He chuckles . I know . I was asking Barclay . <| sep |> What he said D <| sep |> two senarios here . 1 . Your mom is a shit human being and you will have to learn to live without her approval or love . this senario sucks and I really hope you dont have to live it . But if you do know that there is always hope . You can find friends who can become like family , you CAN find that love again one day . 2 . your mom is scared , very scared , and angry at herself and life . She may feel like this is her fault . She can ' t face her fears and so she reacts by lashing out at you . I can only imagine the pain and fear I would feel if my child tried to kill themselves . People act weird when they are in a lot of pain . If it is this option , then one day you and her can recover the relationship . what did you put her through ? Visits in the ER ? Regardless , if you dont receive an apoligy that is sincere , its ok to distance yourself from them . Your mental health may rely on this . Im really sorry you are going through this Do you have any friends you can talk to ? Or a teacher ?