I think I ' m the only person not pissed by what spez did . He said he only did it to super toxic trolls and stuff like that . Doesn ' t bother me in the least Inb 4 lol this comment must ' ve been edited by spez <| sep |> COUSINS ! How do you like that ? !<| sep |> Still available when I bought one this morning , pretty cool . <| sep |> lmao that makes a little more sense . Thanks ! <| sep |> Yes . I ' ve felt this same way . Together 10 years and it feels like a blur . I do believe a lot of it is to protect myself from pain trauma of how everything ended . The bad memories are forefront right now . I have a hard time believing I will look back at any of our time together as good bc of the horrible way everything ended . That definitely makes me sad because I ' m sure there were happy times but they all kind of have this dark cloud over them now . Part of it is because he told me he ' s been lying to everyone , including me , for years so I can ' t really figure out what memories were him just pretending to be someone he ' s not , or what . It ' s kind of a mind f .