Really nice work ! !<| sep |> In this case , I don ' t think it would be against the rules to disagree with me or argue with me . Especially since you are taking into account what I ' ve already acknowledged about myself , and using that information to gain a further understanding of my situation and offer support by doing so . I would consider that different than the typical tough love treatment and simply telling me to man up And I must say , you are doing an excellent job at this and you pick up on a lot , especially things about me as a person . I think this conversation has made me feel a bit better , and you did especially help last night when I was caught up in my own head . It is reassuring to feel that the gears are moving in your head and that you are actually putting some effort into helping some stranger on the internet . So thank youI like this nature showanimal metaphor . And I find it fascinating that out of everything I said , you used the phrase the mind consumes itself . within itself to show your point . And I ' m curious as to why you picked that line , or how that line brought you to that conclusion about me . But I can ' t really say that you are wrong either . Perhaps I do give up too soon . And especially now where I lack the motivation and drive to do much about my situation . I feel weak and fragile . And I feel like I won ' t be able to do much without medication because I have grown dependent on it . But even as I go through the struggling cycle with my mind over and over , when I get myself to a better mindset I do tend to try again even after failing . Hence , the dropping out of university three times now lol . I just know the importance of it , and I acknowledge the fact that knowledge itself isn ' t enough in this current society . And that I won ' t make it to a job that I could potentially enjoy without it . Even though , right now I don ' t even know what that job looks like or even isThe school system you described sounds amazing . And would work so much better for someone like me . Someone who doesn ' t necessarily struggle with teaching theirself information when I have sources available . It ' s just the motivation to actually do it that I need . Someone who ' s mind actually shuts down from strict routine and limitations learn this much in this amount of time ect , from the pressure and stress of it all . I always felt like I got stupider each time I returned to university and that I would lose any enjoyment I had with exploring my mental capacity . I ' ve never heard of such things here in Canada but it would be amazing if they did exist . Maybe I ' ll send an email out through the gov ' t website and to the university to see if they know of any similar services offered here .