Maybe the best scientists from the Heat , Magic , and Pelicans can create an antidote <| sep |> my average was 187 god bless . time to start awping on D 2 D <| sep |> Dump the bird its garbage <| sep |> Not a problem . For every day coping , I ' ve tried several methods where some work better than others . Some days , I have difficulty coping at all , and that ' s usually when I let myself have a good cry , curl up to watch mindless tv movies , andor play games , read , and do art . My dad died in beginning week of my Junior year in college . I took the week off syllabus week to deal with helping my mom and bro , making arrangements , funeral , etc . Came back and immediately tried to jump right back into college life , hanging out with friends , etc . Anything to make it seem like my life was normal , to plug ahead because that ' s what my Dad would have wanted , etc . Went to a friend ' s house off campus for a gathering , IMMEDIATELY had a panic attack and bolted . On the way back to my dorm , I was gasping for air , crying my eyes out , and I called the university ' s counseling services . Left a voicemail and next day they called me back . Scheduled me for my own counselor but also a grief loss group . This group SAVED me . I was in it for my last two years in college , and the members knew exactly what I was going through . I felt comfortable in sharing my darkest thoughts about the what ifs , my fears of what happened , and trying to move forward . Sharing with others who knew and who could relate helped me learn different strategies of coping . Talking about it usually helps me I try to share more positive than negative memories with my bro and my Mum . We talk more during the holidays about traditions with my Dad and what he would have thought , that sort of thing . I talk with my FH about my Dad and have him help me through my most anxious moments I ' ve developed some severe anxiety since my Dad ' s death . I also have now learned that going to the gym helps clear my head and move forward . Additionally , reading , writing , anything creative helps me cope with these moments where my grief tries to overwhelm me . Even 8 years later , the grief cycle roller continues . There ' s some days where I am angry and resentful , some days where completely devastated , and others still in shock . For me , I try to work with it , and see how I feel in the moment to what I feel like would best address my needs . If its the gym , so be it . If it ' s playing some mindless Disney Emoji Blitz , sure ! If it ' s baking a ton of shit , and eating delicious fatty food , I am going right for it .