Dang dude , I had a similar situation with a few minor changes , except now I don ' t give two shits about her . I have met so many other girls that are much nicer and better friends than she ever was . I lost weight , my grades went way up , got a couple fat raises at work , bought my dream truck and no longer have anything tying me down . However , it sucks not being in a relationship , which is something I want , but really isn ' t viable right now . Sucks getting over someone and for me it took a bit of getting drunk with some acquaintances and really getting to know each before I realized that I wouldn ' t have been happy with her anyway . Best of luck dude , hope you find someone that knocks your socks off .