Huh ? Is that common here ? That most people spoiled the game before coming here ? <| sep |> Good , you really should . I ' m honestly proud of you , and would buy you a nonalcohol drink and smoke you out with nonpsychoactive CBD pot and hash it out . If I can give you some advice don ' t underestimate how traumatic it was to quit opiates , it seriously rocks you to the core and leaves most PTSD ' d . Work through the trauma , tell those around you how you are going to make amends , not just say sorry , and most of all , become your own best friend again then worst enemy . I went through a rollercoaster abusing opiates heavily after my Dad passed , and this last year realized what needed to be done for me . And the rollercoaster didn ' t end after I stopped using the six month period after was just as traumatic . Those who have quit are almost like brothers in Arms we ' ve fought the same war , seen the same shit we know the battle and what each other has been through . I actually consider any succesful exopiate addict an automatic friend . So I went through the full process and now , I can actually HONESTLY say that I don ' t want to do heroin . My brain does , my I don ' t want to anymore , and that ' s why I ' m not doing it . If you fuck up so much of your life , if you realize that in THIS MOMENT , you can get enough of it back , this is the moment to stop . Currently the substances I use are LSD , DMT , MDMA , Ketamine , mushrooms , ayausca , ibogaine , bufotenin , cannabis . None of these cause addiction , and all of them when used RESPONSIBLY actually gave me back what heroin stole