Idk wtf is happening . but I ' m so sorry . <| sep |> Right ! You get ready to scold them and then they give you this look of hey I ' m cute and your heart melts and you give them the rest of your food . <| sep |> Agreed . You can look into MinerGate though if you want to mine a little bit just for the hell of it . You ' re going to do better with alt currencies than Bitcoin . <| sep |> I just want to chime in with a hug and a fist bump for making it this far . The discomfort you describe actually IS dysphoria , it ' s socialrelational dysphoria , and it can be on its own spectrum of uncomfortable to agonizing , separate from strictly physical dysphoria . I know I ring that bell a lot here in the sub but it ' s because it ' s the dysphoria I suffer , and it is fairly agonizing to me , and the fact that it wasn ' t the more commonlyrecognized body dysphoria influenced how long it took me to realize and accept that I was trans . Once I had the realization , both dysphorias increased , but so did the pace I took towards treatment and feeling a lot better . I agree with others that starting with a few small things like binding and a haircut , pausing in wearing makeupbrasfeminine jewelry if that ' s still going on , experimenting with masculine names and pronouns online , or checking out a local trans support group if there is one , are things you might try with no real commitment . If they make you feel better , though , a gender counselor might be a useful next step . In any case , you are welcome here and I wish you the best of luck !