Love Stage ! lol . They ' d judge me so hard for watching ShounenAi . <| sep |> I know your feeling . I have been struggling with this feeling . Facing the fact that anything will last forever is what sometimes gives me strength to keep going . It is not easy . It is a fight . A fucking fight inside your heart . nowhere else . But . if instead of fighting back yourself you take care of yourself like you were your own son or a good friend could help . My friend . I am really sorry of what you are going trough . Please , remember that anything lasts forever . not even this feeling . Love yourself , be nice with you , even try to spoil you a little bit , letting yourself the chance to feel bad , really bad for one hour or less . Then , push yourself to make a call , or to go out , brush your hair with tender , put oil on your skin , watch your eyes on the mirror . love yourself . you do not need anything else but you to be happy . And also remember that being happy is not the goal of this life . the goal is to serve , to create and to learn . happiness is not the goal . Do not get me wrong . I am pretty sad right now . but we can not surrender to this feeling