I ' m always following my boyfriend around and turning off the lights and the thermostat . I tell him people spend their lives trying to figure out the answer to why are we here ? but it must be comforting for him to know he ' s here to waste all my electricity . <| sep |> I always read my old posts to remind myself how we got to this point . It ' s easy to doubt yourself when there ' s no drama for a while but there won ' t be if we don ' t allow them to cause it . I always come back when I start to doubt myself , the advice is always great and always sets me straight . I wish I could see myself the way he does lol . <| sep |> Brain . exe has stopped working . <| sep |> Well , we wouldn ' t have a climate change denying conspiracy theorist in charge of the EPA , or an antischool nut with no education experience in charge of the DOE . We wouldn ' t have a literal nazi sympathizer in the White House and an antiLGBT bigot for VP . The Republicans wouldn ' t be gearing up to get rid of medicare and medicaid .