The flyer on the door is saying there is fire in that uglysweater man ' s pants . <| sep |> Depression makes us do some shitty things , man . Yes , your depression has indirectly hurt the ones you love . But your depression is primarily hurting you . Feeling guilt over the past is counterproductive at this point because it will only drag you down deeper . Apologize to your family , and do it selfishly . Do it because you know it ' s the right thing to do and that it will help alleviate some of the guilt . Regardless of how they take your apology , forgive yourself and keep moving forward . You need kindness from yourself right now , and then you can spread that kindness to others . And you deserve that kindness depression is a hell of a thing to deal with , especially when your loved ones don ' t understand what you ' re going through .