Heal beam jump rope is the greatest way to pass the time imho . This is also probably the most useful I ' ve ever been as Symmetra . <| sep |> Steph , got him and harden in an auction draft <| sep |> I had a boyfriend who did literally this exact same sort of s all the time and never listened no matter how much I asked , screamed , cried , and PLEADED for him to stop until one day he actually did openly sexually assault me while I SCREAMED STOP ! !! He would do things like grab my boobs or jammed his finger down my underwear and rub my clitoris while I was actually crying because my dog was dying in the same room . And I realized a big part of the reason why he was doing it to me is because my nonconsent in and of itself was turning him on . My DISTRESS was turning him on . Not the fact of what he was actually doing . But the fact that I was not consenting and it was upsetting me and he was doing it anyway . That ' s what was turning him on . Incidentally , it also turned him on for me to cry . To this day I do not like to have my boobs or clitoris touched at all . It makes me feel like I want to stab someone in the face for real . That ' s how deep the trauma went . I don ' t think I will ever be sexually normal again because of it , and it was years ago . For a while in the beginning I would let guys do stuff to me because they insisted I would like it again if they did it , and literally the whole time they were doing it , I would imagine doing EXTREMELY violent things to them . Eventually I stopped letting people touch me that way at all . Don ' t stay in this relationship unless you want to end up like me .