I want to give you a massive hug . Go see a psychologist . Stay with your family and friends . Just for a little while , give yourself time to recuperate and pull yourself together . My mum was going through a relapse for brain cancer during my preIB year . It was tough . I didn ' t have the strength to even drag myself forward . But all we can do is keep moving forward . The pain will ease at some point and you will heal . Slowly and the scars will remain , but you will heal . Until then , you are in my prayers and thoughts . I wish the best for you . If you need any psychbioeng help or just need to talk please pm me . I have many notes and would be happy to , always . <| sep |> Dunn LaVine Wiggins KAT Giles Yes , lawd !