That would be dope <| sep |> So heaviest payload but since it ' s upper leo , doesn ' t need as much energy as a GTOGSO flight . <| sep |> If your best DB isn ' t on Dez when playing the cowboys , you cucked up . <| sep |> This might be polarizing , because it ' s a love it or hate it book , and it was shortlisted for the Man Booker last year . But God , is it infuriating . A Little Life by Hanya Yanigahara . I prefer The Passion of Gay Christ as a title , but whateverIt starts with four Manhattan hipsters who all met at Harvard . Most of them are living pretty standard Girlsesque lifestyles , except for Gay Jesus . Gay Jesus is our protagonist , and he is a piece of work . Gay Jesus was dropped on the doorstep of a monastery when he was an infant . Nobody knows who his parents are , where he came from , or what race he is , apparently . Gay Jesus is sexually and physically abused by all the monks , and one sells him into prostitution . The cops bust that one monk , and he commits suicide . Gay Jesus prostitutes himself now . He gets kidnapped by Dr . McRape , who locks him in a basement and makes him a sex slave . Dr . McRape stabs him with hot pokers and hits him with his car . Eventually , Gay Jesus gets saved by Mary Magdalesbian , who encourages him to apply to Harvard . He gets in , despite having no schooling or funding . Gay Jesus is the most brilliant mathematician and lawyer . His professor is so impressed by his dope lawyering skills that he adopts Gay Jesus , because that ' s a thing that happens . Gay Jesus is beautiful , and everyone wants a piece of him . But man , he ' s got baggage . Anyways , Gay Jesus becomes the best lawyer in all of New York . All of his friends are also fabulously wealthy and attractive . It ' s great . Except , Gay Jesus is constantly attempting suicide . His friend , Straight Actor , keeps taking him to Dr . Negligence , who gives Gay Jesus a slap on the slit wrist and tells him to stop doing that , instead of having him committed to a hospital or anything like that . Gay Jesus dates Jacobim Mugatu , who rapes him all the time and pushes him down flights of stairs . Gay Jesus finally breaks up with him . Straight Actor is straight , except for Gay Jesus . They get together , and meanwhile , Straight Actor is like the top Hollywood Star . He wins all the Oscars , honey . They live happily ever after , except for the constant suicide attempts , nonexistent sex life , and Straight Actor basically being Gay Jesus ' surrogate dad . They ' re super wealthy and travel all around the world , and host fabulous dinner parties . Also , one of their Harvard friends , who called Gay Jesus out for being needy and not seeking reasonable help , is now fat and a cokehead ! Hooray ! Then Straight Actor dies in a car crash and Gay Jesus starves himself to death . This is a weird book . Nothing makes sense . Grown men speak to each other like teenage girls , and the dialogue along with everything else is totally unrealistic . The prose is ridiculous . Everyone is either the devil himself or a perfect human being . Everyone ' s rich and famous . Nobody ' s just reasonably successful , they ' re all at the very top of their field . Also , this is torture porn .