RE WHY I told him . I ' ve thought about that a ton . Was I subconsciously doing what was best for ME , not him ? And I don ' t know . I DO know that my thought process was Jurassic , this happened to you . You know what having zero closure feels like . And you remember questioning whether you ' re worth love AT ALL . THAT was what I approached it with . It wasn ' t to solidify my relationship with him or anything . It was , if this costs my relationship , but he knows that he ' s not an unlovable piece of shit , then okay . Obviously , that ' s not what I WANT . As for telling me to calm down , thank you . I know that I have issues with control , and do NOT like feeling out of control . I don ' t like feeling like someone didn ' t see my HEART behind what I did . And since I AM an ENTP , and I change my mind so flippantly , I don ' t like that I ' m not sure whether he hasn ' t grown to resent me . My brain processes things at lightning speed , and it gets REALLY hard to remember that people process differently .