I am there for my friends and loved ones anytime they need , I volunteered at a cancer charity shop for a while , I am involved in charity and I help anyone I can in need . I like to think I am a good person . I don ' t know if it ' s inherently selfish but I feel I was the nicest towards my ex . I ' d reguarly get calls and texts around 3 am to come out for my ex to listen to her talk when she was depressed . Sometimes it ' d rain , sometimes it would be freezing and I ' d be so tired and I ' d be up for college early in the morning . I still went . Even after the nasty breakup , we met , once . It ' s something I ' ve not told many people at all , not even on here . She needed to talk to me about 7 months ago , about a year after our breakup , asking could she talk to me about family issues . I was really hesitant . I love her , I don ' t want her in my life after being cheated on , but I knew for her to ask me that , it must have been absolutely serious . And it was , she told me some bad shit going on . I listened mostly , didn ' t talk much , just listened . Walked for a while , said goodbye . Never talked since . I hope she ' s happy . In my core I want the best for her , even after being cheated on .