That ' s the thing with abuse often times the victim suffers more than the abuser . I ' d try seeing a therapist . Not only to talk about your abuse and how that abuse is still effecting you , but a therapist might be able to help you talk to other family members . It ' s possible to love your abuser and in a way it shows a lot about who you are deep down . I hope you find some peace in that at least . I really hope you find what you need so you can have the best life possible . <| sep |> There was a rate with Adele included and I didn ' t know about it ? I should start contributing to this sub more often again . <| sep |> Scientology tries to blackmail Hillary Clinton , things unravel a bit . <| sep |> Hahahah , that ' s the best kind of problemfixing !