This American Life . It ' s on NPR on the weekends , and generally does very interesting investigative reporting . <| sep |> Not sure about that . I ' m a fan of more neutral colors myself , so maybe . <| sep |> what ? they just shit in the streets when they feel like it ? that sounds disgusting . they don ' t even use designated shitting streets ? <| sep |> I have no tips on meditation but lemme tell ya , I had a similar experience after smoking weed for a couple of years in my youth . Time healed all of it but most importantly not thinking about it helps immensely . It sounds strange as fuck but I psyched myself out to the point of paranoia and once I stopped thinking something was wrong a huge part just vanished . I researched it at the time and found some evidence for it but cba to do the searching again . Cease drug use for a while , hit the gym and get your nutrients and the worst will fly over pretty fast .