Yeah I remember when he was opening completely random shit like toothpaste . That stuff was way funnier than Fan Mail imo . <| sep |> Android PC <| sep |> Posted this , last time this question was askedI was around 9 or 10 and she was a cousin by marriage about 5 or 6 years older than I was . We spent time together often . There was a party at my house with all the parents in the social circle . She took me into the basement we had a pinball machine . Told me to take my pants off and played with my dick till it got hard . I think she asked me if I knew what a vagina was , I think I said yes I was reading a lot of encyclopedias . Anyway , she put my dick inside her while I was sitting on a couch and started riding me a bit . We stopped after I don ' t know how long and then did oral on each other . after that we went back to the party and I think I repressed it for years . when I did think about it later in my teens I didn ' t really think of it as rape and still liked my cousin although I guess it had an affect on my seeing as I ' ve always been hyper sexual learned how to be multi orgasmic at 15 and have a serious oral fetish . I ' m not very good with relationships , Or women in general really , and I base a lot of my self worth on sex . I ' m working through that . I don ' t hold any negative feelings and I didn ' t even consider it rape until another rape survivor heard my story and said she thought it was definitely rape . So now I ' m wondering how many of my depravities stem from that experience . I ' m 27 btw