Did not know that , thanks for telling me . <| sep |> I am actually working on it . I know from my post it doesn ' t seem so . But I have been on a clean eating lifestyle and I am trying to stay more positive . It really is hard to train the brain to fire in different pathways . Drugs stripped me of all my selfesteem . And the people in my life I thought I was closest to ended up being the people I want to be the furthest from . I just lucked out by having an amazingly understanding family . Most of them law enforcement officers . Go figure . Sorry for rambling on . <| sep |> They always have the best videos <| sep |> They spend entire months apart filming in different countries . I don ' t think you need to look any further than that for what probably happened .