Life is Pokmon . Pokemon is life . <| sep |> Someone ' s been watching Adam Ruins Everything . <| sep |> Im so sorry that you went through this . The good thing is , you are here , and being here means you are talking , and talking means the start of a long road from nothingness to happiness . its gonna be tough , but it ' ll be worth it ! I too cant bear to have pictures of myself , there ' s a few of me as a young kid , then nothing much after that , the odd one here and there taken when I wasnt aware , and I mostly demand they are deleted , such is my cripplingly low self esteem . Sometimes I see my Nmom in my facial features which horrifies me . I pretty much do everything I can to ensure I dont become her in any way possible . Ive spend many years self counselling , researching , getting professional therapy and CBT , its working , but like I say , its a logn road to finally accepting yourself and you will , one day . you ' ll have odd days where you thing yeah , Im okay . and they ' ll become more frequent as you progress . I dont think I ' ll ever stop that gut reaction when I see Nmom in the mirror sometimes , but i guess its how you deal with it afterwards that makes the difference . learning how to accept it and just move along with the rest of your day without that Narc fog dragging you down with it . Oh and Internet ordering FTW ! hahaha