oh okay then <| sep |> Zacharias Smith , that asshat . I still hate that kid . <| sep |> First things first , fuck your parents . I know super teenager thing to say , but it ' s true . They are total asshats from what i ' ve read here . Now im not going to give you the same thing you hear all of the time , the whole ' it gets better ' and ' get therapy ' and ' someone loves you ' because while they are usually true , it does nothing . I want you to know that this is a war , you are constantly in a battle , and you never know when your are going to have to fight . You are the hero of this war and while somehow you , out of all the people you may regard as stronger or smarter , were chosen to be the hero . Heroes aren ' t perfect , they have flaws , but still they grow . Let the satisfaction that will come to your opponent by killing you off drive you to fight . You are fighting for your life , every . damn . day . You must never let it win . You have to fight and if it brings you to your knees , you have to stand again . This is YOUR life , YOUR story , and YOUR war . It will only kill you if you let it kill you . There are days where you might not think you can fight any longer or go any more and may need to stay on your knees a little longer than normal , this is okay . You must have to promise me you will get back up . Think of your wildest dreams , even the ones regarded as imaginary , let those be your goal . Will you just let this take away all you ' ve ever hoped for ? Well you better say fuck no to that . Fight this battle , even if you do so one by one . You can do this , it is not easy , but you have to do this . Quit that fucking job with a huge FU , stand up to your parents every time they knock you down not physically of course but assert that you deserve proper treatment because you do . Remember that I believe you can do this , and while I don ' t know you personally , I can ' t imagine looking at these paragraphs and imagining the author behind them is no more and that that fucker got that satisfaction . Live in spite from that horrible thing . IF you don ' t have the feeling to keep yourself around do it just to piss it off and eventually you ' ll get that fight back . I hope this has helped and if you need ANYTHING feel free to PM me , and if you live around the Las Vegas area you are always welcome .