It wasn ' t good for everyone . Reagan ' s administration was the height of the AIDS epidemic in America , which he drug his feet on addressing because it was considered God ' s punishment on gay people . <| sep |> Dez I fuckin love you <| sep |> I took a step back from my daily routine and really sat there and analyzed my life . I asked myself what makes me happy , what doesnt make me happy , which friendslifestyle choices foster the happiness or take away from it . After i analyzed all of that i did the decisive thing and just removed all of the things that were taking away from my happiness or didnt foster what made me happy . I used to think I wanted to be included in everything my friends did , and that all of the people i was friends with were actually my friends . After my analysis period it definitely wasnt over night , it was a process of about 6 months of real deep introspection it turns out i hated the whole partying lifestyle , no one i met during those ventures wanted to hang out with me afterwards and a few of my , then , friends would just keep dragging me out saying im just not doing it right . So , I cut out people from my life who i have been friends with for many many years , i even cut out one of my best friends who was one of the first friends i was actually able to make . I found out i really like nerdy things like board games and gaming in general , as well as dungeons and dragons , so i joined a few gaming groups and met people who enjoy the same things i like . I found that looking objectively at things and trying to remove the emotions out of my thought process really helped me improve my mood . It doesnt mean im a completely apathetic person though . I completely identify with the quote made by robin williams , I know what its like to feel isolated and worthless and want others to never feel that way . If someone , anyone even a stranger , ever came up to me and talked to me about their passion , i would always ask them tons of questions and just be totally engrossed in their story , even though they are a stranger , because i want to learn more about people and their history and even more importantly it allows them to feel important for even a moment which can turn someones life around . As someone going on mid to late 20 s im in a much better place than I was a few years ago . And the great thing is , you can do it today . It really is just a thought process switch . I took a stress management class in uni and I learned something that really resonated with me , it was something I was doing but never put into words if you make that switch and start looking at things positively , you will see the next thing positively and the next , and before you know it it has turned into a wave of positivity that will have changed your life . The toughest part is getting yourself to believe in it . And thats what my whole analysis part helped me do , it made me believe that I could be a positive and happy person . Best of luck to you friend .