This is why Samwell got sent to the wall <| sep |> Well , they would have fixed it for free , so . <| sep |> You mean Asians ? Because white American liberals hate themselves and see the world in black and white . It ' s much the same how white liberals see Jews as Jews when they ' re discriminated after , but as whites when they ' re successful . <| sep |> Wow . Cant tell you how much I relate to this man . My relationship with my ex girlfriend got to that point too . Where things just get complicated and things become so push and pull . Shes either catering to you or you to her , and I would normally end up catering to her but then I forgot how to genuinely love her . Youre a good guy for wanting to give so much to her , but in the end you gotta look out for yourself too , which you did in the end by ending things . To be honest , I think it really just means we were with the wrong person . Things go south for real reasons , and it sounds to me that as much as you loved her and are hurting now , it just wasnt right and wasnt going to work out . Now what is happening is you are getting cold feet . You broke up with her because you knew it wasnt right , but now that you are on your own you are fearful and longing for the comfort you had with her . This causes your mind to immediately remember her good qualities and think of her as sexy and golden you miss the love and what you once had . But in truth , remember this wasnt the reality and you broke up for a reason . You are idealizing the relationship and have her on a pedestal . Its nice to see you say all this , because I do the exact same shit and its nice to know im not alone . Right now , you and I are our own worst enemies . These thought patterns are self indulging , and only further our pain . Idealizing the relationship is unrealistic and just makes us hurt more . Work on accepting that things ended for a reason . Release all anger towards her moving on and let go of blame you have on yourself . Acceptance means you reach a place of peace of mind . Its so tough to do , I know , but the more realistically you look at it , you will accept it more . It will take time . Keep yourself busy and start working out . I have found that a lot of exercising throughout the week REALLY gets positive chemicals going in my brain . Get a sweat up , stay busy , dont give in to the negative thought cycle , and let time heal . Keep your chin up man , I am rootin for you and keep me updated ! People do this shit all the time . We will make it .