Thought it was going to be a league post . Not even sorry . <| sep |> K . Then shoot your password over to me and I ' ll edit your posts if it is no big deal . <| sep |> You being a Patriots fan couldn ' t understand . <| sep |> Raiding everything in everyones houses . Specifically my friends , neighbors and so on . And probably a lot of strangers to . Just image going full ham with an axe in someone ' s home , checking their browser history , eating everything good I find . <| sep |> what cert ? <| sep |> Beatrix , Lightning , and Serah . Wanted a mage burst , got it , despite being one of the lesser ones . Good enough ! <| sep |> I feel for you , I really do . I ' ve been depressed for about 15 of the last 18 years . Not about anything in particular , I ' ve come to recognize that the emotional and physical feelings are there first and at that point pretty much anything is depressing . I have suicidal ideations all the time , never has to be for a very good reason . It sounds like there ' s a chance you would benefit from psych meds , they don ' t always make it all better but most of the time they make things more manageable . But I can understand why you are not interested there . This might sound pretty basic but do you get any regular exercise ? I have an extremely hard time getting myself to start but I am currently exercising at home for about 1015 minutes a day . Within 2 to 3 days of starting this up my depression always improves dramatically . It ' s not a miracle cure but it helps me out a great deal and as my mood improves my motivation to keep it going grows exponentially because not being stuck down in that hole is so much better .