But SiIvaGunner is kill ? !<| sep |> I am here to help , if you need to talk . <| sep |> One time I was at a sleepover with my best friend and she put on the movie Mommy Dearest and it was educational to me . I didn ' t realize that kind of behavior from adults wasn ' t normal . A lot of stuff like the stairs incident occurred . I used to get flashbacks regularly but they ' re rare now . It is difficult to describe how my mom works on a psychological level . She could have really bad daysweeksyears . Even her better moments were very selfcentric . She lashed out angrily when she started to feel her own shortcomings or saw even a glimpse of someone else ' s . The simple fact that people could think differently from herself was something she blatantly denied . I ' m serious . We had many conversations about it . She spent my childhood both cherishing and resenting me . She gave my older sister up for adoption a year earlier , so I was a kind of redemption to her . Unfortunately I began to remind her of what she hated about my father and she spent my childhood trying to keep me from making all of her mistakes . I hope that clarifies things a little lol . But yes , in many ways it felt like an 80 ' s horror , but way less fashionable . I DID grow up in a possibly haunted 100 yr old house . I guess that adds to the ambiance .