But ragdolling like that ? Best <| sep |> This does not improve things when you have serious selfesteem issues . <| sep |> I was so fucking nervous my first time I just couldn ' t do it . I loved the girl but She sucked it , she tried to fuck me , whatever I ' d always go limp . It was a year until I got another shot at it and that hole time it was eating at me like ' fuck what is wrong with me '. There was nothing very special about when I actually got to do the deed . It was in the passenger side of a truck and very uncomfortable , but I fucked her to completion and I was so happy I high fives her and shouts I can fucking do it lol . She was very confused . Don ' t be too hard on yourself . Ordering a hooker and going through with it the first time is scary as fuck . At lest that didn ' t go down with the girl of your dreams .