Disclaimer This ended up being waaaayy longer than I had intended it to beShe actually ended things about 6 hours after I had posted that comment . Personally I think everything that is going on fixable between the two of us but in a relationship both opinions count when it comes to these sort of things . Her and I have broken up a few times before over the years but we were able to resolve the majority of the issues and were still working on a few of them . Both her and I have depression and anxiety which made it a bit more difficult for either of us to work up the courage to bring up an issue . 34 months ago we started transitioning from being in a great relationship to being more of just best friends . She ' s been under a lot of stress since she started university because of the struggle between working to afford school while focusing to keep her grades up . She ' s a fulltime student who works parttime during the school year full time during the breaks all the while she is on of the school ' s athletic teams . She ' s incredibly driven and I ' m proud of her for being able to do all 3 at the same time . I work fulltime in retail not by choice seeing how the hours are terrible and the pay is worse and have a hobby in photography that I try to work on at least a couple times a week so our schedules don ' t line up too well but we spent as much time together as we could manage . I ' d go over to her place the majority of the time because she was typically studying but that didn ' t bother me I ' d help her study sometimes but the majority of the time I would just hangout in the same room as her while I did my own thing because it was better than not spending time with her at all . Once this semester started in September her stress levels skyrocketed and her sex drive plummeted . Mentallyemotionally she still wanted to have sex the but physical demand for it just wasn ' t there as her body was just too exhausted from the stress . Or at least that ' s my guess anyways , hell it could ' ve been just a change in hormones but I ' ll never know . Due to the lack of intimacy we started to grow more distant from each other despite sleeping with each other 34 times a week and spending as much time as we could together and in her eyes things started to get stale because we just weren ' t acting like a typical couple does . Then because of all of the stress she was under , including sexual frustration , she started to snap at me a lot more for things that were out of control or so menial that it shouldn ' t of mattered i . e . how a customer treated her at work that day or if we were talking on the phone and I had bad reception she would get mad at me for it . She typically apologized for snapping at me once she had calmed down and I always forgave her because I knew how much stress she was under and also cause ya know . I love her haha . On Tuesday though I had picked her up from class and as were driving home she had asked for us to go park somewhere to talk . I was pretty sure what was going to happen but I still went to a local park to sit . We talked for over an hour about things and then she had finally said she thought that we should break up because she didn ' t like who she had become over the last while . She didn ' t like how she was always snapping at me and taking things out on me because I didn ' t deserve it . She told me she wants to take time to work on herself and figure out how to cope with her mental disorders on her own without using me as a crutch pick her up when she was down and seek professional help if she could find a financially plausible way to do so . I can ' t be mad at her for wanting to better herself and honestly I ' m so proud of her coming to that conclusion but I ' ll be damned if I didn ' t try to convince her that all of that can be done while we are still together . I ' ve got my fingers crossed that she will come around because we have been through hell and back together and we can work on all of this together but I also don ' t want to get my hopes up and go through a second round of heartbreak . So yea that ' s how things ended with the girl of my dreams , the one who changed my perspective on many things including marriage , the one person I love more than my own family , and my best friend to boot . We ' d been with each other for almost a quarter of each of lives and I still love her death and would do anything to be able to call her mine again . Her and I had even looked up rings wedding venues online so to think that it ' s over now hurts a hell of a lot . Sorry for the rant