Go to liquid barn and buy premixed vg that has nicotine in it . Once I get on a computer I can send you a direct link . <| sep |> Does a relapse binge mean I ' ve lost all my progress ? I ' ve been completely porn free for 2 and a half years Before that 2 . 5 years , what was the longest you went without porn ? My guess is that it ' s significantly less than 2 . 5 years . I ' ve never known an addict in recovery that hasn ' t slipped multiple times . The trick is to not let it take you back down a bad path . Do a postmortem of a slip i . e . think back and try to determine where it all went wrong , and think back far because I guarantee that your slip started long before you pulled up porn . Porn is your solution to a problem , not the actual problem . Then , resolve to do better next time . If you don ' t attend meetings , you might want to try . There are several groups out there that specialize in exactly your type of addiction and are two I can think of right off the top of my head . There are also the subs of rPornFree and rNoFap if you want something even more anonymous . Lastly , two years seems to be the worst time in any recovery . I ' ve been in a lot of rooms and a lot of meetings , and I ' ve seen more people slip at two years that any other time . It could be observerbias , but it ' s awfully common . In my case , I slipped probably 9 12 times in my first 6 months of sobriety , and now I ' m on month 13 without a slip . Stuff gets better . Good luck , and feel free to PM me if you ever want to rantventask questions .