15 in about 2 weeks . Got a very similar problem to you . I have dyspraxia which makes me fumble my words whenever I try to speak . I commit spoonerisms constantly and it ' s REALLY frustrating . I haven ' t had a first kiss . I ' ve had two girlfriends , both of which have been online and both of which have been too wrapped up in their own problems Both depressed to console me on anything . Both dumped me . I ' ve been rejected thrice . I ' m at least doing well in school , but that ' s because I don ' t have a social life to replace my school life so the time everyone would be spending going out with their mates , uploading selfies to snapchat etc , I spend inside either playing strategy games or doing homework . And that ' s it . Every day . All day . Nothing in my life is ever more exciting than that . Never been to a nonoccasional party , never even touched or been touched by a girl in anything but a nonobligatory fashion .