Ah OK , I just went back and reread your comments and that makes perfect sense . I ' m sorry that one didn ' t work out Do you have plans for another IVF cycle any time soon ? I believe the problem with me is that I wasn ' t suppressed enough honestly there were so many things the doctor and nurse said yesterday that I only half remember because I was so upsetin shock . My nurse emailed me yesterday and the plan for next time is to start birth control on day 2 of my next cycle , and then overlap with Lupron . I ' m just so terrified of this happening again . and again . All of this is such a mindfck . <| sep |> I do have a massive mousepad , but I feel like I really have to awkwardly move my arm to try and keep up when players are on my periphery or running past me .