I will beat you until you shit <| sep |> I ' m right , right with ya . I did manage to save 20 grand back in ' 99 and ran to Germany for a year . If my girlfriend would have married me , I ' d probably be there and forgetting how to speak to you in English . I have trouble separating escapist dream from reality . Hell yea . me too . And with these ' insecure times devoid of meaning ' you and your lady should grab the bull by the horns and go get you some ' authentic life ' . I like to steal that from Legend of Bagger Vance with the ' authentic swing ' line . I ' ve never wanted children but I can see how that becomes grounding and a reason to live for . I just love freedom and options . I right now want to go to Germany , EnglandIreland , drink sweet , sweet Guinness and sell Classical Guitars or top shelf tube amps . Happiness , Freedom and following a path that is me is all I care about . in fact , I just recently walked away from my only family , my brother ' s family , have no gf or kids . I wanna fly like an eagle . oof