But an orange monkey with tiny hands and thinning hair can ' t be much better . <| sep |> I disagree . The woodcutter was clearly programmed to selfdistruct if the operation of sending the data is in danger of being exposed . Maeve ' s case is very different , as it seems it ' s because of either the song that Ford played or a reaction to grief and suffrance that hasn ' t been explained yet on the show . <| sep |> I have gotten this thought before too , it was alarming at first and can still be but now I just kind of see it as my mind trying desperately to find a way to end the anxiety and OCD , this wanting to stop the anxiety is often a feature of my intrusive thoughts but I try to work hard to accept the OCD and not to resist or fight it !