ok , i need to check itspez fucking kek <| sep |> Ok . I got absolutely rekt . <| sep |> Financial tools can get very weird and complex . It ' s possible that imagined money is greater than assets to back it up or something like that <| sep |> BPM by extension VORP only go back to the late 70 ' s <| sep |> Thank you so much , this helps a lot . It ' s hard to find any support for situations like this since everyone assumes that because it was a choice , it was easy . But it was the hardest thing I ' ve ever had to do , despite being the right thing for us to do . However we learned a lot and I feel like it made me grow as a person and start to feel more sure and confident of myself and it restored my ability to visualise a better future . One day we will meet our little boy again