Nope , the play start outside of 2 minutes so Detroit can still review . <| sep |> Are you paid to be here yes or no ? <| sep |> They missed 11 fts . Easy points they left on the court <| sep |> Reese ' s pieces but without any scratches , dents , or chips and also only the orange ones <| sep |> If they are chasing someone , or on their way to an emergency . Theyre not allowed to just speed whenever they want to . <| sep |> Calm down son , dude never said anything to elicit that reaction from you <| sep |> 1 . Pick Renekton Top 2 . Win Top easily 3 . Build HydraBC and Tank Items 4 . Easy Win every game <| sep |> I woke up during opensurgery this year . Nasal surgery . I had trouble breathing out of my nose for years . I had a septoplasty and turbinate reduction first in 2011 and if needed , I would get an alarbaton graft to brace my vestibules open because they collapsed on inhale . It ' s called vestibular stenosis . I needed the alarbaton graft . I didn ' t want the septum retraumatized so I requested the cartilage for the alarbaton grafts be harvested from my ears . I moved states , so I was doing this relatively small procedure with a new ENT Surgeon . I explained exactly what I wanted an alarbaton graft with cartilage harvested from my ears . He agreed . Fast forward to postsurgery . I wake up and my ears are not touched , but my nose is hurting so fucking bad I have to stay in the hospital for a few additional hours . I ' m drugged pretty heavily . I go home and sleep for what seems like days . I have a postoperative checkup seven days later . I don ' t realize until after , that during this time my anxiety is off the scale , I just attribute it to the procedure , and distract myself from the fact that my face hurts so bad , I don ' t know what happened in the surgery , and I feel horrible . I feel horror . I go to the 7 day postop meeting and he tells me ' I cut your septum out and braced your vestibules with that . ' I exasperate in disbelief . Right before this I tell him that I am curious as to what happened in the surgery . Very curious . He says ' I would be too '. He also further reduced my turbinates , dramatically so . Which is frustrating because the turbinates function is too ensure climitisation , humidification , and cleaning of inhaled air . In fact when you remove too much of them you get a condition called ' empty nose syndrome '. I call it ' empty air syndrome ', because although your nose itself feels empty , with that whole structure removed , what really matters is that the air you breath now feels empty . And when you exert yourself and your rate of breathing increases breathing nonclimatised air hurts your chest . I assume it ' s the lungs themselves that hurt . Take a big inhale through your nose and slowly exhale . See how good that feels ? I don ' t feel that anymore . It ' s called ' empty nose syndrome ', but I call it ' empty air syndrome '. During the first few months after surgery I feel this horror seeping underneath my reality . This viscous carnal blackness that I don ' t have a name for because I ' ve never experienced it before . Also the front of my nose is collapsed , maybe from the septum being cut out , but who knows , we never talked about anything other than the alarbaton graft , so I don ' t really know what he all did , and he didn ' t tell me in the 7 day postop , or the 3 month postop . Since the structure in the front of my nose has been removed , my nasal passages collapse even more on inhale now , more than they did before . It is extraordinary . So I get into therapy to tell them how horrible I feel about having the tip of my face cut out against my will . It ' s pretty heavy stuff and the therapist I talk to really don ' t seem to conceptualize what I am saying . Someone I trusted to do a relatively minor procedure , dramatically changed the scope of the procedure , to include cutting a sense organ out of me , cutting my air optimizing system out of me , and cutting the tip of my face out . Against my will . As I talk with the therapists , and verbalize what I am feeling I start to realize all that I am telling you now . I realize that he consciously and intentionally deceived me before the operation , he knew I only wanted an alarbaton graft harvested from my ears . I communicated this clearly . And now my nose is worse . Imagine a straw being grafted onto your face for you to breath through , except the straw is your face . Also , I just can ' t understand why the tip of my nose is gone . There ' s no reason . But I have to deal with it . I lost consciousness in public from the pain in my chest 3 weeks after surgery . In therapy I ' m describing how I am feeling this ' thing '. This viscous carnal blackness , I say to my therapist , there are no words for this thing . So I freeverse it and say it ' s like disgustingness , humiliation , pain , blackness , evil and so on I forget the exact terms I used . I say it isn ' t any of those individually but like all of them somehow as one . Then as I am freeverseing to try and communicate what this thing is , something unusual comes out , and I let it come . It is the thought of meat . Like a steak . A steak being cut into with utensils . But the meat is somehow alive . The steak is still alive . Then I think , it ' s like the steak is still on a living cow . The cow is being cut into while it is still alive . Then the thought comes . It ' s of me . And it ' s of the meat . And in my mind I put them together and it fits . You know that feeling when two things fit together , and you didn ' t know they fit together but when they do you get a feeling ? I felt that feeling . And I realize it ' s me . I remember when I figured it out . I remember when I thought , if it ' s me , then that must have been my face . And it fits . I remember the thing I am describing to the therapist , wasn ' t on my face . It was my face . Anyway . The actual surgery was 6 months ago . I just cry sometimes . I ' m not afraid to admit it , it feels good to just cry so I do it a lot . And I ' m a strong guy , I did years of mixed martial arts and had 3 professional fights . 30 . I realize some of how egregious this thing is . I type it on here because people don ' t want to here this story , it scares people . When he was explaining to me postoperation how he cut my septum out he says imagine a hamburger , and the two buns are the skin and the hamburger itself is the suptum . He analogized my biology as food . When I was in upperdivision undergrad , I studied philosophy with an erudite professor . Ethics . We discussed the ethics of Nazi expiramentation on living people . We didn ' t ' discuss whether doing invasive medical procedures on living people against their will was ethical or not , we took that as a given . Undebatable , really . We discussed the ethics of even using the data collected in those procedures . It was data collected from performing medical procedures on living people against their will . I didn ' t realize that years later I would be a victim of the same thing . Important parts of me cut out against my will . And the person doing it knowing he was doing it against my will . It ' s weird that there is malpractice , and that in itself is an eggregious and noxious thing . But there is something beyond that , namely intentional malpractice . It exists , and I guess it happens too . In undergrad I studied finance . Many people think finance is about money . Finance at it ' s core is the science of valuation . You can value anything , and that ' s the power of ' valuation '. The value of this thing is I got to experience true evil . The most evil thing we know of . One person doing invasive surgery on another living person against their will . I met evil and he sedated and cut pieces out of me for hours . I met evil and I survived . I think there ' s value in that . Because when things like this happen you have to find ways to be positive .