Initially it was the release date . Later on , it was because Nost was full of bots . I mean , players from day one , and new players simply went where everybody else already was . No matter how much people like to say high quality brings players or highly populated servers are the best quality servers , it really isn ' t that complicated . New players don ' t spend time reviewing servers if the choice is between one that has 100 players , and another one that has 5000 . <| sep |> You did the right thing by walking away . That woman is crazy as your mother was . Not your fault . You need therapy and learn how to forgive those people . Then forgive yourself for letting yourself feel broken , there was nothing different you could do . I would say you need to focus on loving yourself before you have relationships . Don ' t get in relationships with older women , where you would look for the warmth of a mother . Forgive what happened already , let go , break free , break that pattern . You download the Kindle app and look for some self help books on Letting Go of a relationship .