I don ' t see how most of what I listed from being beaten by my dad over things like losing my retainer while my mom did nothing to try and stop him to my siblings disregarding multiple mental health professionals ' opinions to being born highly prone to severe mental illness would be my fault . Especially with seeing now how everyone irrationally hates on my sister now that she ' s in the shit chair instead of me . I ' ve had multiple family therapy sessions that have all concluded with them being ignorant of mental health . Some people have families who act shitty a lot of the time . As for the benzo and weed dependencies along with fucked up sleep schedule and hard time making irl friends , I will admit that is on me 100 %. No one else had any part in that obviously . I feel like you didn ' t even read the whole thing considering that I even went into the topic that you mentioned .