hahah right ? We were both like , . it ' s something . D <| sep |> Legend , done same , cancelled via Oculus . <| sep |> I can join online lobbies I just can ' t see what I have to do for the current Forzathon . <| sep |> You my dear are going through all the symptoms of a drug withdrawal . See it that way , if he truly loved you would his love be as toxic as this to you ? It ' s hard but break the moments in time away from him into fragments , and in each of those fragments remember your worth and that you are worthy of the kind of love that doesn ' t hurt you this way . Pick up some hobbies and overall just become busy and occupy yourself with things that you like to do . There is no greater strength in being able to learn how to enjoy being with yourself , even if just for a while .