alright thank u . I had a hard time deciding which one i should have as my main <| sep |> I admit i cared , but i would have been so much happy if we left rory at a good place in life . Now the best that i can hope for is she can stop drinking <| sep |> I certainly enjoyed my quiet dinner with my family and boyfriend . I just have a ton of leftovers which I will be serving tonight as well . It just hurts that they claim to love and care while trying to derail me into drinking . I have made my choice and they will not sway me . I feel mentally and physically better . My head is clear . I can ' t say I ever thought it would be like this , I thought I would be miserable but I am not in the slightest . Thanks for the kind words .