I ' ve always wanted to live in a Mad Max like dystopian society . Seems interesting . s <| sep |> No no no . Weakness Policy bad . White Herb Shell Smash good . Instant first turn activation . Acrobatics , Rock Slide , EQ . <| sep |> I went through the same thing several years back , it was divorcing my abusive ex husband that finally tipped them over the edge . I was going to hell for not following gods law and staying married to a man that was a cheating abusive drunk it was fine because he was a good Christian man . Same deal with the growing up and the bible reading but somewhere along the way none of it made sense to me . I can tell you this , while they are your blood family , you will always find another better family in the groups of friends you make . I ended up being adopted into several non christian house holds as the daughter they picked up along the way . While you feel lonely now and the pain is there you will soon find others to pick you up and bring you into their house holds . Have faith in people , and that faith will be returned to you in a whole new way .