I ' m Going with Normal mode for the first time 90 days . I ' ve relapsed too many times . even when I know I shouldn ' t and think about the loss of everything I still actively pursue porn and go out of my way to go to instagram which leads me to pornhub which leads to me hitting the emergency button and me stopping only to go back to it again like i have control and edging saying im not gonna do it but I find the right thing and ruin everything . <| sep |> My love to you ! How old was he ? How are you holding up ? My Dad tried Morphine and said no more of that . Instead we tried pot brownies for him and he said that helped him more than the morphine . That stuff is no joke . <| sep |> Wolfenstein the new order at 25 FPS .