I always take solace in the fact that pretty fades . One of the big lessons that living with chronic pain has taught me is that all the makeup , hair , and clothing doesn ' t make me a better person and it ' s not what makes me who I am . I will admit I have moments where I hate my flabby 30 pounds too heavy body . I have times where every line and furrow pain and anger has left on my face sticks out like a neon sign . There are times where I look in the mirror and hardly recognize the exhausted , angry , pajama dweller I ' ve become . But then I also remember that I ' m doing the absolute best that I can , I remember that I can still look good different but good if I take my time getting pulled together . I remember that I ' m smart and that I ' m strong stronger than most people because living with chronic paininvisible illnesscancer and its treatmentcerebral palsy has made me and all of us gladiatorcross fit strong ! In the end smart and strong is what really matters . If you want to feel better about yourself do some little things . Go get your nails done I get mine done religiously every 3 weeks . Even in the depths of having chemotherapy I kept them up because they make me feel pretty , make my hands look AMAZING and are a great conversation starter Go get your hair done . cut and or color will make you feel like a whole new person . Sometimes a big hair change can also be a HUGE pick me up . Get yourself a bunch of fashion magazines and spend a bit fantasizing about all the fabulous clothes you ' d buy with a perfect body and an obscene amount of money . plus you might find some beauty tipsfashion ideas that you didn ' t think of beforeHope you feel as good as possible and that you remember how amazing you are just because you get up every day and keep going .