You won ' t work with this director for sure . Beyond that , your career should be fine as long as they ' re not the only director in town . I ' d focus on trying to get over your self destructive tendencies . I get it , I was exactly like that a year ago . I wish I had an easy fix , but I don ' t . Just do your best to improve yourself in small ways as often as you can . Good luck <| sep |> While I binge drank in my early 20 s , ten years later drinking culture for me is like 4 to 6 quiet pints and chatting or playing games with mates . Will get nice a nice buzz going but not drunk . Clubs or loud music can fuck right off , I just want to talk to people . Some mates smoke weed , which is grand because they can usually still hold a conversation but most other drugs turn people into unbearable wankers . An auld heavy session could happen every now and then but you ' ve lost the weekend then so it takes a bit of forward planning .