I really hate the idea of anonymous blogging . It ' s just giving online trolls a platform and fake news can easily be spread . <| sep |> If I lose I become the man that talked the talk but did not walk the walk . I go back to fighting in front of 100 people in GAA halls for 150 . I ' ve lost my mind doing this . Like Vincent van Gogh . He dedicated his life to his art and lost his mind in the process . That ' s happened to me . But fuck it . When that gold belt is around my waist and when my mother has a big mansion , when my girlfriend has a different car for every day of the week , when my kids have everything they ever wantthen it will pay . Then I ' ll be happy I lost my mind . I ' ll die a crazy old man ! This one really got to me . Made me rethink how I mentally approach my daytoday currently . I ' m trying to become the third person of anyone I have ever met in my entire extended family to get a degree . I ' m taking 15 credits and working 4856 hours a week , and when I start to unravel a little bit , I think of this quote and refocus on my motivations .