They love rose pedals . If you poison a few then throw them in the roof it should take care of it . If you can ' t handle killing them maybe make a trail of rose pedals from the roof leading outside then in to the great outdoors to a wedge tail eagle nest . <| sep |> stop to type , lose the roundstay classy <| sep |> TES IV maybe <| sep |> I was thinking this exact thought my fellow man . <| sep |> SECOND BIG UNIT ! FINISH YOUR DRINK ! <| sep |> but this time I was under the impression that we were moving at a good pace because she continuously told me that our feelings were mutual whenever I told her that I liked how things were going . To be fair though , I ' m sure she felt like she liked the direction of how things were going as well . but it may have just gotten too serious too fast for her . Becoming an adult is scary . It would be nice to have someone to do that with . I want to travel , and I want to buy a home , but I don ' t want to do those things by myself . it is . Adulting is sucky and sometimes scary when you have that moment of selfrealization of where you are in your life . And while you may find that with a 23 year old I was married at 23 , the odds you are going to meet somebody in their early 20 s who , after 4 months , will know whether you are the right person to settle down with are definitely less in your favor . I understand that I should just try going on dates for fun , and that sounds nice , but I just want to find someone to settle down with and it takes a lot of time and effort to find someone like that . It ' s stressful . I don ' t want to settle for someone that I find less than amazing . Well exactly ! 4 months is not particularly a lot of time at least not in my opinion . 4 months is still in the honeymoon period . You might discover somebody that you weren ' t sure about turned into that less than amazing person once you spent more time with them and got to know them better . You should want to find somebody that you think is amazing even after the honeymoon period has ended even if they get on your nerves or whatever , because nobody is perfect . From what I ' m reading , it honestly sounds like you are trying really hard to make the person who you don ' t even know for sure is right for you into the right person . She left before you had a chance to know if you were actually compatible or not , but you have to stop and objectively try to look at what may have happened and you need to be honest with yourself about it it might not have been all your fault , but it seems like there were definitely aspects you could have handled better . This combined with the fact that you need to be happy yourself before you can look to make another person happy are honestly really good reasons to work with a therapist . I do get where you are coming from although I don ' t think it ' s justification for some of your actions and think that you need to start helping yourself with therapy or something because nobody can help you make positive changes if you don ' t want to do it . It honestly sounds to me like you ' ve put yourself in a victim state but aren ' t doing anything actively to get out of that head space and maybe that ' s because you don ' t know how or where to start which a therapist can help you with . You need to do the fun dating part because the liklihood you are going to find somebody that is truly going to make you happy and not just fill a void that wants to skip the dating phase altogether and jump straight into a settleddown commitment is pretty slim . You also might be coming off as quite desperate and clingy which will be a massive turnoff to many females . If you are out just having fun , no pressure , you are more willing to get a girl who wants more vs pushing away one who feels you are forcing the relationship too hard . It will happen eventually , you just need to have a more relaxed approach perhaps .