Spoken like a fellow libertarian ! <| sep |> What if I ' m gay and I want to be strait ? It ' s pretty sad people can only see things from one dimension . <| sep |> Happened when i was 18 . I was partying at a club and on my way to a friend of mine to hang out after partying . When i was there 2 guys arrived and we were doing light drugsamphetamines , weed . At some point they took out some powder which we me and my friend snorted thinking it was amph aswell . I started feeling dizzy and buzzing off after some time . It looked like i was sleeping sometimes , so when i was looking asleep i started notice that they talk differently . At some point i thought the one guy feels attracted to me and it disgusted me because im not gay . Next thing i know is how they pulled me to the bath and my pants are being pulled down . You can imagine the rest . Next day i woke up , with a lot of pain in my chest and remembering nothing of course . Been traumatized for a few months . Quit college becuase i couldnt go to classes anymore . People told me in to my face You got raped ! and i was only wondering why everyone is making stuff upEdit While he was doing it he always said typical rapist stuff like Come on now or moan for me or you like that right once i had a clear moment and asked him if he cant come up with something more creative D . Im very glad i had that moment . When i remembered it it helped me a lot finding my way back into my consciousness . Also i feel really badass about it . When i started fading away and they started planning it i woke up for a second when my friend asked the rapist if he had hiv . He lowered his head intuitively for a second and then said no . Later i found out he had it , luckily i didnt get it tho . That was the worst part because i had a girlfriend at the time and we were frequently doing it without a condom . When i remembered the whole thing i was 100 % sure i infected my girlfriend with it , also because i remembered blood in my stool the day after . Only after the doctor in the mental hospital showed me the test result of my blood test i started beleiving i could be wrongNow im fine for a long time again