Thanks for the help , I got it working already though . D <| sep |> I ' m pretty sure there ' s nothing wrong with your heart . You just became very aware of it , this happens in many patients that develop severe anxiety out of nowhere and it is challenging , once you become aware of your heartbeat it ' s hard not to notice it . You ' ll get used to it with time , and won ' t find it anxious but it might take some time . <| sep |> Physical attraction is a personal feel for all folks . Some don ' t have any body expectations others are uncomfortable with playing with or dating anyone other than their ideal body shape person . It ' s personal preference , sounds like this guy had a picture of you in his head and then saw his fantasy you turn into the real you and it wasn ' t what he was expecting . No big deal as there really are many more fish in the sea . Just because you did not meet his expectation does not mean you won ' t meet someone elses . As for extra body weight in the scene , body shaming is not tolerated in most communities .