I met her through a mutual friend , she was kind of the ugly duckling among her group of friends . She was super quiet so I decided to introduce myself , and immediately noticed how pretty her eyes were . I get distracted easily so I stood there like a moron staring into her eyes for a good ten seconds until she asked if I was okay . We kept talking the entire night and eventually I asked her out . Even though she lived an hour away she said yes and I was pretty much the happiest man ever . I ' m only 18 and this was my first serious girl friend , and I was her her first serious boy friend . The next month was awesome , we shared our first kiss together , we went shopping together , I loved her more than anything , I really did . The second month , however , sucked . I knew she had a history of depression from the get go , but that didn ' t deter me from her . I still loved her , I didn ' t care how my friends would constantly tell me I was out of her league , I loved her adorable crooked little teeth and the dorky smile she always gave me . Knowing she had a history of depression I tried to make her feel loved by buying her things , she would always retweet Overwatch fan art so I bought her Overwatch . She loved Pokmon so I got her tiny Pokmon plushes , little things like that . But , no matter how hard I tried , I guess her depression got the best of her . She stopped responding to my texts , she stopped responding to my Snapchats . Eventually , she responded to me by texting me that because of her depression she couldn ' t date someone . How can I love someone else if I can ' t love myself . and she blocked me on everything , text , Snapchat , the whole nine . I miss her a lot , she was my best friend and the only person I ' ve ever felt super connected to . I ' m not mad at her , I ' m mad that such a beautiful person has to endure this shitty mental illness . Sorry if this was all over the place , just had to get this off my mind .