First of all keep praying hard . God can an will reveal the path he wants you to take , but approach that openly , earnestly , and fervently . Pray hard and fast if you feel it will help . God will put it on your heart or a direction in your path . Matthey 77 Ask and it will be given to you seek and you will find knock and the door will be opened to you . Jeremiah 3133 But this is the covenant which I will make with the house of Israel after those days , declares the LORD , I will put My law within them and on their heart I will write it and I will be their God , and they shall be My people . You wrote that I could never be without him . in a previous post . What if God ' s will is for you to leave alone as missionary in far off country like china , die under persecution , and save 1000 souls in the process ? Whose will do you follow ? This is not an easy question , and one I really wrestle with as well . Whose will am I going to follow , my own if it ' s comfortable and fruitless or Gods if it ' s difficult and abounding in fruit ? If you were forced to choose between God and your husband , which do you choose ? Mathew 1029 And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or fields for the sake of My name will receive a hundredfold and will inherit eternal life . Mathew 1926 Jesus looked at them and said , With man this is impossible , but with God all things are possible .