I slammed my fists down on the wheel . Don ' t you fucking dare , Marc . There is no happiness in this . My husband cheated on me and died . Don ' t . You . Dare . Every word was punctuated by a sob , the grief racking my body like a wave pounding the rocks . Honestly , I continued . You ' re a fucking idiot if you think I hate you . I could never hate you , Marc . Maybe that makes me the idiot for loving a man so ungrateful , so Placing my arms on the steering wheel and my head on them in turn , I took a steadying breath . I can ' t do it alone . You were supposed to be here . My hand trembled as I tried to place the key into the ignition . Marc reached over and grabbed my arm . He didn ' t go through this time . That was a first , even for me . He felt almost solid . Cold , but solid . I am here . I ' m here now . Baby , please . Though he let go of my arm , his eyes still implored me to do something other than what I was about to do . Not for me . For you . Still shaking , I brought down my hands and the key to my lap . Okay , I whispered , Okay . He beamed at me . Even in death , he remained the most beautiful man I ' d even seen . I ' ll never leave you . Never , ever . Neither of you . ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The nursery walls were painted a soft yellow the loveseat in the corner was cream color . Sunshine danced about the room , bathing everything in a pure , bright light . I sat in the rocking chair near the window , enjoying the beautiful day . Look who it is ! I said . My daughter cooed as Marc walked in . It ' s Daddy ! Holly burbled and smiled at her father . It seemed my talent had a genetic component . Sorry if this is too long . Also , super exhausted so sorry if there ' s a ton of typos .