Freedom of speech . The media is a just a small part of what makes the American democracy work . <| sep |> Was using Ash ' s AR <| sep |> Do you even listen to what you say ? <| sep |> He needs to collaborate with this guy . <| sep |> Definitely go for the SN ! I just got an 8117 and it ' s fucking sexy as hell . I prefer it over the much loved 8217 . <| sep |> Banana bread for scale . <| sep |> Boo hoo , mean people on the internet are making fun of our shitty president elect . You sound a little triggered , would a safe space where you only see views you support help you deal with it ? <| sep |> How do i get that hat ! ? I want it sooo bad <| sep |> Little more than that . Just for rebuy pillow . <| sep |> I ' ve read your response a few times , and I know it ' s been two weeks or so , but I want to thank you for it . I ' m still reluctant in trying to find a way , I still try to find loopholes , but me telling them is inevitable . I ' m positively terrified to loose the people I love . Basically , I want to free myself from the mental trap I put myself into . I created this maze I can ' t get out of without the password the truth . I finally realised that though I have everything I need , with what it is all based upon , it ' s not worth living the way I do . I ' m still mad at myself , but I ' ve stopped beating myself up as much as I can . I tried to feel pity for myself . To sympathize more with the kid I once was . It helped me gain strength a lot more instead of wallowing in crippling guilt . As you said , depressed people do shitty things sometimes , and I ' m feeling more and more safe with the idea they might even understand . So yeah , if you want a follow up on how things go , let me know .