Sure . It was a very strange time in my life . I will just write some impressions as they come to me . I had saved for years to be able to spend at least 6 months back packing around Europe , I ' m from New Zealand so its about as far from home as you can get . Imola was the first race we were to attend , but not my first GP as I had been to Adelaide in 88 91 . Ratzenbergers death was a shock to say the least . A dreadful day . The following day we all know what happened , except that I didn ' t know Senna was dead until sometime after the race as we were heading back to the campsite . I remember the shock and the surreality of being so far from home , and although I was 23 years old I vividly recall wanting to call my parents just to talk to them . The next two weeks were just bizarre . I wish I could articulate how strange it was to be getting lost in Europe while trying to get news about the situation with Senna ' s accident . I guarantee that most fans knew more than I did about what had happened even though I had been there . we had no internet in those days , and finding out reliable info from the south of Italy were I had headed to was very difficult . So . Monaco . I have to admit that I had fallen out of love with the sport after what had happened . Frankly I was sickened . that may be too strong a word , certainly apprehensive . But , seeing the transporters pulling into the old paddock for the race seemed to fire up my passion for the sport again . I remember finding out from a Williams team member that they were only going to run one car that weekend , and I remember talking to David Brabham about Roland . Dreadful . For me , the worst moment was Thursday at Monaco that year . Wendlingers crash , and the news that he was in a coma , just took all of the joy out of it . It was just awful . On the Saturday , Friday is a rest day in Monaco , Michael slammed in an incredible lap , and the cars were glorious but there was something very gloomy about it all . I had a view into the Williams pit that day and it was quite sad to see Damon run a few laps then come in and have the team almost stand around . They just looked lost and dejected . Anyway , it was a wonderful time , full of some very good memories but also some very painful ones but overall it was just very surreal .