So he was asking for your details as it was his Reg plate that would be picked up on the camera and he wanted to say it was you , yes ? I really want a baguette and soup now <| sep |> Probably the smarter business choice . I ' m crushed , as you were my only hope to see CHIKARA guys in Houston , but clearly you ' re onto something and there ' s no reason to over reach . I ' ll hope you get everything developed at home and can bring your show on the road in a year or two . I think I read you ' re planning on selling videos of your shows later ? Will they be digital or just physical ? <| sep |> Hey , this IS important . You aren ' t being dramatic at all . What happened was a serious trauma to you and you have a good reason to be upset . As a human being in a respectful , caring relationship which it sounds like you are ! you are naturally going to feel a great deal of trust toward your partner . You expect him to behave in kind , considerate ways all the time , and that ' s reasonable . In fact it sounds like he is a good person and is generally very dependable in that . When he had sex with you while you were sleeping , there are two things to keep in mind your experience his intentionBoth of these are important and both of them can coexist . Your experience was one of rape . While you were sleeping , and in trust that your bf would respect you , you experienced him attacking you , ignoring your protests , and physically hurting you . Regardless of anything else , that is going to be painful to you . You may know that he didn ' t mean it , but on some level your brain is going to react with trauma because of the literal circumstances . This doesn ' t mean you are bad or that you overreacted . His intentions are also important , because it seems clear that he did not have consciousness when he did this . He has sexsomnia and it is similar to sleepwalking in that the person doesn ' t seem to be able to understand what their body is doing . So while you did experience rape , he did not intentionally rape you , if that makes sense . It doesn ' t make your feelings and experience less valid , but it does mean that he ' s not a monster . You may need to get some personal therapy to work through the feelings that resulted from this . I would recommend it especially since it is an unusual situation and many support groups are oriented toward survivors of rape who were targeted by predators and criminals . And yes , he needs to get to the doctor right away . For the time being , it ' s probably wise to have him sleep alone , as sad as that may sound . You need to be safe while you sleep , there is a real possibility that you can develop PTSD from these attacks .