Thanks for the reply and insight . I ' ve never met her BF , so while there ' s signs of manipulation and stuff there I ' m still not 100 % sure . You ' re right that I shouldn ' t cut contact because she ' s probably depressed . I would never . I ' ve always tried to be there for her , in the months before her loss I tried suggesting therapy or a doctor to her , I ' d try cheer her up and try help her see purpose etc . I want to forgive her , I really do but sadly I can ' t help but feel a bit annoyed at her and hurt , hopefully that ' s something I could get over . For now I guess I wait to hear what she has to say and try to be forgiving . Thanks <| sep |> Also , is that 10 your wired or wireless speed ? If wireless , test your speed when wired to the router as that ' s what counts . If it ' s significantly faster then take the usual steps to improve wireless speed .