Change the settings in those games then . <| sep |> Cowboy fan checking in . I hate that stupid stadium . It ' s a great architectural and engineering achievement that happens to have football games there . I ' m convinced it was built eastwest to avoid creating a glare on the giant screen . <| sep |> As another poster said , you haven ' t dug this hole yourself . Think about everyone on these boards . Do you read our posts and think we deserve what we get from bipolar ? I bet you don ' t , and neither do you . It ' s the illness telling you that and it ' s not true . I ' m not sure what you have in the US sounds like you ' re there , but is there a helpline you can call ? These have volunteersstaff who won ' t judge you as we won ' t but will listen . Please also tell your psychiatrist call the office and tell them it ' s urgent . You deserve to be treated with urgency , even though I know it ' s hard sometimes physically hard to do this when you don ' t think you deserve it . If you can ' t do that , can you speak to the campus nurse or counsellor ? Please do . Always Remember that it will pass , it ' s the nature of the illness that the emptiness and hopelessness will go .