This calls for a fact finding mission <| sep |> She left me . I ' m 17 and I ' m drunk sorry if theres any mistakes . I drink every night . I try to forget about her . No shes not bad , shes amazing ! ! Shes in college I ' m not . We ' ve been dating for a year and 4 or so months . She ' s beautiful , she ' s funny shes nice , she cares about me . She ' s everything ive ever wanted . But she doesn ' t have feelings for me . She doesn ' t know if she loves me anymore and she doesn ' t know if she doesn ' t . shes busy with college . I ' m just a problem in her life . I know i am . But i can ' t sleep without being with her . I texted her the other dsy she asked how i was and i was crying but i know she ' d feel bad so i told her i was good and i was happy . But im not . I wanna kill myself . She makes me happy she make my life better . But i just ruin hers . I ' m ready to end it . I wanna be with her . But she ' s too busy to be with me , and i just make her life harder . I need help . P . S . im probably gonna delete this post when im sober because ill think i sounded stupid . please find a way to message me otherwise . My names steven lane , i have a green undercut im on facebook . Please help sober me . im fucked .