Lol . Who are you trying to convince ? That ' s a gross misrepresentation of , well , everything . <| sep |> Wow . Thanks for this . Lots to think about here . There are alot of paths to go down the killer thing from your comments and many of the others on here is that there IS a path I should go down . Yesterday , I was just thinking that my current situation was an immutable fact . This is good . My fate really is in my hands and , in that sense , a creature of my own creation . Despite that realization , I ' m going to wait until after the holidays to make any changes on the home front I don ' t want to risk the quality of the holidays for the kids . I do want that banana though . I just need to get rid of the trap . Thanks !