But who doesn ' t ? <| sep |> I ' m going to see some teetees with him after . <| sep |> not unless you are going for super speedy kills using d bow and stuff <| sep |> Hi there , it seems like you are in a really tough place , that was sad to read . Now , no one here is going to diagnose you and tell you for sure that you have ROCD but the thing is . You have OCD , from what I read I know that you have always had it , it was always there , taking up different forms , targeting different things in your life . And you are aware of that . And ROCD is just a name for a type of OCD , if you always had OCD then its absolutly possible and very likely that your OCD now targets your relationship just like in the past it would targeting many other things . So of course there is help ! All you have to do is get therapy for your OCD , you have always had it and now its taking up a different form so what you have to do is treat your OCD , you have OCD problems , it ' s the ruminating and obsessiveness that ' s hurting so much so that ' s what you gotta fix . You mentioned you have been taking meds for years but for OCD , meds alone wont do , you HAVE to get therapy , look up CBT , ERP and ACT , look for therapists specialized in treating OCD . Don ' t give up !