The holidays do stuck , I feel you there . But I have to agree with everyone else here , you are a good looking guy ! If I wasn ' t so socially awkward , I would totally strike up a conversation with you ! <| sep |> JC vs Smart would be a better debate than Randle vs Smart <| sep |> I ' m open , sure ! Sorry it took me so long to reply , I didn ' t expect so much feedback . I think something in my genetic history must have predisposed me to mental illesss the depression , anxiety , BPD , etc as my mother and as she describes her own mother so my grandma all display mental health issues too . But I think being put into such a difficult situation with virtually no help or way out played a huge role . I would have probably gained better coping skills if I had been given the chance . My mother ' s side of the family is all deceased now , but as I said her own mother was abusive and probably Narc too , from what I heard . My maternal grandfather also committed suicide , so he suffered depression . I wouldn ' t be surprised if this issue ran deeper . My fiance essentially saved me from having to live with her , he rented us an apartment and rescued me from that hell . He also supports me financially since I ' m unable to work and not currently in school . He understands how bonkers my mom is and knows most of my past history , but not all the details , so he gets it .