Christ , Gary . I thought we covered this already . You ' re on your own oh . Okay . <| sep |> Texas Sucession is just part of the State ' s identityculture . <| sep |> how much lower can u go m 8 ? send me private msg <| sep |> Hah gold ! What brand of mini fridge do you use ? I see the 6 L sized ones but they are tiny ! <| sep |> Not everyone is as antisocial as you and I <| sep |> you can send me the request anytime ! <| sep |> FUCK ADMINS too talking about bringing a sub down and trying to adjust the vote weight of a group of users . <| sep |> I ' m so sorry that was done to you . It gets better for many people . I don ' t think people stop caring that you were raped , but you want to surround yourself with people that support you and care in a good way . It makes me so angry to hear about the way you were treated with your previous post , by a cop nonetheless the people that are supposed to protect us . But rape myths and arseholes spread to the police force just as much as they do with the rest of society . Edit 2 just to clarify , not necessarily anticop , you get some really great ones who handle these things excellently , and there are improvements in training they receive on how to deal with SA and rape cases , but it feels like you ' re rolling he dice on whether you ' ll get a good one or a shit one . If you do decide to go forward with reporting , I would recommend looking into victims advocates they have different names depending where you live , e . g . In the UK you ' d want to look up an ' ISVA independent sexual violence advocate as they are specially trained to interact with the police and prioritise supporting you and making sure you ' re being taken seriously , If you haven ' t already , I would really recommend you talk to a therapist who specialises with sexual trauma they can help you to emotionally process the huge toll that these experiences take , and also can help you with healthy coping mechanisms so that hopefully those suicidal and harmful thoughts are minimised or at least you ' ll know how to handle them when they do arise . As for your comment , I do kind of get what you mean . The man who abused me was like an older brother to me , and I find myself disgusted by him now , but I struggle to hate him , I still have those memories of when he would be like a brother to me . I would say it ' s only really in the past year , a decade after everything , that I find myself starting to feel hate for him . Edit a word