Same here , he is my favorite support and 1 of the reasons I became a c 9 fan . He was playing with c 9 challenger you probably know that last split , and it was said he was going to be part of the team when bought , so hopefully we ' ll see him next split in the LCS . <| sep |> Yeah looking at the numbers one Zumwalt cost only half a billion less than the first of the Nimitz class . <| sep |> Every time I fail I ask myself what happened ? Was there a trigger ? Did I give myself time to let the craving pass ? I do this by having a bath , coming to SD , eat chocolate etc . What was I running from ? Did the wine help or just make it harder to face the next day ? Did it fix my problem or just add a nice big portion of self loathing to deal with too ? This morning as my hair was falling out in clumps hairdresser messed up big time I was in tears and for one minute I decided that I ' ve done a week , well done me , I ' ll have wine tonight . It ' s Friday . Yes , that ' s what I ' ll do . I ' ll only drink on Fridays . I acknowledged the thought and then reminded myself how shitty it would feel to a wake up with a hangover and b have to reset my badge . No thanks ! ! Only you can do this for yourself but you might feel it helpful toGo to a meeting Read This Naked Mind if you haven ' t alreadyWatch YouTube videos of recovering alcoholicsWatch YouTube AA talks It ' s hard work but it ' s harder to keep drinking and feeling sadshamescaredguilty . I ' m proud to say out loud I don ' t drink and it ' s only been a week . I know you can do this but you have to believe it yourself . If you tell yourself it ' s too hard , you ' ll fail then that is exactly what will happen . You deserve to not poison yourself . You deserve to be healthy . You deserve to be happy . You deserve more than living infor a bottle of poison . I will not drink with you today .