None of the posts you linked me to even had bootloop in the title . I hope your phone holds up . But just take a peak at this <| sep |> I ' ve never been able to relate to anyone . There is always this invisible barrier I can feel who marks where the friendship I have with this person ends . I cant theorize relationships , I don ' t have a protocol on how it works and reading some clickbait bullshit like 10 ways to be likeable won ' t help anyone . I ' m able to maintain a conversation , I ' m shy but I can talk and laugh when given the possibility . But I ' m unable to relate or to be vulnerable , I recently had no idea that was a thing to do . People usually do their best to not be vulnerable and yet they are able to form relationships . I can make friends , but I know they never will be something truly important to me and the other way around . I know where I stand . The only time I actually tried and wanted to be something more with someone I realized I was being fucked over since the beginning . Fuck this , I just want to get the hell out of here . There is probably nothing for me here .