I ' ll save you all the trouble . The KSA is kicking the crap out of the Yemen rebels because the KSA , Qutar and UAE are going to make a oil pipeline through the mountains that end in an oil terminal that does not rely on the Straights of Hormuz . This is limiting Iran ' s influence , and thus Russia , and turns the tables on effects of a blockade or mining of the Straights . This is also insurance as the West will likely no longer import ME oil in 30 years , however China , SEA and India are still going to be hungry for cheap energy . <| sep |> Assuming it went down the way you describe ? Read thisif you want to it makes my point better than I can hope to , if not , keep reading here d e f i n i tioninhighereducationThey aren ' t magically able to see your side of it , and it doesn ' t sound like you ' re magically able to see theirs . No shit . You ' re all human . Losing friends to IEDs . it fucking sucks , man , there ' s nothing you could do . It makes you powerless . And it makes you angry . I carried that anger for a long time , and I still do it means that when some asshole says something dumb , because he does not can not understand , I have to check myself . Like you did , on that trip . But checking yourself , stopping yourself from retorting then and there won ' t make that anger go away it can fester and grow . But remember they aren ' t speaking from malice , or possibly even stupidity . They ' re just . ignorant . They just . don ' t . know . They haven ' t had the opportunity to see , and there may not be anything you can do to make them see how hurtful such a comment can be . But you should still try they ' re your family , and they ' re important . I can fucking smell your anger in your post . Anger is great we cultivate it in soldiers , when controlled it allows aggression . But back out in ' the world '. Well . Anger becomes a want , it ' s there , and it feels right , or feels like you ' re right . It makes the world black and white , makes it certain . But things you want can get in the way of what you need . It sounds like what you need is to be a part of your family . I don ' t know them , but I ' m pretty sure they ' re unable to see that your anger was righteous . What they can see is that it ' s frightening they don ' t know why you threatened someone , not really . Because they don ' t understand . And while you know you ' re not going to hurt them , they don ' t . So be reconciliatory but explain your side to it . Compare it to a familymember being murdered , ask them to imagine there ' s someone planting bombs in the road , in the gardens , in the city , you sometimes find them and sometimes don ' t and you and your family are the targets . Now a brother dies . Then someone tells you to laugh it off . I mean I think you overreacted intially . I might have done the same thing , especially right after getting back from my first year , in 2010 . I had a lot of anger then . A lot of undigested pain . If you can forgive them for their ignorance , you can use that same moral courage your anger comes from to try and understand them , talk to them , and gain their forgiveness in return . Because this all sounds like a massive fucking ball of assumptions and misunderstandings . If the dreams continue , if the anger , or tension feels like it ' s just under the surface . talk to someone . And by that I mean a therapist . PTSD , anger issues , etc . it ' s no joke . If you ' re showing symptoms , grab hold of it and deal with it the way you would any other task . Find the appropriate expert and use them . Have as good a day , and night as you can . You are most definitely not alone . P