an actress on a 1930 s movie poster , or a model on a rock album cover . Your clothes are colorful and rich with texture , and in good taste . From what you said and looking in your eyes , I think we share a similar yearning for companionship , but are held back by our own assumptions of a future that is not likely to happen . I may be over assuming , but I ' ve found life is easier if I don ' t tell myself X thing will never happen . Not even you can say you know with certainty that it is impossible to find someone , which is something I found out . I currently do not have a big relationship myself , but I know I am capable and have been fortunate enough to try when I let my defenses down and be vulnerable . I always make sure I stand up for myself , but sometimes I need to just let go . It ' s like , I think sometimes we just have to keep going on through life , and not try to force things like our dream job or ideal companion . We can work towards things like that by becoming stronger ourselves and finding out how to be happy on our own . A huge milestone in not having negative internal dialogue is lowering your expectations so that you don ' t feel you are failing when you are just living your life comparing myself to others constantly was a big culprit , but not your standards and goals . For meeting the right person , there is no perfect way , but confidence helps a lot built by doing what makes you feel fulfilled and powerful . Life can really suck sometimes and it can seem impossible , but it just takes time if you gradually keep trying . Getting myself out there in certain social situations is my weak point because I work so much now , but I ' m at a point where at least I know I have a lot to offer after working on my jobbodymindset , so I ' m not as shy about things anymore . Also laughing , and laughing atwith yourself helps a lot , I used to take myself too seriously all the time . Sorry if I went on a bit , but I just thought I ' d share some of what ' s helped me realize it isn ' t so bleak , and that you should never rush relationships or feel like it ' s just a thing to check off a list . The best relationships I ' ve seen are organic , mutual , and spontaneous not expected and they took awhile to find each other . The best things in life aren ' t usually easy to get anyway , and there is an element of rarity in this . Just engage socially , or go to coffee shopsbars and talk to strangers if you want to test the waters careful of the unempathetic , just try to have good conversation without expectations . I see a beautiful and expressive person that has so much potential . Go enjoy a movie , video game , or art and immerse yourself for awhile . if you keep your eyes open like I have , you ' ll see life has so much to offer after having it all go through your head , and that I don ' t need to have a picture perfect life to be happy . and yet I work to achieve it one day , even if it is only fleeting .