Because bitcoin is rising ? <| sep |> What rating does this happen on ? <| sep |> Thank you for your kind and supportive words . They give me hope . On a side note . My interpersonal experiences have led me to a really tentative conclusion . I suspect but don ' t know that young girls aren ' t encouraged to seek hobbies and pastimes for personal enrichment and joy the same way boys are . In every single prior relationship , my partners not only lacked interest in my favorite pastime they also lacked interests of their own to pursue . This led to me being their pastime , and for them , their pastime having a pastime of his own wasn ' t very satisfying . I didn ' t like disappointing my partners , almost as much as I didn ' t like forgoing one of my favorite things . This happened so consistently in my relationships that I had come to unconsciously expect this dynamic . I hadn ' t even consciously analyzed it , or articulated it , and without realizing it I had come to subconsciously expect this to be a natural part of romantic relationships with women . The first time my soon to be ex ? SO watched me play a game , she noticed me looking over my shoulder to check on her and make sure she didn ' t feel like I was ignoring her . She told me You ' re not here for my benefit , you don ' t owe me your attention , relax and enjoy your game and if I get bored I ' ll entertain myself . It was a powerful moment for me that made me aware of a lot of these subconscious things .