This is brutal and you feel like you ' ve fallen off the edge of the world . It will feel this way as you go through the process and get through a police investigation , funeral , and everything . I ' m so sorry . But this I know . talk about him to anyone who will listen , what he meant to you , how you miss him , etc . You will repeat yourself over and over as you go through it but honestly , talking about him is the best way to get through the first weeks and months . Just put yourself into ' endure mode ' when it gets bad . No one can do it for you . It sucks . He sounds like he was a great guy and someone honour . <| sep |> WOW HUGE PROBLEM THIS ONE <| sep |> In pictures 3 , 4 , and 5 you look like a douche <| sep |> I can ' t add money to my steam account because my bank doesn ' t allow international transactions and opening a different account in another bank will take another few months and I ' m afraid I ' ll miss both the sales This one and the winter sale . I won a $ 20 giveaway last year and I still have $ 13 left in my account that I ' ve been saving for a game that will release in the next month so I don ' t want to spend them . I want Skyrim because I ' ve heard it ' s a great game but I never got a chance to play it . I love playing open world action adventure games . I ' d love to finally be able to play that game ! Thanks . .