For Iowa you can check out Tey Campbell campbell <| sep |> If I go away from a campaign for longer than a day I forget what I was doing , and will often stop , so I try and only keep my focus on one <| sep |> Try convincing a judge of that . <| sep |> Some parts of it are a bit soothing because I know relationships or even sex would cause me a lot of anxiety in practice . When I really start thinking about all the things that would imply , I realize there are only very few very specific and unrealistic scenarios where I could maybe handle some of it and even then it would be a matter of time before it falls apart . On the other hand knowing this also really depresses me . But depressing can be better than anxiety inducing .