TMZ is extremely scummy but they know how much of a liability it is to make up shit and thus they can be considered somewhat reliable . <| sep |> Thank you . I am having a hard time letting go . I know it is just the first night and I may be overreacting , but I can ' t keep it all straight right now . I still care about her a lot but I this is not the first time she has called me a pussy either . Everyone around me tells me she is bad news , but I am just emotionally drained . Heck , the last person I cared this deeply about ended up being even worse like burglarize my apartment and kidnap my roommates cat worse . So that left me against dating and emotionally investing in anyone for years . I brought up the topic of my anxiety to my doctor a few months back and just haven ' t had time to followup on it . I know that is something I need to work on too .