I am kinda embarrassed about how strongly I feel about it , but music was really important . And I only started listening to metal after we separated . For reference , I am a chubby software engineer in my late 30 s and I like grey wool cardigans . Lemmy died and I thought to myself here is a man who had an incredibly messed up life , but he died without regrets and all I have been trying to do is to be a good unselfish person and all I have is regrets and failures . The day he died I knew I was getting a divorce . And then I felt guilty and sorry for my ex and he kept asking for me to wait a few months until I listened to enough of Lamb of God to recognize that , no , I do not have to suppress my own negative emotions , and , yes , I will be hurting him by leaving completely , but that ' s what I want and that ' s what I am going to do and I am not going to apologize for it . tldr Lemmy Kilminster and Randy Blythe helped me to break out of the stockholm syndrome and divorce my abusive ex husband .