There ' s a lot of reasons for it . I ' m fairly selective when it comes to dating . Every time I find someone I like , they end up not being interested in me . I ' m a nerd . For most people , that ' s not too big of an issue . Apparently I tend to have nerdy hobbies that people find unattractive i . e . playing Pokemon semicompetitively , building Gunpla , watching anime . It ' s weird that it ' s an issue in my third year in college , but most people seem to think that we ' re still in high school . I have a lot of issues . A history of emotional abuse from my biological father and his family got out of that hellhole a few years ago has left me with a ton of self worth and confidence issues . I ' ve learned that it ' s best to just to be alone while I work through some of this . I suck at picking up the cues that someone is interested in me . Or , alternately , I pick up on cues but the person really isn ' t interested and just likes to flirt with people . Yes , that happens . A lot . And most important of all I don ' t have time or money . I work at Starbucks and I ' m a full time student , so I ' m always broke and working my butt off to pay for my tuition . Since I transferred from another college , my scholarship options are limited and mostly suck . I have to save 90 % of every paycheck just to pay for my classes and books from semester to semester . What little is left is nowhere near enough for even a cheap date after paying for gas .