We know nothing about them , their language , their history or what they look like . But we can assume this . They stand for everything we don ' t stand for . Also they told me you guys look like dorks . <| sep |> I understand this . My family always hard sort of , time limits to everything finish your studies by 2123 , be married by 24 , kids , etc and now that I ' m surpassing those numbers and I ' m distancing myself from my family , I ' m realising I don ' t need to follow them and now that I think about it , I dont even know if I want kids . But this only came about after I found out I have a VERY high chance of infertility . It runs in my family and I ' ve had other issues that could affect it . Although we haven ' t done any specific tests yet , with my past history and genetics , my doctor has said I probably have a very low chance of getting pregnant . But until I try , I don ' t know , and me and my partner aren ' t at that point yet . So now I ' m stuck . Sometimes I ' m adamant that actually , I genuinely don ' t want kids and could get by without . But then sometime in hysterically crying because i probably can ' t have kids and don ' t feel good enough for my partner because I can ' t give him kids that he ' s not even decided to want yet . So I ' m stuck . I don ' t know if I genuinely don ' t want kids and it ' s just ingrained in me to have children so bad , or if I genuinely want kids and I ' m trying to lessen the disappointment by pretending I don ' t want kids . So yes , I know where you ' re coming from . Thank you for letting me vent too .