Oh lord that ' s a beautiful place . <| sep |> I recently blessed my youngest and it was a good experience . I stopped out all the normal TBM crap like temple marriage and mission and just blessed my child to be a good person , etc . It was a bonding moment to think about what I want for my cold in this life and it helped keep the peace . And my wife not getting to participate in any capacity was another weight on her shelf . <| sep |> Not saying G was a super fast skater before but he honestly seems kinda slow this year . No jam <| sep |> i ' m also a 10 . 5 and the 10 s fit perfectly . <| sep |> That sounds bad , not gonna lie . I think you ' re in a situation where you sort of already know what the best thing to do is , however the idea of it is not something you can deal with yet . But yeah I think you should go to your surgeon again because as things are now like you say it ' s just not acceptable . So I would focus my energy on slowly coming to terms with that . Give yourself a second chance and hope for the best . That ' s just me though . I know it must be hard either way .