23 of those too comments are seriously fuckup ! And here I am , thinking this is 2016 . I am not gay and I dont fucking get why do people can hate someone for their Adult to adult bedroom preference . <| sep |> I know this isn ' t what you want to hear , but your boyfriend needs to leave you or you need to leave him . It ' s much easier to address and work on mentalemotional illness issues when you ' re not in a relationship . It gives you the space to focus solely on yourself without worrying about how you are affecting someone else or dealing with extraneous issues that they might bring to the table . You need to be alone and actively setting goals with your therapist on getting better and managing your issues . It isn ' t fair for you to cling to someone else , as this makes HIS life miserable . Your desire for his comfort is at the expense of his mental and emotional well being . I would strongly advise that you first think of him and let him go , then think of yourself and work towards getting well . Only after you ' ve conquered some of these hurdles can you possibly have a welladjusted and healthy relationship . Right now , you ' re creating a mess that has no way of improving and making someone else very unhappy in the bargain .