Funny , that is EXACLTY my roll as well hahaha . <| sep |> Feel the nostalgia ! <| sep |> I understand the feeling , I ' m currently in remission in my early twenties and seen peers from the young adult ward pass away from either the cancer itself or complications through treatment . The important thing is to never forget them and how they would be happy to see you getting on with everything ! I would recommend you see if your hospital has a psychologist or support worker available for a chat about your feelings in the UK these are normally employed by the teenage cancer trust or macmillan as they have helped me get through survivors guilt and getting back to ' normality ' alot ! It ' s awful to see friends pass , especially when you have been in the same boat through treatment and diagnosis and I understand this causes alot of emotions and thoughts to creep up but I wish you all the best and hope you work it out .