I ' d say CT has the least amount of tough farm kids . We definitely have farms , but most of them aren ' t set up in the way that would result in farm kids . <| sep |> is there anything you can actually tell us about it , or is it all just oooh man those NDAs really are serious ! <| sep |> Fuck up . Do it fuck up in conversation with people . When the world fails to end , go and do it again , but use what you learned last time to fuck up just a little less . If the world still refuses to end , you ' ve got yourself a method . Think of it like playing Dark Souls you ' re gonna die again , and again , and again , and again , and eventually you ' ll start dying less , and you ' ll recognize that dying isn ' t really that bad . Wait , bad analogy . Source massively awkward and depressed human in the mirror . It can be more complicated , but it doesn ' t have to be more complicated . I ' d recommend seeing a therapist it ' s helped me quite a lot , but if you can get to talking it over with someone trustworthy and caring , you ' re on the right path .