paralax and type s for white pulses <| sep |> Are you on HRT ? Maybe you just need to give it time . What specifically do you feel isn ' t feminine ? Is that something you could work on either by effort or knowhow ? <| sep |> I guess to a point , but when compared to many of the other MILs around here , she ' s not evil or hateful . She ' s just mentally ill . Her bpd has made it very difficult for her to understand that not everyone is out to get her . Not making excuses , but I ' ll post later about her childhood and there were events that were truly horrible and did severe damage . Even I had a hard time listening to them . There was horrific abuse . But it makes sense why she acts like a child . Its a huge part of why my husband has so much guilt about leaving her .