I avoid relationships like the plague after my last one . It started out fun . She would drink with me alone and we ' d have a blast . Then she started to realize I had a huge drinking problem and started to try to force me to stopget help whatever that means . I started to resent her . She started to resent me . Then the hatred started . We both got out of it , worse than before , after the two years . Don ' t know if it was worth it or not , we had many fun times too . When he see you waking up in the middle of the night , fumbling around in the dark , shaking like a leaf , looking for the vodka bottle for some kind of relief , he is probably going to realize that he cant fix you after all and leave you . It is the hard truth , but nonetheless the truth .