When an election becomes a vote for prom queen or king , this dysfunctional popularity contest makes everyone a loser . JUz 48 xwOiM <| sep |> We were in London for a bit of sightseeing on the NHS specialist appointment , subsidised travel . God bless the NHS and I loved the tube buskers . Actually thought it was piped music until we turned the corner and saw the bloke with the trumpet . Quite saddened they ' re not permanent fixtures . <| sep |> This helps me but . make sure you feel safe beforehand . When that guilt sits in I take a trip down memory lane . How many hateful words were spit at me ? How many days were ruined because they felt the need to ? How could they watch me cry and just keep telling me I was worthless ? And I mean really remember . I try to put myself in those shoes and then . NC makes more sense . They do not miss me . they miss the Nsupply . And they messed me up so much it ' s hard to cut these toxic people out . My family always told me that family comes first . That is the biggest load of shit they put out there . Family is about them . Give yourself a hug ! It ' s hard to do this because you are a good person who was conditioned by them to be an emotional whipping kid . Can I suggest maybe volunteering or taking part in a charity activity cancer walk or something close to your heart ? Or go for a walk . Cook something you love or treat yourself to a hot drink . Focus on you ! You deserve it since your family shafted you on it .