Now that I ' m looking VERY closely at the wings , I think I see a smaller secondary wing underneath . So maybe Hemiptera ? <| sep |> Who bakes at 120 degrees <| sep |> Let me get this straight . You never met this guy , fell in love , then freaked out and dumped him for no particular reason . twice . Therapy . Now . This level of obsession and attachment isn ' t healthy . I would expect this of a highschooler , not someone your age . I don ' t mean to sound unsympathetic . I don ' t doubt that your pain is real . But the truth is , nobody is perfect . There is no one right person for anyone . And relationships shouldn ' t be this hard . Sure , every long term relationship has its battles , but if your first response to trouble is to flee . either you aren ' t ready for a relationship , period , or this isn ' t the one for you . Don ' t contact him , and let time do the work of healing . I don ' t think anyone ever forgets someone they felt strongly about , even if a real relationship was never there I know I don ' t . But the wound gets less tender if you let time pass without poking at it .