I have a few people in my life that are former addicts . I have a lot of admirable people in my life that have never struggled with addiction . But the admiration I have for the ones that have struggled and have overcome it is unparalleled . You ' re in a dark place that most of us don ' t understand , that many of us will look down on you for , and your biggest fear is not for yourself , but of how others will be let down if you fail . It would be so easy to give into addiction completely and stop caring about others , but you ' re too good of a person for that . Don ' t give up on yourself . Many of those that have turned away from you right now have only done it not because you ' ve hurt them but because it ' s too hard for them to watch you hurt yourself . The more fight , the less alone you ' ll be . Your loved ones can ' t wait to have you back , and I hope like hell you get the support you need and get through this