Honestly , making a change to a game in a way that it was never designed to support can be a bit more complicated than it may seem . Ever since the first day I downloaded TTR I created and have been using this program , so I figured since the community is looking for this , I might as well share it . <| sep |> I am not supporting something I dont believe in . Just like the vegetarians that dont eat meat for the animal cruelty offenses of factory farms . <| sep |> Sounds like you were manic . Although I know what you mean about fearlessness , for me it ' s more of an absentminded sort of fearlessness . I was recently in a car wreck and I ' m pretty sure my heart rate didn ' t go up at all . I don ' t emotionally react to much of anything . People who know me often joke about my being a robot because of it . My negative symptoms are so bad that my roommate must occasionally prompt me to eat or else I ' ll let myself starve .