Sure for what <| sep |> The fact that that actually made sense is really scary to me . <| sep |> Honestly , the only thing just might be too many red speckles showing through the black primeknit , not a big deal IMO but black fabric markereasy fix . <| sep |> LITTERALLY Hitler <| sep |> I ' m M 40 s mostly in the same boat . My wife came out of the closet to me two years ago and it became clear that that we would never have sex again and would split and divorce . I started an Ashley Madison account ugh , cringe , then an Okcupid profile . I had a lot of energy for that and I chatted with women and that felt good . When I moved out , I booked up a few dates right away . and that ' s when I realized I wasn ' t ready to date . I waited a few months and tried again . I ended up dating a woman for a couple months , we had some nice meals , we had sex a couple times . But I ended up feeling nothing but dread having to get together . Some of it was the online dating thing , but most of it is me . I ' ve not dated since . That was about March . Now , I feel a lot like you described . With all the pressures of just having to get up , get my kids out the door , get to work , pay bills , deal with the election , whatever , life . I just don ' t have it in me . I think that this is the deep grief part for me . It ' s been two years since she came out to me and more than a year since I moved out . We just got divorced last month , and I think that it ' s had a bigger impact on my psyche than I would have thought . I kind of feel like there ' s life after all this , but it ' s hard to see . It ' s also kind of like time travelling . suddenly , I ' m expected to date again but ZAM ! I ' m 15 years older and so are my problems and the women and their problems !