You can eat it with rice . this is literally my obsession food . Only my version has carrots . <| sep |> Why the fuck do we have a safety playing man coverage on the best WR in the SEC <| sep |> Warship explosionsYdrISbwyzI are no joke and flying through one is probably similar to being inside a blender . on a side note , this is fucking hilarious as far as ACCIDENT goes . <| sep |> Swish ! Thanks so much <| sep |> Accurate relative to a 1200 lb tiger , though <| sep |> Part 2 Warning Wall of text and I talk about God ! This is the start of my hard drug use . It was at this time that I decided to give meth a try . I had used it a couple of times before but it was not my preferred choice . I used it for a little while but later gave it up for something that would change my life . One night I took a bunch of Xanax and decided to try something different , something new , that something was called crack . This was my first experience with CrackCocaine and it defiantly was different than anything else I had ever used . The instant I took that first hit , I was hooked . I had never felt such a strong craving in my life . I thought I knew what addicted was but this changed everything . I would give anything to chase down that first hit again . I stole from my friends , stole from my parents I stole from anyone and everyone . I would fight you over pocket change if it meant I could smoke some crack . This is called chasing the rock because you will never experience the first high again , but you are endlessly trying to obtain it . I was hopelessly addicted and wanted nothing more than my drugs . I still drank but I preferred drugs much more . I continued this cycle of 3 weeks using and 1 week clean to pass my drug tests for probation . This lasted for about 7 months . Then one day I was riding in the car with one of my old time friends . She pretty much spent the conversation telling me how stupid I had been the last few months . How dumb I was for using while on probation and that I need to quit using until I finish probation . I responded by laughing it off . I could give up most of the drugs but I could not let go of my Xanax and Crack combination . I did not know at the time but this was my rock bottom . I had lost the last true friend I had . I had given up . I was ready to throw in the towel but I didn ' t know how . I did the craziest thing I could think of . I went and told my probation officer I had been using the whole time . That I could not stop using and that I was hopelessly addicted . He looked at me as everyone expected . But his response was not so expected . He asked what I planned to do about it . I asked for permission to go to rehab and he agreed pending I still make my monthly checkins . This time I went to a different rehab . I went to Sundown Ranch , which specialized in young addicts and alcoholics . Kids from 14 to 24 were allowed only . I was 21 years old when I went to rehab this time . This rehab was completely different . This was not a hospital this was like going out into the middle of nowhere and going camping . We stayed in groups around our ages and all day everyday was scheduled for us . This was eating , smoking cigarettes and group therapy and addiction classes all day . We were allowed only three meals , granted as many helpings as we wanted . 5 cigarette breaks and 6 hours of various classes and therapy a day . It was at this point that I started doing something I had not done in 7 years , praying . I was so lucky or rather divinely placed in a rehab that was very adamant of needing a higher power to get sober . We even had an optional class on Wednesday nights called Spirituality which in all reality was church . We even had a Baptist preacher who led a service at spirituality . It was here that I truly started trusting God with my addiction . It was at this point that I knew what had been leading me here . What had saved my life from the many overdoses , the car wrecks , and the grip of addiction . Something I had known as unknown was now made known to me as Jesus Christ . Something I thought I knew as a child was now shown to be more than I ever imagined , but what do I do with this knowledge ? Little did I know it but after I had completed my 30 days of rehab instead of being able to go home , I was being sent to a halfway house . I was sent down to Kerrville , Texas in what can only be described as a beat up dorm room at best . I was able to live there for 2 months and it was here that I learned how to live without drugs . Rehab was fine and dandy but what do you do when you are out on your own . I stayed clean for the 2 months and attended 7 AA or NA meetings a week . I had a sponsor and was worked through the 12 step program in my 2 months . It was at this point that I had become very home sick . I did something everyone told me I should not do . I went home . I missed my home , my dog , and my girlfriend . I missed my family . I returned home and started going to church . I went every Sunday and got a job . It was at this point I started to smoke weed again . I wanted to see if I was truly done with drugs . I never had any problems when I was only smoking weed maybe it will be okay . I continued to go to church and seek God . I sought to know Him more and more . I sought His will in my life and after 2 months of smoking God led me to quit . God pressed me to show Him what I would choose to serve . What I would choose to put first . What I would devote my life to . It was at this point that I chose Christ ! I continued my growth and decided to be rebaptized . This was my public display of my choice to serve Christ Jesus . It was about this time that I found out that Stephany was pregnant and this being my second time having gotten a girl pregnant I knew what I didn ' t want to do . I had already messed up as bad as you can in this situation so I knew I had to do something different . We had the child and are raising him now . No one wants to be the prodical son but I would not have the faith I have today , I would not be the man I am today , I would not know Christ as I do today , had I not gone through the trials I faced . Do not doubt the power of prayer . For your prayers are not left on deaf ears . Sometimes God has a better plan for your weakness than you can ever imagine and I have the amazing pleasure to be a living testimony to that very fact . I now have two sons a wife and a beautiful home . My family never thought I would live to see my 22 nd birthday let alone make it to 25 . So to say the least I am thankful this day to be alive . I am thankful to have a family . I am thankful that I now get to help others who struggle with drugs and alcohol . I am thankful for my two kids who will know all of my scars . I am thankful for a God who loves me no matter how hard I try to run away . If you or a love one struggles with an addiction and need someone to talk to , feel free to reach out to me anytime .