This will vary wildly depending on the interpretation . Because for every one decision I ' ve made has meant discarding an infinity . There is an alternative me that is everything that I could hope to be . There is another that died of alcohol poisoning in a ditch at sixteen . So let ' s do what I think is my most defining characteristic . I do not drink . I imagine that if I ever did , I would have become an alcoholic . So that ' s who I fight . A strong , but unhealthy man . Overweight from drinking too much , he stumbles toward me in the alleyway , muttering curses about the government , Mexicans and whatever other conspiracies he ' s heard on fox . He ' s stronger than me , having actually learned how to work out at a gym . But , perhaps , he has less stamina . I do light exercise every day . He almost certainly throws the first punch after a cutting and cynical remark from me about the country . If it hits true , I ' m probably done . If not , he ' s off balance and can ' t run very well . I can avoid him until I choose when to make a hit . Mostly it ' s a fight with myself to see if i can even through a punch . I ' m reluctant . Eventually , I find a pole , or a chair or something to give myself some range . I know that I don ' t have the strength to really do damage on my own , so it must be a weapon . He comes at me again , and I brain him with it .