You are the winner ! Please message me your shipping information . <| sep |> I made it sober through yesterday and I ' m fairly confident I ' ll abstain today but can ' t promise just yet . My neighbor who lives out back is hitting the last miles of Stage 4 cancer , and it ' s getting really difficult to watch every day . I live in front , so everybody who comes inout has to pass under my house . I work at home , so I get to see everything . EVERYTHING . OHHH , and aren ' t all sorts crawling out of the woodwork now ! !! Now ? !? Feeling like fucking heroes for being there for her . Now . Well , where the fuck were you all this time , I feel like screaming . People who you could not have PAID to be in the same room together due to constant drama and warring between the lot are now , NOW , putting on the show of the century . I just sort of step back and watch the fake friendships and fake support , trying not to gape my mouth too much at the surreality . And knowing it ' ll most likely all go back to the same bullshit drama and bickering once she dies . Because it always does . It ' s also the third month my supposed best friend of 23 years continues to give me THE SILENT TREATMENT , because I had called her out on treating me rather badly . So , still no text , no call from her yesterday . Still fucking punishing me , through Thanksgiving . She has no idea what ' s going on here , and I will be in no mood to explain when she eventually does come around again to tell me how awesome she is with all her narcissistic selfies . Selfies ? Really ? !? Unfortunately , I ' ve reached the point of , If you ' re not here with me now , don ' t ever , ever come looking for me again . Game over . It was a shitty , quiet day here yesterday in my circus tent , but I did spend a lot of time on the phone with my family , who is the light of my life , and I am grateful for that . And today , as soon as I finish work early , I ' ll go stare at the Pacific and not come back to this 247 nightmare until I hopefully feel a little bit not as bad . Operative word there being hopefully . Thanks for letting me rant , especially since I haven ' t contributed to the SD community for a while now .