I know that ' s the right attitude , but I just don ' t have it . I always liked having a big goal and then working toward it , but I can ' t think of anything to even want anymore . Small efforts seem to require faith I don ' t have , and just make me feel even more remedial and stupid . I don ' t see any path out of it because I am it , so why try ? Unfortunately I have a very hateful attitude toward going on walks or trying to do a little volunteer work or whatever is recommended in these situations . Sorry , I have become a black hole of negativity . <| sep |> Lol nah man , I ' m going to be stuck at 15 . You can add some skins worth 2 . 6 dollars to your 14 keys and I ' ll accept it <| sep |> Possibly the most succinct humble brag ever ! What line of business are you in btw ?