As a bjj brown belt and taiji practitioner , I don ' t know if I agree . I think if you do taiji for a while you understand why it makes more sense than a shrimping competition . Being rooted is literally in ALL taiji techniques , whereas shrimping is not in all BJJ techniques . In the video one step means a loss . Tobme , that is the purest test of one ' s root , so as a taiji practioner I find it really interesting . <| sep |> In a way , I feel sorry for parents who do this . They are so busy worrying about where you ' ll be in eternity that they are missing out on having a wonderful relationship with you now . What if it ' s ALL bullshit and this is all we have ? Might as well just love each other . You sound very respectful , and sweet . I would look for someone , maybe a friend ' s mom or someone who can be there for you when you need solid parental guidance . This is forcing you to learn to stand on your own two feet a little sooner than most kids , but don ' t let how they treat you define you . You have to be true to yourself , and you have done the right thing by refusing to live a lie and stay in the closet . I ' m proud of you , I wish I could reach through my phone and hug you .