Hi love . I just graduated college and can really relate to this . It gets better . Seriously . We are strangers but also going through the same bullshit together . Let us be your internet family . My advice Kick ass at school and put up with this shit just a littttttle bit longer so that you can graduate and get a job any job that affords you the option to go NC . Then you can finally start living YOUR life yes , you are allowed to live your own life . I ' m still learning how to , but I ' m getting there . You ' ve put up with 2 decades of this bullshit already . You ' ve invested and sacrificed so much to make it this far . Don ' t let it be for nothing . Get your chance at life , dammit . There ' s a light at the end of the tunnel . Just push through for a little longer . This isn ' t perfect advice as I ' m definitely not on the other side yet . but I ' m getting there . I ' m close enough to be sure that it gets better and to be able to reassure you that you ' re almost there . Don ' t do anything stupid okay ? Plus , can you imagine the sick smugness your mom would feel knowing that she fully , permanently , deprived you of the ability to live a happy life ? Stick it to her by not giving her the satisfaction . Keep checking in with us alright ? ? Here for you . Hugs .