I think you should tell your doctor that you were abusing your medications and why you did so . He can only help you if he has the information to do so . I ' ve been prescribed up to 400 mg of Wellbutrin per day but that was before I switched to the extended release version . When I switched I was able to lower my dose to 300 mg once a day . You likely risked inducing a seizure or hallucinations but in all likely hood you are probably fine . Look , the effects you wanted are euphoric effects and these are different from therapeutic effects . Abusing a drug in an effort to find an altered state of consciousness , or heightened awareness , or a sense of being ' high ' are not what your doctor prescribed these drugs to you for . Not only are you risking your health , but you are also risking your relationship with your doctor because ifwhen he finds out you ' ve been abusing drugs because if you keep abusing them he will eventually find out he may decide that you are too high of a risk to give you other drugs like stimulants because those have a higher likelihood of abuse . All of the symptoms you state in your post sound as if you suffer from depression . There wasn ' t a lot to indicate that you have ADHD other than you were unable to control your impulses regarding your medication , but I ' m going to assume that depression is the thing you struggle with the most right now . In the treatment of ADHD medications are remarkably effective even if they are taken alone without any other interventions like therapy . However the opposite is true of depression medications help , therapy helps , but what helps the best is medication with therapy . If you aren ' t already I urge you to find a therapist who specializes in DBT or CBT to help you with your depression . I sense that you have some pretty negative views of yourself by labeling yourself as ' slow . ' That is a negative judgment and it probably isn ' t helpful for you in managing your life . Therapy can help with your selfimage . Lastly again basing this off of limited information your relationship with your boyfriend does not sound healthy . It seems to me that you stay with him only for those moments when you are both ' on ' or ' fast ' or ' manic ' because everything is electric in those moments . Except that life isn ' t about being electric all the time and if your relationship is based on those altered states of mind that isn ' t a strong basis of a relationship . I ' m not telling you that you should break up . I ' m not telling you to do anything . I ' m only trying to offer help , support , understanding , and some advice . But you need to decide what is best for you .