it looks like he got clipped in the face by a stick <| sep |> I agree with most of the support you ' re receiving here . This doesn ' t define you . You ' re probably an awesome person and this is simply a tool or crutch you ' re using right now . On that note , you should feel empowered if anything . We read and see a lot of media that says emphasizing a woman ' s sexuality takes away her power and objectifies her . I think that ' s totally backwards IMO . Females derive so MUCH power from their sexuality . I say use it . In our society women are the sexual gatekeepers and that has tremendous currency both figuratively and literally . Trying to deny the sexual power of women is counterintuitive to the human condition . I ' ve had many conversations with my colleagues and even my adult daughters about this . We refer to women taking power from their sexuality as when they have a fully weaponized vagina . You laugh , but it ' s true . Different girls weaponize their sexuality at different stages . Some girls figure out this power in middleschool or earlier . But it ' s power . Bottom Line For Me you ' re fine . Exploit this power while it lasts . As women age , their sexual advantage is diminished thus it ' s value is also decreased . I say if you can get through school with little or just less debt , I would encourage this activity if you ' re comfortable with it . You seem comfortable . Cheers and good luck !