It ' s not easy to find work that I like the tutoring positions I ' m finding are requiring $ 200 worth of LiveScan checks CPR classes . My girlfriend suggested being a security guard but that was an initial $ 40 dollar class , $ 30 more for fingerprinting , and a $ 50 BSIS application fee that I don ' t know will even get approved . My point is , one has to buy into all these classes and certifications just to get anywhere , if you don ' t have that money tough luck , have fun digging ditches , and unable to afford a home . What I would really like is to be my own boss , primarily due to businesses like Uber , Lyft , Postmates but they ' ve all turnt down my application because of my background where do I go ? I get so caught up in this compulsiveness of trying to do something that i get stranded in the middle of an ocean . Having been wrapped in ignorance has fucked my entire world . good luck to y ' all who don ' t have parents andor mentors who know what they ' re doing , you ' re gonna need it . everyone ' s fighting and barely surviving . and they ' re happy ? I don ' t get it . Edit rant , i know . just emotional atm . More to the story , as a child it was just my mother and I living off disability the Army then provided me with food , housing , training , and work the past three years I ' ve dwindled my GI Bill , not taking school seriously and spending frivolously . now that I ' m out . I can ' t cut it anymore .