I didn ' t want to start kindergarten at age five and would ' ve been one of the youngest kids in class in that scenario . My mom said I reacted almost with panic over having to go , so I didn ' t start until the following September when I turned six . Lo and behold , I ended up doing really well and was nominated for the G . A . T . E . program by my teacher . That kind of understanding and empathy from my mom really helped me . Now , I go on interviews and have been at jobs where I ' m treated horribly . In addition to the highly exploitive environments , I feel like there is a massive amount of stuff that the interviewers and companies are concealing and I ' ve reacted with obvious emotional distress many times , either while there or when talking about these situations upon arriving home . I think something about them reminds me of the early years of my life , where a number of my relatives had hidden anger and would smile when they were mad . Another part of current jobs that seems like a rewind to a past I ' d never want to live again is that there is no notable opposition or social critique from anybody else at these places , so it ' s like I ' m struggling all alone . As a kid , learning was an escape . As an adult , it ' s gotten so bad I ' m not able to provide for myself . Such a massive slide backward over 30 years .