I visit that sub . I talked a therapist and he didn ' t really have a problem with me visiting a forum like that . <| sep |> Lack of friends isn ' t alarming . It could just mean you are too busy else where . A more important characteristic that people judge on is HOW you deal with others . You don ' t see like a loner from what you ' ve said . Besides being a loner doesn ' t equal to being antisocial . Besides as you go along meeting guys you will undoubtedly make a few friends . Infact I would suggest meeting guys to be friends first and if things go well then slip the boyfriend card on the table . <| sep |> Mars volta televators . The song is coming to terms with realizing life isnt worth it . The song after is having the balls to end it , amazing weird album