yeah but it isn ' t my agenda , plus that ' s a thing that mainstream tv shows do so ha ha fox news fair and balanced is just a running thing <| sep |> Not sure if I should be happy or sad that I know her name . <| sep |> I ' m on the job in a huge metro area in one of the busiest commands in the city going on 2 years . My partner and I answer about 1520 radio runs on midnights per night . I have a good grasp on how my body is handling the job so far I think . My mental health is very good . I think if you had poor MH before you got on the job , it will definitely compound it . I can only speak for myself because stress affects everyone so differently . I am also kinda a bad example because I was EMS previously , so maybe I ' ve been eased in to the fire so to say . I ' ve had really shitty days in different ways pediatric deaths , suicides , child abuse , animal abuse , getting yelled at by a priest for not arriving on time , getting an exposure number and receiving the cocktail , getting punched in the face , radio car accidents , pretty much the whole spectrum . I rambled like this to try and give you the scope of what I ' ve dealt with not to brag , but to try and help a possible decision to join a PD . It hasn ' t changed my core at all . I still consider myself pretty friendly and approachable and I ' m finally turning cop mode onoff fairly well . I still have the same friends , some more perpy than others , but the job hasn ' t changed that like I thought it would . The most I ' ve changed I must say is the discipline of my bullshit meter . Any new person in my life is a lot harder to trust than before I got on the job . I think I could comfortably say that a lot of guys and girls change their trust parameters because we deal with deception on a daily basis . As far as my outlook on life , it has definitely put A LOT of shit into perspective . I ' ve always been laid back , but now I ' m REALLY laid back . Little stuff doesn ' t bother me in the least bit any more . Bigger situations I respond appropriately , no kneejerk reactions . Hope that helps . TLDR I feel good . I don ' t trust anyone . Pizza .