I always thought it was funny how XD is a ridiculous thing to use now in english forums . In Spain it ' s still used regularly and doesn ' t seem immature or silly <| sep |> I can feel you when you talk about being emotionally numb . I had a couple of dogs . The male was 2 years older than the female . The female passed away before I discovered porn and I distinctly remember crying hard . And later , when the male died , I could not even cry despite spending more time with him . It was due to the fapping , I ' m sure . <| sep |> You ' d be surprised at what a small laser or two will do for a machine gun battery , it really helps dig through whatever remaining armor is there without sacrificing the heatneutral quality of the MGs .