at the end of the day , you only have one life . don ' t live that life with regrets . I love my fiance , a lot actually , and im so worried that if i make this decision and dont make it in new york then I will regret running away from him for the rest of my life . if he truly loves you , he ' ll at least understand where you ' re coming from . you need to find yourself first before you can be sure what you actually want out of life . I will regret not leaving for new york , I will ALWAYS have the memories of that city in my head . I will never forget those experiences . I hate that I was born here , I hate everything about this town , I just want to be apart of something that isn ' t so isolated and boring ! that pretty much answers your own question