Its not fun . I ' d rather not dig trenches either though . I ' d rather have a cube and do some programming n shit . <| sep |> This has been gifted to every single woman I know when she turned 30 . <| sep |> The old wind is picking up here at the ground . It ' s going to get pretty cold in the 3 rd session . <| sep |> Thanks , I just don ' t know how to find something that makes me happy though . League of legends has brought me happiness for the longest time but now it ' s just . one of those daily things you do , you know ? I ' ve tried many other things and they sometimes make me happy but just foe a while , it gets bad quickly . I do want to go back but it ' s just the one person who ruins it all . I sometimes play games and talk with the few I got along with but not being with the group always talking just gives a sense of loneliness . I hope I can find new friends or at least re connect with the other .