Because I wasn ' t moaning loud enough while he was going down on me . He almost never went down on me and finally did this one time and I was trying to guide him because he was otherwise pretty fucking selfish in bed . He was a lucky motherfucker because I ' m great at BJs and took it like a champ . He was insecure as fuck in general and thought I ' d cheat on him . I never once thought about cheating on him or going for anyone else during the whole relationship even though he honestly wasn ' t really treating me as well as he should have . A few people told me to dump him before that and I stayed loyal to him throughout it all . The only people who told me to try it through were our mutual friends . His ex girlfriends were little hos and did him wrong , so I don ' t blame him for assuming I ' d do the same . But I ' m also a high fucking calibre woman no pun intended and I hold myself to higher standards than that . so even if I got tons of attention while with him , there ' s no way I would have acted on any of it .