That ' s . probably exactly why they picked it ? Literature studies should take this sort of stuff into account . <| sep |> That thing missing ? Actual transition . You are not the first girl to hide behind machismo and sarcasm . Or purge her things in an attempt to be rid of this demon . This is like buttoning up a shirt and you get that first button wrong . Every button that follows is similarly going to be wrong . You are continuing to button that shirt up knowing full well that first one is off . You can either continue to button more of them , making everything even worse fitting , or you can address the problem and fix it and button it up correctly . Yes , you are a girl and everything will be okay , but you need to start talking to a professional . And you know , it is okay to seek out help . You do not need to carry this inside all by yourself . At the risk of being called a sexist bitch , that ' s a rather male attitude you got going on there sister . You want to start on your path to womanhood realize you can accept help . You are not inherently a burden . Change is not impossible . That is an illusion . It is quite the contrary actually . Life is change . We all change . Constantly . You can change .