I have a sexmasturbation addiction . I hide it as best as I can , but it got me into some tricky situations in high school . I think I ' m doing a lot better now at controlling myself . <| sep |> NO OOOOOO I WAS GOING TO SELL THIS SECRET IN A BOTTLE LABELED SNAKE OIL FOR 20 PAYMENTS OF 9 . 99 PLUS SHIPPING <| sep |> Yeah , Big Ben averages 5 TDs vs the Colts . He shows no mercy <| sep |> That ' s my point , it ' s soley symbolic <| sep |> Easier said than done . <| sep |> Alright , I ' m not going to say anything that hasn ' t been said before , other than you look incredible and you ' ve very obviously gotten a lot better looking after losing 40 lbs . Definitely got to work more on your mindset about your body , because it ' s not keeping up with your physical reality . Look at the placement of your feet you ' ve most definitely got MUCH thinner thighs . If you look at you arm , specifically upper arm and wrist , you can tell how much thinner you are there too . Stomach is a HUGE improvement on its own , but look at the way your love handles have decrease to practically nothing . Look at the round of your shoulder , or by your armpits , and really take in that even if you aren ' t where you want to be you ' re a long , long way from where you were . Next , lets talk health . You say you ' re 5 ' 5 , so if that ' s true , then the lowest healthy weight according to BMI is 112 . Please for the sake of your body , mind , and health do not go below that weight . That ' s a MINIMUM , so if you absolutely want to lose 15 lbs , fine . But 20 ? Forget about it . Someone your height should be between the weight of 112 and 150 . And in terms of attractiveness , most women look best at the BMI of 20 . 75 that ' s like 125 lb for you btw , so really take that in . You really shouldn ' t need to lose more than 5 lbs at this point . You aren ' t a little kid anymore , so you should weigh the same as one . Besides , those last few lbs make a much bigger difference that you think they do . The inches come off way faster the less fat you have left to lose . Start thinking in terms of functionality strength , cardio , flexibility those things if you keep working on them will bring with it the aesthetic you ' re looking for . I know you ' re feeling timid of the gym , but trust me , even those asshats that looked at you wrong would come over and help you out now . So go build that body and take care of it , because it ' s the only thing connecting you to this realm .