I have to have it happening in front of me while someone audibly explains it , while I ' m doing it myself . My brain is too busy making up hypothetical conversations and fantasizing about death to learn unfortunately <| sep |> Notice they ' re both wagging their tails . <| sep |> I feel like I ' m always making stupid decisions that get worse the more depressed I become . This then causes me to make more mistakes and it becomes a vicious cycle . <| sep |> That ' s definitely my 5 stages of implementing features . Denial . We are we adding new features ? !! No we are not ! ! Bargaining . Ok , can we make it do this instead because that way is waay too complicated Anger . fuck fucking feature creeps ! Depression . 12 hours later Ahh . shit . this is also hard . FML . Godammit ! Acceptance . Finally . GeezusRinse and repeat .