Now you see , half of me agrees with you , the other half is morbidly curious . <| sep |> It ' s like Kidnapper and Anubar Ambusher had a slighty less awful love child . <| sep |> Personally , what did it for me was my mother running in to an old friend of mine , and me taking that one step of choosing to get back in touch with her . From there , I ' ve met other friends through her who have become my friends . The has given me confidence to interact more with people I know through my sister who may end up becoming friends of mine as well . That confidence has also helped me get a better job that has me interacting with people more . I ' ve slowly over just the past few months been getting out more and having more confidence to do all that . The one thing that is still very difficult though is the process of becoming friends with someone without an intermediary .