I was merely pretending <| sep |> The quote tries to sensationalize what is a marginal difference in padskate locking against the post , all of which are done while in the RVH blocking position . <| sep |> Google the Clinton foundation . Literally the opposite of what you just said . <| sep |> That makes me smart <| sep |> I think I ' m quite a lot like you ! Sciatica , DDD , etc , and I was about ready to back out of my fusion surgery just done 2 weeks ago , woohoo ! ! 24 hours preop , because I wasn ' t sure it was ' bad enough '. I too have been in quite a lot of pain , all day , every single day for 20 months . Whether or not it ' s pain tolerance related , though , I kept falling back on my ability to make it through the day , to keep pushing forward , as an indication that it wasn ' t so bad . I was proactive , seeking every form of conservative treatment I could , and still continued to worse . I had a series of MRIs clearly and objectively illustrating the progressive destruction of my disc . I wasn ' t on around the clock narcotics , nor had I lost my ability to walk granted though gritting the teeth was an integral part of every step ! , I was still pushing through work , and still making progress on my thesis , so in my mind it just could be that bad . Fact of the matter is that I went from being an athletic , bordering on hyperactive , outdoors enthusiast to a depressed hermit in the course of less than a year . My life changed drastically , and it wasn ' t because I gave upplayed the victim etc , it was an ease art consequence of my physical state . More than anything else , just be kind to yourself . The pain and discomfort we experience isn ' t fair , it just isn ' t . So do yourself the favor of viewing your own situation with sympathy . Realize you are amazingly strong , incredibly tough , and certainly going to fight to keep your quality of life , but it ' s okay to have bad days . It ' s okay to cry , you ' ve been dealt a shit hand and pretending you haven ' t won ' t help you in this game . I ' m definitely rambling , sorry for losing my train of thought . I just know I ' ve thought or experienced many of the things you expressed above , and remembering to be kind to myself , and realizing it ' s okay to be human in the face of this adversity helped me tremendously . I hope you have a great , and painless day . I ' m so sorry for what you ' re going through .