What is it about Japan that makes supposed adults behave like infantile idiots ? <| sep |> I was depressed when I was 6 years old , I was depressed when i was 12 , 16 , 18 , 21 , 24 . I ' m 27 , unmedicated for the first time in over 10 years and not just doing fine , I ' m doing great , the brain is an amazing thing , the most amazing thing in the universe , it can reprogramme itself , it can heal itself . These things are not fast , and certainly not easy . When you are down , in the bottom of the black hole these ideas sound like idiotic pipe dreams . I can give you advice on how to move forward and strategies that have helped me , but until you are ready to make change all I can offer are words . But you are not alone , and things do get better .