Yeah as other ppl have said it wasnt premeditated for me , after a party shere one of my class mates who had depression got drunk and then real depressed , so after that party at like 2 am i randomly messaged some and someone who had said in a completely random conversation that they would trust me , the conversation wasnt even sith me , as you csn probs tell thzt meznt zlot to me , so any way after the party i messaged her , she had essaged bsck in fhe morning , and it was jusg sort of like hows you , and i was like pretty shit , and it sort of went from there , sadly she doesnt hsve the time or energy to deal with my problems as well as her own stuff , so im not talking sith her much any more tho thzts only bedn for about 3 days , this wws only a week ago , i have been to a doctor about it and seen a councillor but havent opened up to any one before this girl , and yeah its msde it alot easeir for me to talk to others about depression . Tho i wouldnt reckommend telling every one that nuch cos soem ppl cant or want help