its always Reaper , Hanzo and Genji . usually I play Sombra and just hack people as a precaution . <| sep |> I ' m extremely lucky that my job does the same , although not that extent . 15 mins an hour , up to like 4 hours if you ' re in and out , hopping on and off the laptop although we are in the US . Just expanded to Canada though , so we ' ll see how that goes and if it makes a difference on the US side . <| sep |> I know exactly how you feel , friend . It ' s hard . I ' m doing the same thing pushing people away , then feeling like I don ' t matter to anyone . But you should keep in mind that the first step to change is finding the problem . We all have things we can improve about ourselves , and for me , it ' s worth expending the effort to try to minimize those particular parts of myself . I haven ' t made a lot of progress , but change takes time . Maybe you should make that effort to change something . Things don ' t often get better on on their own , at least not as often as they get worse on their own . Remember that despite what you feel , people do care about you . If you need someone to talk to , I ' m here . I ' m not the best at saying comforting things or giving advice by a long shot , but I know that it helps to have someone to talk about it with .