Every body in my department quit so I ' m doing insane levels of work like the work of 5 people , my boss however doesn ' t think I ' m qualified for a raise and my car caught on fire today . It ' s been a rough monthEdit Thank you all for your kindness . I needed it so much . Y ' all kept me from relapsing and I truly thank y ' all from the bottom of my heart . Happy Holidays everyone ! <| sep |> I made Prince of Wales tea during the intermission . It ' s pretty good . <| sep |> I can ' t blame the parents for their reaction to Mamiko dropping out . She ' s supposed to be graduating in a year . A year will flash by and be done before she knows it . After that she ' s free to do whatever the fuck she wants with her life without any of the drama . She can study again and get a second degree . She ' s trading years worth of time , tuition and hard work and a degree to start doing what she wants 1 year earlier . Definitely not worth it . It ' s a tragedy that it could have been discussed and sorted out earlier but wasn ' t , but at this point I believe it ' s best to just wait the year out .