How dare he interfere with the brilliant political discussion going on about how he was a pedophile . <| sep |> Wow . I can relate to what you are saying . Except for me it really comes and goes . I got really bad about 6 months ago and I went to psych ward , I was glad to go there . But about 4 years ago I was doing really good , I was working , I kept the job for about 1 12 years until I quit , it was a good job . So sometimes I am stable and other times I ' m not stable . However , the problem is that when I am stable , people like my family used to pressure me to be more productive like get a job or go to school and the stress from that stuff would push me into an episode . So in lifestyles like where I am now not working , all I do is go to gym , see my boyfriend , and relax at home my life is fine , I am stable and recovering well . I even feel confident to think about a part time job . However , I know I need to focus on just being healthy and relaxing because if I stress myself out , I will just have another episode .