Can you just imagine how terrible she must feel ? To work for 30 years as a public servant . To dedicate your whole life to this country . To have spent the past 20 ish years working towards the Presidency . All to be taken down by an angry unqualified buffoon and a stupid unnecessary mistake that you made a few years ago . Despite having a massive lead in votes , now you ' re just relegated to a quiet notsopublic life . <| sep |> How much sleep I need <| sep |> You should be able to break a hundred . You just should . It ' s a common denomination . That isn ' t your fault . company policy should change . <| sep |> What an awful way to die . Alone , afraid , and in pain . <| sep |> And one last thing my problems with Marxism , as currently constituted , is hardly the result of some terrible encounters with first world selfdescribed leftists . Yeah , I have had that , and I do tend to single out the Revolutionary Communist Party of Canada for polemical purposes because I ' ve had acutely bad experiences with them but also have long held deep , deep line disagreements but I also have close to 15 years of working and having long theoretical discussions with nonIndigenous Maoists PCRRCP , Maoist Communist Group , folks in the Red Guards groups , Revolutionary Initiative etc , MarxistLeninists of various stripes Workers World Party , Party for Socialism and Liberation , Communist Party of CanadaMarxistLeninist , Freedom Road Socialist Organization the one that really likes Stalin , Trotskyists Solidarity , New Socialist Group , IMT Canada , folks from the Debs Tendency in SPUSA and classstruggle anarchists the IWW , former Common Cause in Canada as well as NEFAC and other precursor formations to the current Black Rose Federation in the u . s . and probably most closely with the Revolutionary AntiImperialist Movement and revolutionary Black nationalist organizations deeply influenced by Marxism namely the Uhuru Movement , with whom I was deeply involved for many years , and the NAIMI ' ve actually participated in general meetings of the PGRNA as an observer . It ' s given me ample time to study their line documents , theoretical orientations and philosophical perspectives . I also am , full disclosure , currently an academic also been in the working world for many years doing actual labour in the concrete products industry as well doing a Ph . D in Sociology with strong backgrounds in anthropology , history , political economy and philosophy , so currently I scrape by doing nothing but studying . I initially attacked everything , both academically and politically , from a very orthodox Marxist mostly MarxistLeninistMaoist and later Third Worldist perspective but it was actually getting down in the dirt in my people ' s struggles to be free of settler colonialism , doing water and land defence work , attempting to build revolutionary indigenous organizations etc , that lead me to a critique of orthodox Marxism . Basically I showed up and folks ' response , pretty much across the board , was fk off with that euro st , come back once you have really learned . So I did . I threw myself into it and now I am where I am . A similar thing happened when the original settler and mestizo members of the EZLN went down to Chiapas and immersed themselves in the Maya communities there . And honestly , I think a similar thing might happen to broader north amerikan settler marxism if it didn ' t approach us and our struggles with a mindset creepily like that of its christian missionary forebears seeking to save our savage souls with the gospel of revolutionary science