Loose our next game <| sep |> Never gonna make you cry ? <| sep |> This is real content though . <| sep |> War Talon . The way he just kinda goes oraoraoraoraora to everything nearby is great . <| sep |> wow , just heard the chris bell interview today on joe rogan , and he seems to get the same results . glad to hear that otherwise very square people are trying kratom and getting positive results . make sure she and everyone you know emails <| sep |> I now do things to please myself , Good for you ! I think she ' s so confused how she lost her daughter ' s respect so early . Just like me and my mom . One thing my mom tries to throw at me is , I am older , I know better , you should listen to me . I find that kind of adorable when she says it because she does not realize that the fact that she is older does not mean she is my supreme overlord , it means that the burden of wisdom , patience and compassion in more on her shoulders than it is on mine . So , the more she tries to push that on me , the more respect I lose for her . She is trying to bully me into seeing her point of view because she has failed to use wisdom in order to effectively conveyed her view . One thing I have come to experience is that sometimes kids are smarter than parents and you are one such kid . You are industrious , focused and very , very smart . If I had a daughter , I would want her to be just like you . But that is not what you came here for , so I will address some of your points . I don ' t think I ' m ready to forgive my mum due to her emotional attendance at times of need , but maybe when I can figure out everything in my past , it might be easier . Here is the thing about forgiveness that people do not realize . Forgiveness is for you , so that you can live a peaceful life . Forgiveness is for you , so that you can live a life unencumbered from past trauma . Forgiveness is for you , so that you do not wittingly or unwittingly poison your subsequent relationships and it is not until you give the gift of forgiveness that you finally realize that the gift was meant for you . Forgiveness does not mean accepting toxic people back into your life . This is where most people get stuck because they hold on to unforgiveness thinking that they now must deal with the toxic people who hurt them and who continue to hurt them back into their lives . Forgiveness is letting go of that hurt and pain so that it does not linger at the back of your mind where it can be triggered and come out , hurting those you love . Whether you chose to let go of that hurt and pain is up to you , but as for your mother , she has demonstrated over and over again that she knows she is hurting you and has made no conscious effort to change . It is a good thing that you have developed a tremendous level of independence from her because it means that you can break off all contact with her without any financial repercussions . If you do decide to let go of all that pain inside you although I highly recommend that you do because no matter how well you hie it , it will always find its way to the surface and poison your relationships , the decision is up to you then I suggest that you visit a counselor or a therapist , someone who can give you the necessary tools that will help navigate you out of the fog .