Video was a bit shit until the American Psycho scene . <| sep |> What is the message that pops up when you kill someone . Like when you die from mafia it says You were killed by a member of the Mafia ? <| sep |> Thanks . And that ' s gross <| sep |> I can really dig that , love talking to people about their spiritual experiences . With all the things I ' ve been through , I ' ve been shot at , jumped , died one time due to a car accident heart legit stopped beating and I stopped breathing had to be brought back and a whole lot more you ' d think I ' d be firm on my beliefs but I ' m just lost . I feel so hopeless , and really that has a lot to do with why I use . I want to feel something anything other than the darkness of my thoughts and memories .