This . this is fine <| sep |> Because in my personal opinion they remind me of dingy old hospitals . Is that good enough ? <| sep |> The first and only time I ' ve ever had a crippling depression . I can ' t remember exactly how it started , but I remember everything feeling like a fog . I struggled to get out of bed to go to work in the mornings . I was becoming paranoid like being stalkedwatched kind of paranoid . I was always skinny but I was down to my lowest weight ever 52 kgs , 5 ' 7 . I knew if I didn ' t do something soon that this would not end well , so I googled and exercise was the solution . So it began with my getting up every day and doing 10 pushups and 10 situps . As the fog began to clear I decided to borrow my brother ' s weights . Stuck with it for 18 months , took a long break , and am now back into it . Depression disappeared with a few weeks and has never come back to the same degree I get frustrated at my lack of personal development in some areas , but it ' s more anger than sadness .