. It ' s still Jeremy fuckin Scahill though . This is a dude who ate pounds of steppe sand in Mogadishu and spent months on secret rendition CIA prisons . Not , I dunno , Melissa Click or whatever . <| sep |> We should downvote the 100 k post or at least keep it below 200 karma points so it doesn ' t come even close to rall top 20 . Look what happen to the csr when it came out . <| sep |> I lost my mom a year ago and my dad a month ago . I turned 23 last week . The pain stays , but you will grow stronger . Don ' t fight the pain . Eventually you will be able to live again . You ' re not the alone in your loneliness . When the waters are rough , the spirit is buoyant enough to keep you afloat . Right now youre probably numb and nothing seems real . Youre going through shock and your stress levels are high . Im still in panic mode . I am literally head to toe in a stress induced rash . Take care of yourself . The first couple weeks after my dad ' s death , I did nothing but drink , drugs and tv . The 3 rd week I went outside again . Then I scheduled an appointment with a therapist . Do whatever you need to do . Maybe that means do nothing . Maybe it means read series of unfortunate events . I ' ll send you my box set if it helps . Whatever it is , love and take care of yourself . Love and pain are two sides of the same coin . The amount of pain you feel is the amount of love you feel for your family . The pain will never leave , but neither will the love . And love is the greatest gift in the world . Even when people die , their love lives through others . That love reminds us that we are worthy of life , we are worthy of ourselves , we are worthy of others . We are worthy to belong and experience and even enjoy this world . Use that love on yourself because you ' re worth it . And when you ' re ready you can use that love on others . One of the last things my dad told me was that life is like walking along the beach at night with a flashlight . You can only see enough to take one step at a time . So that ' s what you need to do once you feel ready . As long as you one take one step at a time , you will be okay . A lot of this won ' t make sense right now , but that ' s ok . Come back to it when you feel less numb . Please pm me if you want to talk . Whatever you do , just love and take care of yourself .