I wake up with anxiety every day . I left a job i was at for 6 years because it was a dead end and nothing i was promised happened . I moved in with my SO and his family with no rent , so i feel like a worse version of my school mates who moved back home with their parents after college , which I ' ve been out of for 6 years . with a degree in Creative Writing that I never use because I ' m too depressed to write . But at least Thanksgiving was yesterday so now there ' s alcohol in the house and i can add it to my coffee to help me smile every morning . And leftovers because I was getting sick of eating only one meal a day because my car paymeny is the last of what I have in the bank . Apparently I ' m a lot more upset about all of this than I realized .