Glad you called for help ! Wishing you peace and hugs ! Best of luck on your journey . For us it was 18 months and my very last embryo before we saw those two lines again . Then we were told on our first ultrasound she wouldn ' t make it . She ' s nursing right now . Another friend was not successful again in pregnancy , but found a hugely fulfilling life and assured me on my journey that if it didn ' t happen there was still joy and happiness ahead . Seek as much help as you need I ended up seeing a counselor for a short period and then go back to living loving with all your heart ! <| sep |> I had an issue with this , I ' ve always been naturally extroverted so depended on other people to pick me up . Now , when I brush my teeth , I think about aspects of myself that I like when I ' m looking in the mirror . They started out small and mostly shallow , for example I like the fact that my eyes are really blue . I made myself do it every day , even if I was feeling shitty , and eventually I ran out of physical things that I didn ' t like and graduated to personality traits . Thinking , you know what , I ' m a really good listener . People always mention how cool and diverse my music taste is . How open minded I am , how I try not to judge people if I don ' t really know them . Try it , you ' ll be well on your way !