How much weight are you handling ? It ' s part of the routine for a reason . 531 isn ' t about fast results , it ' s about slow guaranteed progression and breaking prs . Follow the routine fully otherwise you ' ll wear yourself down . <| sep |> Does your cruise control still work ? <| sep |> That ' s a good point I didn ' t think about that <| sep |> I ' d smoke Hollyweed before I voted for Perotwood <| sep |> I ' m very sorry . Your grief is palpable . I have never gotten over losing my father and youngest sister to addiction , but the pain isn ' t so sharp or deep anymore . Therapy , writing , crying , the Serenity Prayer , all helped . I learned to let go of things I cannot control , like the deaths of loved ones . I am especially angry at my sister because I miss her so much . But my anger doesn ' t bring her back . You are correct that life isn ' t fair . Did your mother tell you it was ? I doubt it . That you miss her so much tells me she was a great Mom . I appreciate your heartfelt post and send healing thoughts .