theres a post from 4 days ago look fo it also killion bout to drop some heat in 10 mins <| sep |> Holy shit I didn ' t know you were on FashionReps too lmao <| sep |>. but think of all the poor kidnappers and extortionists that will also benefit from this ! It ' s the gift that keeps on giving . <| sep |> Short answer bilateral pneumonia associated with weakness , fatigue , fever , weight loss , headache . I first came down with a mild bronchitis that progressed to a nearmortal pneumonia . I eventually spent a month critically ill in ICU while pathology results were unclear . As I lay dying basically , my team of doctors had to take a guess they administered a butt ton of immuneinhibitory steroids that got my symptoms under controland me out of the hospital . As I weened off of the steroids my symptoms returned , which indicated a malignancy . I started chemo not a month later . The scarring is mostly from noticing the absence of a fellow patient in the infusion room who hadn ' t completed their regimen . The ones who finish have smiles and sometimes a balloon but the ones who disappear . Also feeling trapped in hospital rooms , fucked up dreams , anxiety , isolation , confusion , anger , grief , loss . The heart and mind are powerful though , and the spirit resilient . I like your username .