How long do you think I should wait before doing my qualifications then ? <| sep |> I get it . I really understand . I just found out I had Asperger ' s last year after over 3 decades of trying to figure out what was wrong with me and figuring I ' d be alone for the rest of my life . There are several times I almost ended it out of sheer frustration . I even had several plans made out and in detail . Being on the spectrum has made even after finding out an already difficult life even more difficult . I wish I even had the option to travel . Even today , with all that I have learned about the condition , I still screwed up and now my bf is pissed at me again because of this stupid fucking wiring in my head that I cannot seem to get to work right . I have spent this year in therapy to learn more about to learn more about how to better navigate in the world amongst neuraltypicals and deal with with the special challenges that being differently wired brings . Sadly , due to the way my insurance works , I will not be able to continue therapy after the new year . So therapy does not always involve drugs . Sometimes therapy helps you to let off steam and frustrations , or to find another path to your goal . Also keep in mind that sometimes you have to switch therapists until you find one that is the right fit for you . Key thing if the therapist isn ' t listening to you , she is not right for you . Check your food and nutrient intake and possibly have a blood test run . You may be vitamin D andor magnesium deficient . Taking daily vitamins ? These things believe it or not can impact your mood and can make depression more severe . I have also noticed that my depression seems to be less severe when I am working out several days a week . It is very difficult to get started , but once it becomes a habit along with eating clean it did help some . Travel do it . I wish I Could . You have the ability to . Please do not waste it . Please . Maybe go spend time in a Buddhist Temple and contemplate , or make a list of all the places you have wanted to go and GO . You have the ability , the money , the opportunity . Please go and post about your adventures here .