Someone I considered a friend murdered her daughter a few years ago . It was completely unexpected , from what I and everyone else saw was that she was an incredible mother . I babysat her daughter a few times and she was a bubbly , happy toddler , I never saw any warning signs . For weeks after it happened I remember obsessively googling news stories about it . I completely understand the feeling Jason ' s talking about . It was almost therapeutic . Reading through the news articles and comments helped me process things a little bit more instead of just sitting in my shock and sadness and grief . <| sep |> Seems to happen when using any deployable ads , barb wire , claymore mine , drone etc . <| sep |> Same here . Moved to Portland from Oklahoma in October . It ' s a hell of a different atmosphere . I love it .