How ' d you like the limestone ? I don ' t climb , but I ' m out and about often , what area where you in ? <| sep |> It actually hurts me seeing Assyrians from the Chaldean and Syriac churches say they ' re not Assyrian . Syriac Orthodox members were the founders of Assyrian nationalism and started our Dawronoye movement , pivotal to helping our people . When I saw Mor Aphrem and Mor Younan call for Syriac to be introduced to the census , I was surprised because I thought Mor Aphrem supported the Assyrian movement . However , I still respect them , they ' re my people and I will still treat them that way even if they do not say they are Assyrian . <| sep |> Your lament brings to mind one of my favorite quotes Nothing of me is original . I am the combined effort of everyone I ' ve ever known . Chuck PalahniukAnyway . Realization that you are unhappy with a part of yourself causes change . If you don ' t like that you buy into fads , stop buying into fads . Watch them from the sidelines for a bit before adopting them or not . My Mom has one of those puffballs and it gets stuck on stuff all the time and she can ' t put her keys in her pocket . It was cute til I learned of the logistics of owning one . You say you feel most like yourself when you are around your boyfriend ? Start being that way around others . If you ' re worried about judgment from people close to you , you could start this social experimentation around strangers . I used to have very bad social anxiety . So bad that I couldn ' t have a short simple conversation about anything with anyone . I hated that it ruled my life , so I started forcing myself to have little conversations with strangers at the grocery store or gas station or customers at work . It started out as little one liners or talking about the weather , and now I can have full conversations with people about anything they bring up . I think the most challenging part of life so far has been figuring out who I am and who I want to be . I felt like a selfaware onion , peeling back the layers to get to the center , crying the whole time .