I got dumped a couple months ago for completely bullshit reasons , and I ' m also forced to spend 12 hour to an hour each week with my ex in a club because I got appointed treasurer . All the people I hung out with at lunch pretty much abandoned me , so not much social interaction either . Plus , multiple family crises at once , along with all the other bullshit happening in the world . I feel like crap pretty much 247 , except when I ' m playing Souls games . I need sleep pretty badly , which I ' ve been kinda getting with short naps throughout the day , and I am on Thanksgiving break so I could sleep in if needed , but I get up super early 530 AM or 6 AM just to play , since it makes me feel better . It ' s cathartic to take down a boss like the Dancer or Dragonslayer Armour , and there is a genuinely good feeling when I engage in some jolly cooperation also , if by some miracle you ' re on here , sorry to the guy that summoned me today that had to keep calling me over to Vordt ' s boss fog . Also , kinda funnily , one of the NPCs in the game has the same name as my ex . It is genuinely a coincidence that I ' ve killed her in every playthrough I ' ve done . edit sorry that this is so ranty or whatever , but I ' m going through a lot and these five games have been pretty much my only somewhat healthy outlet of frustration . The community on here has also helped , I ' ve met very few genuinely rude people on either this or the Bloodborne sub , everyone ' s generally respectful . second edit these guesses are hilarious