I read all of this and I ' m still not sure why you think you might have been dickish . Can you explain ? In general , it ' s good to keep in mind that a relationship is an entity that ' s independent from the two individual people that are in it . Sometimes a relationship can be not so good , even if there ' s nothing wrong with either of the people in it . So , blame the relationship , not her or yourself . <| sep |> And this year the Finnish Polica has shot 3 people dead . Which has brougth up discussions , because its such high amount compared to other years . <| sep |> Honestly if I here ' s hoping am on a plateaued income between 35 and 50 k trying to buy anywhere south of the M 25 then in all likelihood I ' ll be spending longer saving then I would have if my tuition fees had totalled 9 K rather than 40 K . Should note that I ' m taking the removed maintenance grants that I could have got into that current tuition repayment figure