What you ' re doing is called altruism . Deriving pleasure from humanitarian , or good , deeds . Selfish ? Yes . Bad ? Not at all <| sep |> Sure , Stalin and Lenin and etc were Capitalist Imperialists as Capitalism is the definition of Evil if Stalin was evil , therefore he was a dirty Capitalist pig . Now , if he talked about love , peace , flowers and ownership of the MoP to the workers , then maybe he could be a Socialist , but I guess many Socialists would still dispute this . <| sep |> The loss of a child frequently devastates mothers to the point of needing psychiatric help . Everyone reacts differently to the death of a loved one . Still , it probably is a good idea to move without a forwarding address within the next 9 months . Good luck .