Thanks a lot . I really do appreciate your advice . I ' m going to see if I can go volunteer at different places around where I live . And you ' re right , it really shouldn ' t matter what people think of me . But the thing is , we ' re humans . No matter what I think , to my brain , others ' opinions of me will affect my mood . If people think well of me , I ' ll definitely feel better about myself . And if people think of me as a loser , I ' m obviously going to feel bad . It really shouldn ' t matter or affect me , you ' re right . But it still does and it ' s hard to change that . Also , I think it ' s still possible to meet and hang out with new people . This year I ' ve joined a group of people and actually got to know many of them pretty well . I ' d never hung out with these people outside of school before . It ' s just that , I kind of wanna hang out and meet with people of the opposite gender . I want to build new experiences and actually know how it feels like to love and be loved in that way . But you ' re right . It shouldn ' t matter . It ' s hard though .