It ' s crazy to me how much more depressed I am when my family is around . Knowing I don ' t even belong in my family is a tough feeling . The black sheep of the family , I ' ve embraced it now instead of fighting it , but it still sucks . Feeling like an outsider in my own family is just a trip . <| sep |> Was going to say , pulling aside for a calm spanking I could see my family doing to this day and tbh I ' d probably do it too but slapping across the face , twice for that matter , and in front of everyone to humiliate the kid on top made me me wince even behind a screen . Violent , unfair and not very adult of her at all . <| sep |> Don ' t overstay your trip . <| sep |> That run play was a set up for later <| sep |> That ' s pretty much me , but add Hangouts .