En los sanguchitos . <| sep |> This all happened in the span of a month . I ' m sorry , but I still needed some time to process things and figure out what I wanted from my father after years of expecting nothing . I was waiting until I was mentally ready and able to start rebuilding a relationship with him . I thought I would have more time , which I now know was obviously a mistake . At the hospital , we did start to rebuild our relationship . We talked about everything that has happened over the past years , we talked about things we could possibly do in the future , he even met my boyfriend that I ' ve been dating for over a year . Now I understand that I ' m not 100 % blameless in this , and I absolutely am aware that I could have done more , been a better daughter , what have you , but it ' s not as easy as just deciding in one day that everything was all peachy and okay again , and I could talk to him after years of silence . I was angry because I was under the impression that he had lied about something very serious just to get me to feel bad and come out and see him . That wouldn ' t have been the first time something like that has happened . And yes , I do understand that I could have picked up the phone when he called . But it ' s just not that simple .