I used to think so too . But I realized I don ' t enjoy looking like an androgynous weirdo . It has destroyed my social life and given me social anxiety and made me afraid to interact with others , go outside , travel , everything , my job path . Its a wall for everything . Not to mention I am keenly aware of how my features clash with being feminine and it makes me feel like a grotesque mockery of a female , or a joke of a male . One of the two . Also hormones have thinned my skin to the point where I look sick and tired . They made me look placid . So I don ' t know . what is the point of smooth skin when its stretched over a masculine canvas ? Its just awkward and clashing then , not pretty . Maybe if I could be just another person and also stay feminine looking . I would be slightly better . But I feel like such a sick joke . I don ' t feel like just another person .