i dont care where you put it . put it somewhere it is convenient for you on the map preferably in the nexus . I just need a patch of rift wood on swamp ground for plans i have for later . location doesn ' t matter , just the existence . <| sep |> I ' ll double down and give you an short essay Two things come to mind all or nothing thinking and the idea of failing upward . Forgive me for whatever gets lost in translation , but I ' ll offer you the benefit of perspective being twenty years older and certainly having suffered and succeeded by both the above . Never underestimate that having the aspiration to decide you have things to think through and improve upon is at core a desire to increase your compassion by cultivating it developing it . It ' s not static , we choose to take action or not . But often people overlook the simplicity that a thought always precedes an action . This orderly simple process never fails you think something , determine decide , choose , imagine yourself as . to do it , go and do it . Experience is your reward . If you learn to think about owning this process in yourself and getting as good as you can be at it as a particular long term goal , fresh ideas ought to come and expand the notion of long term goals in your thinking . Donating is still charitable ' work ' if you see it in the context of taking action vs . volunteering time . I ' ve done both but enjoy tithing regular amounts to organizations on a recurring monthly basis so I don ' t have to think about it and not volunteer time . Money is NOT easily earned or viewed that way by the majority of people . So right there the fact you feel that way you have a benefit , a strength , maybe a born talent to cultivate wealth in your life and use for greater good . To think of the long term as bullshit is an example of all or nothing thinking . Just because you do not know what you want to do in 5 years time does not mean lots of people are crazy passionate about something right here and now and so caught up in it that the next 5 , 10 , 15 years go by in blink . It is a matter of where you place your attention , every second , every minute of every hour of the day . I think it is an incorrect assertion that someone is wrong , lying or moronic , it may be true for some and not true for others , but the real truth is it is all varying degrees . Life is not all or nothing even when we are behaving all or nothing . At first , it seems life is gonna grind and chip away and wear you down and resign you to a form of lonely awareness that is uniquely all your own . And even in that moment you are but a choice . Should I kill myself ? Should I struggle to achieve my good ? Free will , what a bitch of responsibility , and so the keys to our inner liberation . We grow only through our problems and discomfort . On that basis resistance to life than becomes our greatest support and an inexhaustible source of energy no other can give us . It is not a matter of religiosity but we must come to find some kind of support , belief , or awareness that connects the dots that we are not merely alive but are life itself . Then you are unstoppable because your recognizing your are one with it all and not outside of it . This type of thinking plagues young people the idea that you are separate and not a part of it . It ' s a bit of the myth of the individual and the market perpetuates this thinking to its own great profit . Having no long term goal is a strength for you now . It is ok to be ' lost ', preferable even for a time , but its not your opinion or position that inspires me its the fact you are thinking about and expressing it . No better time than your twenties for questioning and choosing I think of it as gathering things that define and clarify your purpose and the kinds of experiences your interested in having . I understand what you mean by being concerned about a 2530 year old with a locked in frame of mind towards their goals , but it ' s really nothing to have a solid opinion about . Think about a kid who wants to be an olympic champion . The gold medal is not won in the event itself . It ' s won in the endless effort of minutes , weeks , months and years of practice and preparation leading up to the event . Now distill that down to anybody who want to achieve anything . The bullshit of getting up and grinding it out everyday . Self sacrifice and dedication are real . And it is eternally true that if you persist at something with no intention of stopping you cannot be denied ever . Digest that carefully , there is no way you can be stopped . Only your thinking can stop you because you decided to stop . If not , than onward through every perceived setback . That is what is meant by failing upward . I remind you though that is not what an interviewer is looking to hear because they will suspect you may just move on , why invest training resources into an individual who may or may not stay ? Employee retraining is a huge loss expenditure in many businesses . I agree with you but practically speaking it is best to project confidence and stability vs . wonderful inspiring existential thinking . Keep that aspect of the conversation out of the interview room . Besides , if you are truly interested and sincere in working for someplace or someone in particular your focus ought to be in how best can I serve this person or situation I want to be a part of and what changes do I need to make to keep that all in place . Identify those areas in the interview , express them and you will undoubtably get hired . I assure you if you owned a company and its your skin in the game you would not allow people to feel lost . You may develop systems to give them time to learn how to recharge creatively on and off site . But you would be deeply invested in their productivity otherwise mediocrity and failure looms . Thats another complex question and deserving of a conversation all its own . Your thinking strikes me as charitable , not weak at all , and properly placed although healthily mixed with 20 something cynicism , confusion , angst etc . It is just my opinion but I think you are to thoughtful to be depressed . Be careful with what you label in yourself say the word enough , become the word . Learn to protect your thinking . Sometimes we can ' t choose our boss or our shitty job . But then again we can , and you did , and as you pointed out look where it led you . You made a courageous choice and it paid off . Maybe it was risky but it required an adventurous spirit to do such a thing . I for one applaud that , fear paralyzes a lot of young people and kills a natural instinct for adventure . Wish people well in the best most impersonal loving way you can and then , close the door , let it go from your thinking and focus on yourself . Recognize you are doing excellent invaluable inner work that is giving you the foundation for those goals when you decide to act upon them whatever they may be . That is my opinion . I agree that societal pressure and the market is always trying to get in our heads and insert a wedge and extract a buck from you and no emotional trigger is spared in this attempt . Therefore , it takes time and to sort out what is artificial and what is worth keeping . It takes inner discipline to keep your grace and composure of thought against all that effort and the billions of ad dollars behind it , with or without a clearly defined goal . As long as you do no harm to yourself , others , nor feel your moral ethical base is compromised your intentions , imagination and efforts are yours alone , after all no one else is going to live your life for you . So , let no one else in there to interfere when you ' ve made your mind up about what you want to do . TlDR You are right on track and definitely OK . The inner person rules all . Keep up the good work . ps . keep this for yourself and out of the interview !