then how can you also claim that a person born with a female reproductive system is no longer female if she has it removed ? I didn ' t say that actually . At all . <| sep |> Is it possible that it messes with the USB connector ? Would be weird for the whole board to fail from a single switch . Shouldn ' t be shorting anything . <| sep |> Did you play Farcry 4 ? If so , think same type of game but 10 , 000 years ago . It ' s pretty cool . <| sep |> True I ' m expecting a decent game from edelman as well so I ' m not too bummed <| sep |> I feel you . I LIVED in my head growing up , and I still do . I ' m rarely present in a situation , I ' m always somewhere in my imagination or stuck dwelling on things , trying to sort stuff out in my mind . Therapist says that it ' s very common for kids with traumatic childhoods to disassociate . It ' s only been very recently that I realized that the way my ndad treated me growing up was abuse . My emom always defended him and told me how much he loved me , and I think that disguised it a lot . If he would have hit me , I ' d have realized , I think . Physical violence is such a clear line but emotional and verbal abuse is much more insidious , I thought what went on in my house was normal and that my family was perfect , but I had terrible anxiety and all sorts of problems like that so on some level maybe I knew . I grew up with a really messed up idea of what love and kindness and caring are . Because I come from such a dysfunctional home I have no idea what a healthy and sane expression of any type of emotion looks like . All I know is my dads rage and my moms manipulation and martyrdom and that every kind of feeling whether anger or ' love ' or happiness was absolutely suffocating . I relate about being afraid of showing narc traits , kids learn by example and I ' m horrified sometimes by my reactions to things it ' s exactly like my dad even though I ' m far from a narcissist , it ' s just a learned behavior . When that ' s all you ever knew , some of it is going to stick . Trying to correct this stuff all on your own can be risky though , it ' s easy to go too far in the opposite direction in kind of a knee jerk response . Like , I can be such a peoplepleaser because I don ' t properly understand how to be assertive and stand up for myself in a healthy constructive way . In my mind you are either a saint at all times and allow people to walk all over you , or else a raging maniac no in between . Anyway , are you actually in therapy rn ? If you aren ' t it might be a good idea . Always helpful to get another objective perspective .