Seek mental health help . If you ' re unable to see how mentally unstable you are and how you ' ve rationalized everything here , then take every other person ' s word and just get some fucking help . What the hell do you want from us ? You got the attention you ' re seeking , now do you actually want to get better or just continue your abusive attentionseeking behavior ? Jesus fucking christ with the complete lack of selfawareness here , how anybody this mentally deficient makes it through life is beyond me . You really want to be euthanized because of depression ? You ' ll need a psychologist to get that ball rolling , and if you think it ' s completely reasonable and justifiable then I don ' t see why you wouldn ' t set up an appointment with a psychologist and admit all of this , obviously they ' ll see it your way .