Do you feel guilty for anything actually in your control ? Besides the actual breakup which was the result of a clear line drawn which he crossed , what you feel guilty for was not in your control . You can ' t resolve your guilt until you recognize that . Mourn the relationship you lost , yes , but don ' t beat yourself up over things out of your control . I think moving on and enjoying a new relationship would be the best thing for you . <| sep |> The ditto ' s face says it all <| sep |> Thanks . Yer probably attractive so i wouldnt sweat it love <| sep |> But the yao dude didnt react to the sneaky blockheads mos ! <| sep |> I understand this . My parents have sacrificed a lot to provide for me and my siblings , and for that I love them . But , they ' re also incredibly homophobic and I ' m passed the point of selfpity . I ' ve realised that I ' ve done all the developing I can as an individual at home and in my home town . I need to move because , sink or swim , I need to continue to develop . Part of that includes exploring my sexuality without the fear of being caught and ostracized , or worse .