You can love yourself , some day . It can be a difficult process , I know from years of hating myself . Maybe try seeing a counselor , I used to hate the idea of seeing a professional for mental anguish but after I started to see a counselor I was finally able to verbalize my feelings and sometimes that ' s what you need to take that first step . If you always internalize your negative thoughts , you may not realize that some of the stuff you think are facts about yourself are just fears that have manifested into an inner demon . You gotta eradicate those thoughts , even if it means treating depression through medication . Good luck , you deserve to love yourself . <| sep |> Into the abyss made me so sad . I just look at these boys who are articulate and seem so sweet and it ' s like why did you have to do this ? Maybe it ' s weird to feel sorry for murderers or whatever but I just get this immense sadness when I think about someone going down that path . Their mothers held them in their arms and had all these dreams for them and then they commit murder for a few bucks . It just breaks my heart .