I ordered the kit on the 21 st October . They haven ' t shipped it yet <| sep |> I don ' t have any friends now either . had some , when I was young like you . and just recently learnt that one person who I thought I could count on to have my back doesn ' t really care . he just cares about money . not his own , other people ' s . my brother . He ' s so jealous , envious and resentful . I had no idea . Just got dumped on with like a 10 page email . It paralyzed me for 3 days . It even took that long to read the whole thing . so yeah . I was depressed for a long long time even before that . My mother ' s just died . I think i ' m sort of pulling myself out of the funk now , or beginning to . I just hope it lasts . I went through almost everything I owned and just threw away half of it . cleaning my house top to bottom . I think i ' m going to have to go through it all again two or three times to get it to a level where I like it . Just sort of cleaning and unburdening myself of crap . I think it ' s helping . I sense a change coming on . A big one . I can ' t say there ' s a trick to it or anything . I ' ve just sort of accepted it as fact of life , for now . I know i ' m way too nice and trusting and kinda get screwed because of it sometimes . I just try and avoid it for the most part . Recognize danger zones . avoid it before it happens . I try not to deal with people too much . I ' d have everything just all set up , mapped out , paid for and delivered if I could easily and cheaply . I should have just joined the military or something .