keep paying the monthly fees , etc . UltiCentral does not charge a monthly fee , rather fee per user and it is significantly low . UltiCentral is also owned by people who play Ultimate . <| sep |> I ' ve never wanted to be single . College fucking scarred me for life when it comes to being single . Worst four years ever . I ' m now in a relationship going on four years and it ' s great . This sub is like a car wreck you can ' t look away . It ' s so fucking insane . Single life is nutty . <| sep |> This line is the same line you see lookers right on the video . I knew that Sunburst was prone to big slides , but I always check the report . It ' s really good when it ' s good . Take an Avy class ! <| sep |> First , thank you for such a long and thoughtful response . It is not that I feel bad morally or that I hurt anyone . The problem is that I just feel worthless . I wish that being transgender was just a feature I have , but it is much more than that . Gender is foundational in so many ways , and not having it align is making it impossible for me to really live or be a person . The reason I feel like I am bad is because I feel like I have nothing to offer in any capacity . To really feel like a good person , it seems like I need to be good for something . Also , I realize that objectively this is not true , but society is so bigoted that it is effectively true . I have been rejected by so many groups of people so many times , and yes , they might be cruel , but I am still effectively the problem . I am just tired of being so lonely and unable to function it has been the story of my life . Acceptance seems to be heavily tied to passing as the gender you are transitioning to , and I would like to try to find a way to deal with the possibility of never finding acceptance if I do not pass . Because right now , I plan to kill myself if I am unable to pass , and it brings me down for long periods every day .