Umm . she sighed , and very quietly added , There ' s someone . <| sep |> Social relationships are messy . There is really no good way to explain away the past and have the other person shake your hand and let you know they ' re glad you apologized and then you are done . What you need to do is start moving forward instead of trying to fix the past . Yup , you ' re going to feel uneasyguiltywhatever and when you do , remind yourself that you know you screwed up and you are doing better . I occasionally think of how badly I screwed up a friendship with a guy in high school . He had asked me to Homecoming and I , being socially inept and terrified , turned him down rudely but I didn ' t know I was rude at the time . That was the end of the friendship . That was over 30 years ago and I am much better at handling social occasions now . But I still think about him occasionally and wince and remind myself how I know how to handle myself better . You will too , it just takes time .