It ' s more like being on a some kind of psychedelic drug though . If you actually come to believe what you saw is hundred percent true and start acting on it , you ' re clinically insane by today ' s standards . Tell us exactly what you saw in the beacon , Shepard . Uh . jello on circuit boards at the dentist . And everybody was a melting squid . . DAMMIT , THE REAPERS ARE COMING ! <| sep |> HE WAS NUMBER ONE ! <| sep |> Honestly , thank you so much for your comment ! I really appreciate it . I am glad to hear that I have a supportive place to go when I need helpadvice and not have to PUBLICLY announce like on fb or be afraid to post like in some subs . I hope so too , it ' s helped quite a bit already though , reading all kinds of posts which I can relate toknow Im not the only one in the situation though I wish I was and wish the best for everyone on here . Hope you have a good holidays if you celebrate !