It might help to stay busy somehow . For me , remaining idle for too long is what usually starts dragging me back down into a state of despair . In those times , I try to pick something new to learn even if its just a free online course . Feeling like I ' m taking small steps in a positive direction is usually enough to hold my sanity together until things start to clear up . I wonder if there ' s something applicable towards your current goal that you could look into in the meantime . The situation you ' re in is definitely not an easy one . I hope you start to feel better soon . Best wishes . <| sep |> Bugera hate is based on the first year or two of production . Anything later is pretty much as good as everything else , if not better . Blackstar is pretty much overrated and in the US they are distributed by KORG , and there is much hate for Korg . Its kinda hard to find Bugera in stores . but online Sweetwater , etc they are easily found .