You are 7 months in to a relationship that is already this toxic . The fact that you have so many problems this soon is a huge indication that this relationship is not healthy . Have you ever seen a therapist ? You mentioned your parents abused you . That , in combination with your post , points to your upbringing possibly manifesting in some really unhealthy ways . I would go see someone and try to resolve some of these issues so that your next relationship has a chance to be a healthy one . <| sep |> Jocko Podcast right up my alley . Love the war stories and Jocko ' s perspective on leadership , combat , and discipline . I have never been so hooked on a podcast . <| sep |> Ok ok , heres some fanfiction i wrote about this . The family receives the snoop dog turkeysLETS ALL FUCKIN EAT LETS GO HAHAHA LOVE TURKEYS ! !