Well . I do like cake . <| sep |> Great first post and I ' m right there with you . This shit can play with your headam I a problem drinker ? Is it a phase ? Is it everyone else ? Unfortunately , doubtrationalization are part of the mechanics of any obsession , pair that with chemical conditioning and triggering in the brain , and perception can get slippery ! Now add a fuck ton of social conditioning , behavioral norms , and peer reinforcement around the holidays and you can feel like it was all just a paper tiger , a boogie man , and you ' re just being an overdramatizing bag of dicks . At least that ' s how my crazy around alcohol comes out . Just get through tonight sober and re evaluate in the morning when all the holiday bullshit is over !