I ' ve definitely watched at least a small part of every single run , not sure if I ' ve inputted in every single one though . <| sep |> I have this problem , too . When I start getting sad , I either don ' t have any physical emotion , or I get all the symptoms of crying heavy , rigid breathing , some muscle tensions , etc . One time I even started having a panic attack that got me hospitalized , and I had some tears every few minutes then . I haven ' t cried at home since a couple weeks after becoming extremely depressed , and it ' s been six months . However , I found myself able to cry when I was talking to my therapist for the first two months . When I was hospitalized for a week , my social worker and psychologist told me it wasn ' t actually a rare thing and that he ' s heard of it before . I recently found a purpose to live and some things to keep me busy that I enjoy , so I haven ' t been in a mood where I felt like crying recently , but I think I ' d be able to again . I know it sucks , it ' s annoying as fuck , and is upsetting when you actually want to cry to let off some steam , but you ' ve just got to push through . I know it sounds redundant , but it is how I ' m alive right now , which I ' m glad of . I hope the best for you . May life treat you well .