Have you thought about joining an online community and getting some friends online at least ? I don ' t have any friends IRL that I send cards , and my only family is my mum , but I do send cards to a bunch of people online and chatting with people online has been a massive part of my life and I ' m married so I don ' t feel so lonely in that department either . I ' m part of a great discord community chat app and you can find a lot of people to chat and bond with on rgamerpals I mention this cos you said you spend it playing games so I figured other games might be suitable . I only have two people I spend Christmas with hubbie and mum but those two people are incredibly close to me and along with my online buddies , I never really feel the lack of reallife friends .