yeah . im thinking of learning some of the conversions to troll my teachers . <| sep |> to balance out hitscan . the damage will be nerf . which doesn ' t make much different , she will be killed by other roles on sight . <| sep |> Well this is theoretical but it ' s relevant to mention that time isn ' t real so if it were possible to surpass the universal speed limit it would also be possible to travel through time . With really large and small numbers the laws of physics get a bit fucky . <| sep |> Good on you for overcoming what you have and doing well in your studies . First of all , you are not alone . You ' re dealing with a lot for a young person and it is important to take care of yourself so you don ' t burn out or manifest deeper issues later on in life in your own relationships and marriage . For now , focus on you . Get counseling for yourself . See a professional who can reflect back to you in a healthy and supportive way so you can find mental and emotional balance and not have to put on a tough front all the time as a scholar and a big sister . It is very important that you do this , and pm me if you need help getting connected with some resources . Hoarding is an epidemic also in Singapore , the materialism and culture of competition and lack , zero sum mindsets , all promote this so much that many times it is not even acknowledged as a serious issue . Maybe your or your mum ' s purpose in life is to ultimately create support groups for recovering hoarders or liberate is all from the traps of material possessions , I don ' t know , and you are right because in this whole challenge therein lies your purpose and destiny . So seek it out and be patient with yourself . Small steps and little battles . Go easy on yourself , don ' t put so much pressure on having to get straight As because by golly you have a lot to deal with . And have fun and relax as much as you can . When your mother sees you thriving and relaxed she will begin to relax also . Maybe not anytime soon but people do mellow out as they age . Hope is on your side . Thank you for reaching out and sharing your journey . I trust you have friends who will be understanding and nonjudgmental about your family . Life is a struggle and difficult for everyone so try not to take things so seriously . All the best to you and your family .