I mean this is cool , sure , but it either comes off in the water or gets poopy after a few uses , right ? <| sep |> I went out with friends to celebrate my last night in town . I intended to get wasted . The night was great , and there was a girl there with whom I had hooked up with a few times . I remember puking at the bar . Barely stumbling across the road , with her and a few random helping me . Her buying condoms at the 711 . Being in my apartment and telling a different friend I was wayy to drunk to drink more . I forgot to lock my door . Then I woke up naked beside her . I don ' t know if she was in my room before I told my friends I was too drunk . Either way it really crushed the already small amount of trust I had for women . Never told anyone before . I don ' t think it was intended to be antagonistic , but I know that it was clear I was too drunk to consent . It wasn ' t even the sex that bothers me . It ' s the fact that everyone around was okay with it . They saw that I was wasted , that she was carrying me into the elevator , they knew we had hooked up before , but they didn ' t consider that maybe I wanted to have a choice every time I had sex . It ' s the lack of control over my decisions that night that upsets me . And because of that I don ' t get smashed anymore , cause I know if I am not sober enough to make my own decisions , nobody is going to be there to help . My consent is not something that can be implied . I don ' t even know if I said no that night . I was probably into it . But I was not in control . Those friends would have pulled me out of a car , because I ' d be responsible for the accident . I accept that in the same way I am responsible for the sex , but no one cared enough to pull me out of the car .