Well I transplanted up to 5 gallon , started tiny then bigger then eventually like a 2 gallon then a 5 gal . The thing is I don ' t have toMuch more room , so could I just keep it in the 5 gal . <| sep |> Justice league gods and monsters chronicles ? <| sep |> You sure know a fuckton about politics ! <| sep |> Joss 1014 , 19 . 5 oz OB 2 with Elkmaster pressed milk dud tip Joss Thor Hammer Light break cue James Hanshew jump cue <| sep |> I hadsometimes still have very similar thoughts to you . All I can say is now that I ' ve been full time for about a month I feel better . I still don ' t feel great but I think I ' m moving towards that direction . But I also have many other issues that I ' m dealing with besides not liking my maleness . Hrt had helped a little with the stuck in the wrong body dysphoria . You ' re probably going to have some high and some low points transitioning . Try to realize that the lowest points of you ' re life will be temporary . I ' ve always said I wouldn ' t kill myself because I didn ' t want to hurt anyone around me . But during a low point that didn ' t stop me from distancing myself and thinking about unbuckling seat belt and speeding towards a tree . Luckily for me I got pulled over for 5 miles over the speed limit right before I was about to do it . I ' m very glad I didn ' t go through with it now .