The way he looks in the complete opposite direction of everyone makes it so heavy . <| sep |> Anxiety crisis did hurt more than depression for me . I ' ve had a really bad episode a month ago where my my blood pressure and my heart rate were off the charts for a week , while the chest pain of anxiety was almost preventing me from working I would also vomit while crying during the peak of my angsts . Thankfully these periods are short and do not come often in my life . I don ' t have any goal in life . I only try to have hopes and dreams , so that I don ' t care too much when these just stay dreams . I don ' t look for control in life . If my life could be compared t the life of a bird , I ' d say I just try to fly through the storms and glide on the warm winds , al while trying to do the most beautiful barrel rolls .