Only ever for straight wealthy white men <| sep |> Shaker pint reeeeeee <| sep |> It ' s normal that you are not coping . it ' s been only a day . You are in the worst place right now and nothing that people can tell you will make you feel better right now . Or not enough at least . I ' m not saying that there ' s no hope , don ' t take it the wrong way , I ' m just saying that right now is the worst and that it is normal that it feels like it won ' t get easier . I won ' t tell you that it will get easier because it is unnecessary and unacceptable to hear that in your position . I know myself that if someone had told me it will be OK at day one I would have been very angry . I don ' t have any magical advice right now , but I just want to ask what about your husbandboyfriend ? Is he there for you ? How does he feel ? Can you count in him right now ? He should be in the best place to be of help when you need it the most . As a man myself , I can tell you that yes , of course , he ' ll never understand what you are going through entirely , but still he ' s probably affected by it too . I know how I felt myself . I am very sorry for your loss and I hope you get through ASAP . Be strong and find your own way to heal and cope . I ' ll be thinking of you , keep us updated if you feel it . PS I ' m sorry if something I wrote seems inappropriate or with the wrong wording . English is not my native language .