A lot of mention of email but have you spoken to a human with your voice ? Honestly it makes a huge difference in getting things like this sorted . Also what shady bullshit is UG pulling ? Sounds dodgy as shit . <| sep |> One day Baizhang accompanied Mazu on a walk . A flock of wild ducks flew past them . Mazu said , What ' s that ? Baizhang said , Wild ducks . Mazu said , Where ' d they go ? Baizhang said , They flew away . Mazu then twisted Baizhang ' s nose so hard that he cried out . Mazu said , So you say they ' ve flown away ! Upon hearing these words Baizhang attained enlightenment . <| sep |> I ' m on baby number two and month 36 of my breastfeeding journey and I can definitely say it ' s a love hate relationship . Some days I feel like you do , some days like the other moms you described .