For me , Buddhism isn ' t about meditation or practicing . Buddhism is a way to understanding . It ' s a tool to help you understand human nature , and to understand yourself . If you aren ' t trying to learn , or just better yourself , the practice might as well be meaningless . I was raised Catholic , so I know all about how people think if you just perform the rituals then you ' re a good Christian , as in if you go to church every sunday and follow the commandments and all that . But if you don ' t understand why you do the things you do with Buddhism , then it makes sense that you don ' t feel like a Buddhist . I ' m also new to Buddhism , but reading books about it is helping my understanding greatly . I ' d recommend trying that .