Good players get on good teams . <| sep |> Thanks . I ' ll consider using a share house as a last resort , but I plan to leave Japan for a few weeks and leave my stuff here , so I am not really very comfortable without my own apartment . <| sep |> Don ' t forget break . org and iron 39 chameleon too <| sep |> It ' s been a hell of a year . I almost wish it hadn ' t happened sometimes because I don ' t remember it the way I wish I could have . Like , don ' t get be wrong . I love my little girl she ' s a year too but , this year has been heartache and struggles and not that blissful blahblah that you expect . Of course we are stronger than we give ourselves credit for but it ' s also normal to mourn what we had hoped other people would have been and our lives . Not to say it can ' t turn around but I know it ' s hard to see that moment becoming possible dating , friends , whatever with a still baby toddler baby . Things certainly must prove worth it .