Sorry you are hurting . I can relate to a lot of that . I ' ve been unemployed and out of school for a long time . The past 5 years I have mostly stayed home and I can count on one hand the number of times I ' ve seen any friends . My sleep schedule is all over the place too . I know this isn ' t a fun answer but the first steps to take really come down to you making the effort . The very beginning is always the hardest part , because it ' s a game of inertia and you are currently pushing against a boulder that doesn ' t want to move . Once you get it rolling it becomes infinitely easier , but the initial battle is so tough that it can delay the entire process for as many years as you want to sit down and just stare at that boulder in defeat . If you were to put the difficulty curve on a graph , the first few days would shoot up to the top of the page and look like an impossible task , because it ' s just so hard to break habits and start new ones , and then by day three four and five the line starts to nosedive and experts generally say in 21 days you ' ll have started to set new habits in your brain . You can ' t really afford to wait for the day that you wake up and feel like trying . So often there are discussions here about lacking motivation and I always tell people it ' s entirely more likely that if you force yourself to start you ' ll eventually start to feel better because it gets your blood flowing and oxygen to your brain and you start to feel proud that you ' re working on it , versus the hopeless process of just waiting for a day when you feel good enough to start trying . So it ' s going to be painful . Kind of like jumping into a cold swimming pool when you really don ' t want to . Dipping into it slowly takes too long and just exposes you to the shock for a longer amount of time . You ' re better off turning off the doubts in your mind , taking a few steps back , closing your eyes , and run towards the water and dive in . And to finally stop speaking in metaphors , what I mean by that is you need to force some abrupt changes to your habits . Get back on normal hours , sleep when it ' s dark and get up when it ' s light out . If you have trouble getting switched back around I know how that goes when you simply can ' t force yourself to go to sleep get some melatonin pills or even Benadryl allergy pills are really good for making you extremely sleepy . After you are waking up at a normal hour , it starts with getting up , fixing your bed , and taking a shower . Eat a decent breakfast of whole food , or skip it entirely if you aren ' t much of a morning eater . Get outside , go to the library and get a book , go for a walk , walk to the corner store and get a news paper , anything to avoid sitting inside all day . If something like joining a gym would interest you , even if it ' s just somewhere to go and see other human beings and you walk on a treadmill for 20 minutes and go home , it ' s something to do . I think these little changes are more important right now than any thoughts about going to see a professional again . Because the inverse is that you could make an appointment with someone and go talk to them and meanwhile you still come home and sleep poor hours and don ' t start a routine . Talking to someone alone isn ' t enough . This is unfortunately going to involve effort on your part . Just start with small goals . Get outside every day and try to take one interesting picture or something like that . Go volunteer at an animal shelter or something if you ' d be open to that . I know that still leaves a lot of questions about what comes after those steps , but you have to start somewhere . I have personal experience with knowing that when I wake up at 8 pm and and stay up all night and rot at home that there ' s no chance of things getting better .