Hollyoaks is the best soap because it knows it ' s shit and doesn ' t take itself seriously . <| sep |> Not true . The frame is plat <| sep |> Thanks . This job meant a lot to me . <| sep |> I can imagine posting must be fun , erotic , and exhausting all at once . Can ' t imagine how you ' ve kept it so erotic and sexy for so long ! Rest up , enjoy some solitude , and have fun ! <| sep |> 60 mg per month isn ' t exactly a level of abuse that ' s 1 mg twice a day most of the time , one on a good day but I need 2 mg to control what I can only describe to you as a panic attack , and some days I only have to take 1 mg . I ' ve been strictly on this dose for several years . The way I take it is safe . There ' s no escalation of use , there ' s no obtaining the drug through illegal means . My dosage and usage is monitored closely by my doctor . The level I ' m at is hardly different from quitting your standard antidepressant medicine cold turkey . I appreciate your concern , but I ' m not exactly in grave danger . However , without this medication I would not be able to manage my psychiatric condition effectively . I would use far more dangerous drugs at far more dangerous quantities out of sheer impulse and desperation if it weren ' t for the benzos I receive legally . There may come a time where a different treatment option that is effective becomes available , but currently there isn ' t one for me out of everything else I ' ve tried . Antipsychotics render me unfunctional due to their side effects , antidepressants and mood stabilizers on their own have been ineffective as well . I ' m aware of the dangers of the drug I take , but if you ' ve been through what I ' ve been through it ' s hard to see any other option except a strict regimen , monitored by a doctor , of a benzodiazepine . I ' ve been through the Geodon , the Risperdal , the prozac , the lithium , the seroquel , the lamictal , the depakote , as well as the abuse of alcohol and opiates . The best treatment option I ' ve managed to find is Xanax combined with a limited monthly allowance of low dose seroquel for episodes of manic insomnia . I have to accept the cards I ' m dealt . For some reason , the Xanax allows me some modicum of relief while lacking the seductively high of opiates , the crippling soul sapping of anti psychotics , and the utter ineffectiveness of mood stabilizers . I ' m far from cured , I ' ll never be , and I ' m not saying my life is problem free even on the Xanax , but it ' s the treatment option that keeps me here , lucid and sober , with my loved ones for the time being .