And then you get drugged , with your only hope of being saved is one of your exes . Twice . On the span of five years . Living the dream . <| sep |> 5 years ago , I moved continents because of that feeling . My entire world had become a never ending chain of people and places I had to avoid . I thought I needed a fresh start , so off to Europe . And then , of course , the same thing happened in the first city I moved to , then the second , and now the third . Pretty much running away from old girlfriends and evaporated friendships . I ' ve come to realize how deep this problem goes for me I thought I could handle it , but because I ' ve never really faced up to any of those people or places , it ' s really only gotten worse . I ' d say , if you can find someone to help you face up to those moments , do it . I ' m in the process of finding counseling myself , because , like you I ' m tired of running . I ' m also moving home soon , to start over where I started , so to speak .