what ' s awful is you can have positive changes in your life , that make a real difference in your quality of living and your behavior and your relationships . You totally can improve , and start to feel like maybe , just maybe , you ' re over the hump and from here it ' s easy days and soft sailing . And then it all comes down on top of you and you sometimes know why and you sometimes have no idea , and you ' re just fucking devastated because you were getting better and now this has happened , and it makes you want to not even bother trying to get better anymore because the letdown is so much worse than just dealing with the status quo . <| sep |> Can we still riot so we can get free summon tickets ? <| sep |> Recently dumped by ex and had things ended by my rebound . I feel ya . RIP