I have a mod that adds master trainers of all skills around Whiterun . The illusionist is there . Starting the hunter ' s guild like someone else mentioned . And beginn I got Helen Reborn . Other than that , I only went in if I had extra loot to sell off . <| sep |> One thing at a time , dearheart . Text the cousin and ask him to tell his girlfriend assuming they ' re reasonable people . Say you don ' t want to talk about it but wanted to ask for their patience in case the holiday is hard on you . Say kind things to yourself during the commute . Tell yourself you are good and brave and strong and resilient , because you are . Tell yourself you are loving and loved , because you are . Do what feels right . Not the loud feelings like kidnapping a baby which I 100 % considered too , but the deep true feelings . You can cry . You can hold him , or refuse to look at him . You can change your mind . You can go for a walk by yourself . You can do whatever you need to as long as you are kind to yourself . Father ' s Day is for JuneSmilly to worry about . She ' ll manage . You can always lean on us . Just leave that sorrow for June . It ' ll keep . The years with your cousin and her child will also keep til later . You will find a kernel of good , and you will make it through , because the alternative is not surviving . And eventually you will wholeheartedly want to survive . Start with one hour at a time . You will make it through .