I understand . All this constant blood work , tweaking meds , changing meds , it makes a person feel more like a guinea pig than a human being . It ' s not fun no matter what . I certainly respect your decision and wish you the best of luck . <| sep |> I know what you mean . I get upset and somewhat depressive when I think about this stuff too much . I remind myself that for the time being my minority wife and child are safe , for the time being we are comfortable . My career is going great . I just need to keep on keeping on , but start slowly preparing to move away from the US if my gloomy predictions start coming true . <| sep |> Well . I guess that could be possible ? Better than a star or planet at least . <| sep |> Good grief I missed the pic !