Every week you do this , it ' s really nice thanks man <| sep |> How ? White and black people live in Detroit <| sep |> Ummmmm he said retarded uuuuuummmmmmm <| sep |> I disagree . Today my apartment manager offered me a small plate of Thanksgiving dinner . It was a mundane kind gesture , but then I realized that ' s the first time somebody has done something genuinely kind for me without expecting anything at all in return in literally more than half of my 23 years of being alive . I find that the period between Nov . 1 st and Feb . 15 th are the most miserable times of my life . Which sucks because I live in Arizona , and that ' s basically the only times the weather here doesn ' t make me want to kill myself . So no matter what it is , there ' s always something propelling me ever closer to the brink of putting an end to all of it , and yet I never seem to follow through because , I assume , I ' m just a coward . I have nobody . I have nothing . The few things I do want I will never achieve . When time catches up with me and my father eventually passes away , there will be exactly nobody who gives a fuck about me . And then , I assume I will wander around aimlessly , getting drunk whenever possible , until I pass out in Yellowstone and am mercifully eaten by a bear , who will then vomit me up into one of those boiling acid lakes because bears shouldn ' t eat giant piles of shit .