and then you cry as you eat the pitiful excuse for a meal as you think about how much more pitiful you are <| sep |> I feel like shit for it but I was that person . Obviously I could not feel the same kind of pain he did , as the undoer of our relationship , but I did suffer and would often cry just at the thought of him being alone , had nightmares of him being gone , lost him as the closest friend I ' ve ever had in my life . It ' s easy to villainize the person who ultimately made the decision , even if it was a difficult one . <| sep |> there ' s a way to care for a 14 year old girl without ' doing it '.<| sep |> you are getting up earlier now ? <| sep |> i see he ' s trying to rage quit his way to master . 4 th on cfn now .