Appendicitis . And , because my exPCP was fucking worthless he sent me all over town for Xrays and blood tests instead of the zero cost , zero invasive mess , extremely reliable rebound test I ended up having to ride a packed muni SF streetcar full of Giants fans baseball game just ended to get to the hospital . My surgeon later said that it was one of the biggest , non ruptured ones he ' s seen and was surprised it didn ' t pop . <| sep |> sadly it is not that easy . its not a simple calories in calories out game as your body literally and mentally fights you ever step of the way . being hungry at all times 247 is extremely difficult to deal with . your mind lies to you . actually distorts your memory of time and space figuratively speaking and lies to you . maybe its easier for some . but easy is not a valid word to describe it in any context whatsoever . if I eat a 1000 calorie per day deficit I still have to eat TWICE what a normal person eats . any idea how hard it is to eat at a 1000 calorie deficit . it sucks hard core . and when your life is work more work and nothing but work . it gets rough . I don ' t blame anyone . I mean I ATE the food the made me fat . no question about that . no gland problem or anything in fact I am unusually healthy consider my mass . but to call it easy is . annoying .