This is very common . The way I describe it is the JW FOG . Fear , Obligation and Guilt . These are the key tools that the cult uses to get its members to comply with cult directives . They implant these things deeply inside you . They can surface unexpectedly and without any apparent cause , reason or logical explanation . It is deep indoctrination . The only way to get over these things is to confront the feeling with brute logic and critical reasoning . Ask yourself would or should a normal person feel this way about this ? Why am I feeling this way ? Do I actually think this or is it programming ? What do I actually feel about this subject ? If you can ' t explain it any other way that the cult programmed response , then you need to think , research and prove to yourself the logical sensible answer , so you can reject the cult logic