130 pages total or just of actual writing ? Because my copy goes up to 175 numbered pages . <| sep |> But sometimes in older relationships I had that went sour , I cannot help but wonder if it was my intentions purely at the energetic level that had a part to play in their downfall . You can label this stuff however you want man , but there ' s a very solid body of knowledge around here , that might bring you to many of the same century old conclusions , based mainly on psychology and using a lot of pua lingo . <| sep |> Video deleted , gg . <| sep |> Give it 2 years we ' ll see posters like this on FB or rfowardsfromgrandma <| sep |> I think she was being the male in this situationThink about it , you as a man are generally dominant , as men we are for the most part on top . If you like when people fuck you give it to someone , women receive , from a technical point of view you give a woman your seed . So what I think happened here is she sees the roles reversed as she is giving it to you , and you ' ve swapped your sexes , both of you . Probably why she called you girl , as she ' s the one doing the giving and you ' re receiving . Either way nothing to worry about . You enjoyed it , she enjoyed it . At some point she ' ll explain or you ' ll probably ask .