Hey there ! Good to hear from you . I am so sorry you had to go throughand are still going through that with your husband . Around this time last year I went through something similar . I ' d love to say it was all him , but I sought comfort from someone outside the marriage as well . It REALLY sucked and I wasn ' t sure if we ' d survive it , but we did . I can say that for me I wanted validation that my body was still sexy and worthy because I felt broken and worthless because my body failed me at getting pregnant . I think he wanted to escape from the sadness of it all and the bitch was pretty persistent at that . We were both being selfish . Neither of us physically cheated , but it wasn ' t good . We both went to counseling separately . All that aside , it isn ' t your fault that he did what he did and the not having a baby might have been part of it , but it seems unfair to me to blame it solely on that . I hope you two can work it out and do what ' s best for the both of you . I ' m so sorry .