Good for your grandma ! That admission must have cost her but her honesty and listening to you and actually responding in a positive way by not telling you that you are wrong thats hope right there ! <| sep |> Yelling and ranting at people is unpleasant but not life threatening like road rage . I would avoid driving and see your doctor for help with that one . This whole thing just sucks , doesn ' t it ? I am so tired of destroying things and relationships that I care about because apparently caring about something doesn ' t affect whether I can change my behaviour surrounding it , and yet it does for other people , so everyone ' s perfectly logical assumption is that I don ' t care . I care A LOT . And all that happens is that that caring becomes inturned anger because I can ' t fucking show it in the way that it matters to other people . I don ' t blame people for making that jump but I also don ' t know how to explain it to them because in the end , it ' s not good enough , is it ? Nobody cares what you meant to do . They only care what you did , or didn ' t , do .