En mme temps le tram entre minuit et 7 h du matin , c ' est plus que spcial . <| sep |> my school holidays just started , so usually no one around me , i feel really lonely , i feel ' dead ' because in almost every momment of my days there is nothing alive in my perspective , making me feel like i am in a video or something , quite hard to explain , puberty just hit me , making me feel negative , my emotions are seriously unstable , and easily get hurt , i keep thinking negatively , and for my antisocial part , i don ' t really know , i tend to do excellently in class presentations , but when it comes to one on one conversations with classmates , i just become really shy , maybe it is because of the fact that i act more maturely than my peers , causing none of them to be able to understand or sympathise with me , and my intrests are also very different from them too