waving Just found this place . I haven ' t been officially diagnosed with anxiety , but I do have depression and possibly pureO OCD . Every time I post what is going on in my life , I get , Boy , you have a lot on your plate ! So . . . 1 . I ' m dealing with past bullying and spiritual abuse . I was bullied in school and then involved in an abusive church during college . 2 . I deal with scrupulosity , a manifestation of OCD that , in my case , leaves me worried about getting it wrong and going to hell . The Christian tradition I ' m part of wants to do things by the Bible , which is good , but I sometimes think they worry so much about getting it right that they ignore justice , mercy , and faithfulness . The church I am part of has been trying to get away from the legalism of this tradition , and as a result , several people including several friends have left my church . 3 . I have a teenager with autism . He ' s rather highfunctioning , but I have a rough time dealing with his obsessions he uses the Internet to look up stuff about his favorite game shows and tells me nearly every . single . detail . One of my worries is , what happens when we ' re gone ? And another will the resources he needs be available to him when he needs them ? 4 . I use the net for a lot of my support . In the last week , one of my FB friends decided to leave FB and shut down a group I ' d been part of . Another FB friend is debating shutting down another group . My BFF , who lives in another state , and I talk nearly every day online . SHE is dealing with caregiving her mother in law and uses me to vent to . I shared some stuff with another group , and the woman who started the group said that SHE did not feel comfortable sharing stuff in the groupa group that SHE STARTED for prayer requests ! ! I find it awful that she thinks she can ' t share in her own group . I ' m getting drained dry . 5 . We ' re dealing with debt . I went back to school a number of years ago and didn ' t finish for various reasons . Now I ' m trying to pay back student loans , and it ' s probably going to take at least six years to do it , according to my calculations . To help pay back the loans , I ' m proofing court transcripts from home . I ' ve been doing that for about a year . 6 . I also have a number of health problems sleep apnea , back pain , depression and OCD , need to lose weight , a chronic bladder problem , TMJ , and possible adrenal fatigue . I ' m also a prediabetic who needs to exercise I was told to walk and now I have foot pain that ' s preventing me from walking . 7 . My mother , who lives in another state , may be dealing with dementia . She ' s groping for words and has a difficult time carrying on a conversation . My sister lives in the same city she does and checks on her daily she ' s had a brain scan done on my mother and there ' s no sign of stroke . 8 . I am trying to write but I ' m having a hard time keeping my writing schedule . 9 . I am not happy about certain current events , and I am so sick of the bickering going on in this country I ' m in USA . 10 . My pure O fills my head with thoughts of swear words , sexual acts , hurting people , and bodily functions . I ' m trying to learn to accept that the thoughts are there and it doesn ' t mean I ' m bad . I read someplace that someone gave their OCD a really wimpysounding name to decrease its power . I call mine Hubert . I call my depression Elmer . My apologies to anyone here named Hubert or Elmer . I see a counselor twice a month . I ' ve been in and out of therapy since I was about 22 , and I ' m now 53 . The reason I think I have anxiety is because I get very , very tense in certain situations and I want to scream at people . Or I just shut down and do nothing . Anyway , that ' s my intro .