Was I here I assume you mean existing before I was born ? Yes , I was a fetus . You ' re going to have to clarify your question if I misunderstood . <| sep |> I sort of have an ongoing joke with my younger sister like this . About a year ago , she gave me this ugly bright pink shirt made of a really starchyfeeling , uncomfortable material that I hated . I didn ' t want it either , so I just hid it somewhere in her room . When she found it , she hid it in my room . It ' s been going on like this for a year . Currently , the pink shirt is in one of her pillow cases , she ' ll hide it in my room again once she finds it . <| sep |> my fathers ex wife killed herself because of me <| sep |> Heart of stone Chris knight . Doubt it will get too many listens but the last verse kills me every time . Some people say like father like son , don ' t think about it much but I worry about it some .