One of the best pieces of editing in the episode was how word got out about Jay ' s idol . You go from Will only knowing to EVERYONE in under a minute . Was hilarious . <| sep |> There is a computer store I frequent regularly that often has HUGE sales on off lease computers Old office ones . Only problem is they are mostly small form factors . Every time they go on sale I look at them and think . If only I could get an RX 460 in there , that would make a decent gaming rig . <| sep |> I ' d be careful doing thatpDqea 9 cWOn 4 <| sep |> You ' re fucking 17 . You ' re still a kid on the very early stages of your life . You ' re about to hit the final period of adolescence where redefining yourself and drastic life changes are normalized and often expected . Very few people look back on the period you ' re in and think ' those were the good years ! '. And the ones who do only do so because the rest of their life turned out to be shit . I know that doesn ' t provide a lot of solace when you ' re in the middle of it . But its important you realize don ' t allow your feelings about your current situation affect how you view your personal identity . So you feel your life is kind of lame right now . That doesn ' t mean you are lame . Amd you haven ' t wasted years because those years have made you who you are right now . If nothing else , its those years that are going to motivate you to make the next 5 years super awesome . Don ' t ever resent or regret your life . Regret specific decisions and allow it to inform and change how you act going forward rather than moping in self criticism . You don ' t like who you are right now ? Good news you don ' t have to be that person anymore then ! And that ' s the second thing . Change is really hard in your situation . You ' re surrounded by people who have known you forever and most peoples identity and social structure is fairly static . High school is the antithesis of personal growth and self discovery . I started to feel a little antsy and trapped when I was in the final years of high school . I ' d always been this bookish goody goody nerd and I felt like it was this lie . Like I ' d been cast in this role as the perfect actor to play the part . But now we were 6 years into the show and the casting just didnt make sense anymore . But no matter what I did , I was still expected to be that character . So I started pushing back amd while it was in small ways and I saw very little change in my external situation , it helped me discover a lot about myself and grow . So the next year I went to college and almost seamlessly fell into a different role . Because I was so used to pushing in that direction that when I finally met people who didn ' t resist that identity , they rolled with it with no hesitation . You ' re not suddenly going to undergo a reinvention . Its just not gonna happen in high school . College ? Easy peasy . If you want change in high school , its gonna be small . Focus on the things you do have control over . Really figure out what is making you dissatisfied and what would make you happy . Nobody is ever gonna care if you went to high school parties . All the good parties happen in college anyway . And nobody cares if you dated the popular girl or if you didn ' t so much as kiss a girl until you ' re 20 . People care much more about the end result than they do about the process that got them there . And in my experience the coolest most well rounded adults are the ones who didn ' t blossom until later in life . It seems like you want some female attention . So find a female ! She doesn ' t have to sweep you off your feet and make you feel like she ' s the one . You ' re just looking for someone to chill and have fun with for a few month until you graduate . And I guarantee you there are girls who feel similarly . Are there any girls in classes that you get along with or who make you laugh ? Focus on building a connection with them rather than pining after a girl who it sounds like has already rejected you . Even if if doesnt lead to anything , its good practice and helps you practice your game . It also sounds like you ' re in a rut . Maybe try to hangout with new people from time to time or do something new when you do hangout with the old friends . Ruts can really make you spiral fast . You might not be able to create large changes right now . But that doesnt mean you need to feel stuck for 7 months . Think about it like prison . Because honestly that ' s exactly what high school is senior year . Its this shitty constricting place that you ' re trapped in . nothing is gonna change that . You can mope in your cell for 7 months . Or you can visit the library and read some books and build up a sick body for when you get out . Work on your small talk . Work on putting ourselves out there and into new situations that make you uncomfortable . Work on flirting . Work on becoming friends with new people . Work on your self confidence . Work on your appearance I find this is super under appreciate with straight guys . Looking good helps you feel good . Figure out clothing and hair and whatnot that makes you feel really confident You might not be able to change your surroundings or social standing . All you can control is yourself . So work on yourself . You ' ll start to see changes . And then in 7 months you ' ll be in a new surrounding regardless and you ' ll be super happy that rather than depending on a location change for personal growth that you put in the work and forced yourself to grow alreadyBecause if you don ' t work on those things now , its not gonna be different on a college campus . I know a lot of people who expected college to suddenly fix their problems . But it just provides you an opportunity to redefine yourself . Unless you actually change yourself on a real internal level , nothing will ever change . So just focus on yourself and let the rest follow .