But it was . I have never done it or paid too much attention to how it ' s done . I did rush it . I wanted to try crossdressing . It is not a joke . <| sep |> They ' re both just one giant desert . <| sep |> I ' m glad you are taking the moments as you need them . I have a hard time allowing myself to have that right . Still working on it . But happy birthday , and from a birth mother to adoptee , I ' m beyond proud of you for holding your space , grieving , finding love , living your life , and all of those wonderful things . I can ' t speak for your birth mom , but I can say that I hope my daughter feels able to grieve like this if she needs to ! 3 you matter ! Happy birthday ! <| sep |> Those are some great tits <| sep |> LOCK HIM UP !