Second to last . Nagini was the last one made . <| sep |> That ' s the part that ' s not okay . I literally have a panic attack whenever I realize at some point in the future , I won ' t get to think anymore , exist anymore . I spend so much time in my own head that , as selfish as it sounds , me dying feels like the universe ending . <| sep |> THEY ARE STILL IN DENIAL . My god , they are nevergoing to get over thisGrief s c a l e S hockDenialAngerBargaining GuiltDepressionAcceptance <| sep |> My Pixel flies on TMo <| sep |> I don ' t have an explanation for that scene in the carnival which is why I conveniently left it out . It just seems too trippy and hallucinatory for me to try to make sense of . My guess is that it ' s just one of those scenes of her unraveling for which we ' ll never really get a full explanation .