You remind me a lot of myself actually . Most of my friends or acquaintances only exist because I put 100 % of the effort . It ' s kind of hard knowing that if you don ' t message them or put the effort to talk to them they will just move on . There ' s not one person that would text me or something if I disappear for a few days . Currently it feels like i ' m in limbo waiting for High School senior year to end so I can find some other people to hang out with . I can ' t really tell if I just have high standards of friends , maybe someone can call me out on it . One thing that I can only dream of having is a best friend , iv ' e never had a friend close enough to call my best friend . Anyway , I have hope for you and I for 2017 . Stay strong friend .