I grew up . I reconnected with my faith Christianity and realised that my actions represented everything that contradicted the truths that , deep down , I knew . I was insecure when I was younger and thought being mean would make me stronger . It didn ' t . In fact , it made me more selfconscious . So , I made a change . I decided to choose love . When I dropped the hate , I felt freedom . Being mean made people feel singled out , lonely . I don ' t want to make anyone ever feel that way again . William Shakespeare wrote Here ' s much ado with hate but more with love . He is right . I woke up one day and realized hate and anger can only lead to perpetuating exactly what is sick about the world . I didn ' t want to be a part of that anymore .