What made you think of this investment ? <| sep |> literally all lethality items are just gimmicky , stop it <| sep |> Fuck ' s sake only money orders ? Seems like it ' d be easier to get a bank check . So many of the businesses that deal regularly with poor people seem intentionally designed to keep those people poor . Everyone charges poor people more money for everything , or makes poor people expend twice the amount of their precious time for everything . It ' s some fanatical cult religion whose primary belief is that poor people must never , ever stop being poor even for a few minutes or the god damn world will just fucking end . <| sep |> Nearly 30 years ago , I left a small rural BC town maybe a little bigger than Manchester and moved to Vancouver when I was 18 , to go to school . Like you , I also came from a very conservative Christian family . Getting away was probably one of the best things I ever did for myself . Sure , I managed to get myself knocked up later on and I didn ' t get married until I was 41 , but I don ' t regret leaving , ever . Good decisions and bad , I have been the captain of my own life . Not my parents , not even my husband now . I have some of my old hometown friends on facebook and they post the most eyerolling angryconservative , homophobic , and racist crap . As rageinducing as it is , I still haven ' t unfriended them because they serve as a reminder of what I could have become if I had never left . By leaving , I challenged myself , and allowed other people to challenge my beliefs and assumptions , in a way that small town people with small town mentalities don ' t always get the opportunity for , especially in nondiverse towns like it sounds like your hometown is . Those 3 . 5 months in NYC were a gift from your friend to you . It showed you there was more to the world than you have been led to believe . It challenged you in a way you have never been challenged before . You also experienced independence for the first time in your life ! Not having your parents or your fiance telling you what to do . No wonder you crave that freedom again . Moving out of the nest is what growing up is all about . Moving to New York is not the same as abandoning your parents . You can still visit , and they can visit you . Your fiance is another story . He could decide to break things off , and that will sting . But consider this , if you stay because he insists , while your heart is still in New York , will you only come to resent him ?