Well , your heart ' s probably water right now . Nicole returned to normal . <| sep |> tbh I never bought books after my first year , most STEM resources are online <| sep |> Wise man once said , All those who believe in psycho kinesis , raise my hand . <| sep |> I don ' t think this would work . <| sep |> Mercy Main btw <| sep |> Personally , I wouldn ' t base your decision on your identity around clothes . If we lived in a society where men and women were to wear the same clothing , someone who is trans still would feel dysphoria and feel the need to transition . It ' s about the body and how we are treated . Now , I am not saying to not wear women ' s clothing . Just , if you are questioning , I would recommend things like presenting female online in games . See how you feel about others treating you as that gender . Other things to think about would be like , how comfortable would you be with growing boobs . If , after that , if you are still unsure or feel you are trans , I heavily recommend you find a gender therapist to help you work through it .