I am talking about the collective groups . I don ' t know the facts is her case . <| sep |> I just started the TTC process . We are in cycle 1 . I have PCOS and I am 39 yo but on the other hand I already have two healthy boys age 13 and 5 . So I guess I know that it can work . After the second child I put on a lot of weight . Losing weight was a must before TTC as I was already having IR and we did not want the pregnancy to wreck my health neither did I want to risk the child ' s health . I had GD in my second pregnancy , of course . And number two was born 4 . 4 kg at 58 cm . I would rather like to avoid having an even bigger baby . I lost 22 . 2 kg so far since my alltime highest weight of 110 kg in May 2015 . OB has given her ok in October as my bloodwork turned out completely healthy for the first time since before the second pregnancy . So we did start our first cycle right away . 5 days Clinic to speed up my cycle as I have 40 days cycles . OB was gone on some conference that week . So she said take it from Monday to Friday and take advantage of it on Sunday . Which we did . We had been completely going without any sex for a while as it was utterly important for me to NOT get pregnant before my values got better . Monday I had an app with OB . She saw a follicle that was not ready . Took blood . She told me to come back on Wednesday . The bloodwork told that I had not ovulated . On Wednesday she saw the same follicle a whee bit bigger but not ripe . She called me later and told me that I was ovulating or already had but that my estrogen level was too high . She said not to try another time as the hormones could indicate that there was more than one follicle . But why the heck didn ' t she see it then ? She always saw only one . I actually ovulated very close to that super moon . Now , I totally feel pregnant . I have no clue if I am but my nipples hurt , I am massively tired , I feel nauseated and at the same time very very hungry . I am still on a caloric deficit of about 700 but can barely maintain it . I have become so very hungry the past days . The funny thing is that I did not feel nauseated ever when pregnant with my boys . I am so afraid that I am mindfucking myself , just because I want to be pregnant so badly . I mean we haven ' t been trying very long , eh only once , but I had been waiting for the trying for so long . PS We really didn ' t plan for twins . We don ' t have enough room and not enough money for four kids . I am totally afraid that I am not pregnant . That would mean that I will obviously FEEL completely crazy for half of the time as the only normal times will be inbetween getting my period and ovulating . I Hope you guys are not mad at me to vent so much about my FIRST cycle .