Beat him till the laptop breaks <| sep |> well that thing was also a fucking beast back then . <| sep |> Please seek therapy before you attempt to have another relationship . Unless you address the issues in your past , you ' re going to keep ending up with unstable , abusive partners . We gravitate toward familiar situations , even if they ' re unhealthy for us , because they are what our brains are equipped to deal with . It ' s why you so often see people who grew up in abusive households end up dating abusers , or children of alcoholics marrying alcoholics . Your exgirlfriend sounds like a train wreck and not somebody you need to waste another moment of your life with . There are other women out there who will empathize with your history and your anxiety problems , but the likelihood of you finding one before you ' ve confronted your past is low . So please , see a professional .