I don ' t know about raw , but gravad lax is great . <| sep |> Hey , you ' re in a shit situation right now but you ' re self aware . Take advantage of that get yourself help . Not for your girlfriend , not for me , but for you . You ' re the only one who can pull yourself out of this . My mom has struggled with addiction for many years and it ' s torn my family apart . I know how hard it is right now and how hard it ' s going to be in the future . My compliment to you is that you ' re worth something and you ' re life has value . Take advantage of that self awareness and conquer your suicidal thoughts . These thoughts protrude from you they do not control you . I hope you seek the help you need and fight hard for yourself . You ' re in my thoughts buddy .