Can you send me the links to the other posts ? <| sep |> Smiling on runs is actually kinda fun . Makes you look absurd . But . It brings out the best form . <| sep |> VisualV is the best visual mod . <| sep |> There are problems with plant farming too . Clearing land to farm , chemicals like pesticides used in production , things like that . <| sep |> Nice ! I haven ' t bothered looking at Maisto much because I was just familiar with their cheap lines , but these actually look great ! <| sep |> The Cubs have rings now , but the Yankees have more . I ' m sure they ' d let you <| sep |> I broke it off with the love of my life because I am afraid . Together for 12 years . She wants to have my children and the worst part is so do I . But I ' m also an asshole and bitter about everything . I don ' t trust people . Especially not myself . The bigger problem is nearly everyone in my family has depression and some form of addiction , I ' m very certain this will transfer to any children I would have . I ' m addicted to weed and most likely alcohol as well very soon . I ' m mentally unstable but not crazy enough to get administered since I know how to talk to therapist and psychiatrists by now . I have pretty severe depression that hasn ' t improved very much after 10 years of counseling and meds so I gave up on improving . I ' m going to kill myself someday . I ' m certain of it . I can ' t put someone through that if I love them , so I ' d rather hurt them now so they have a chance at a happier life , a better life , without me . I started to sabotage my life after this . It was a few months ago . I don ' t want to feel anything anymore so I also started drinking a lot and smoking weed more often . I ' m spiraling into the abyss because of this . I needed to vent a little , sorry about that .