Thank you , I appreciate it . It seems you understand what I am saying . I don ' t need a religion to think or believe there is something else after this . I just don ' t think it is a blissful heaven or whatever . Our souls have an objective in the next realm or dimension . I believe that she was telling me I have to move on . For me . Like , to live . That it is okay to move on . Maybe it is BS and just my brain . But the message is pretty clear . It is just so hard to even think of moving on . I just can ' t let go of the feeling I am still married . I cannot just let go of the terms we or us and my wife and I . There is a difference between I have to keep moving and moving on . I keep going to provide , to enjoy my kids and to be their Dad . And I have to support them . Moving on is letting her go and letting her go is something I can ' t do right now . And I know I have to . And that is where I am stuck . I know it may be a lot of time for I get unstuck . I feel as long as I keep going , I will work free from the sticky place but it just really sucks right now . Thanks for being an ear , I appreciate it . Take care and be well .