What do you mean by out ? And how long it ' s been around is irrelevant , that ' s not evidence that it ' s been thoroughly tested it hasn ' t . <| sep |> Shit hits fan . <| sep |> I ' m grateful for having a roof over my head , a familywho are devout Christian , accept me and my partner , don ' t have a job right now , but I ' m glad I graduated college this year , and just being alive . Edit I forgot my friends and my gift of writing . <| sep |> In some ways I am jealous most females are expected to be taken care of . I break my body everyday with three different jobs and I love providing for my wife . But god damn if it doesn ' t piss me off that people just expect it to be done . When I complain that my bones grind against each other because I work 80 hours a week doing manual labor , I am called a whiny bitch because that is my job . Be a machine that provides . I would not last long in a world where my wife provides me everything , however I am still jealous that is not the norm . If my wife worked and I stayed at home , I would be lazy . Crazy double standard .