TBTL Too Beautiful To Live . It truly is an emotional rollercoaster of banality but in a very pleasing way . <| sep |> is it normal Yup ! Absolutely normal . You ' ve got a serious crush on him and it ' s totally reciprocated . It ' s only been a week , but it sounds like you are in serious danger of falling in love 3 . and how do I force myself to focus on important stuff ? Buy a good vibrator and enjoy the fantasies . Other than that , serious willpower . Just keep reminding yourself what you need to focus on , maybe reward yourself for studying for certain times during the day . Could you join a study group , or ask a friend to help you studyfocus ? I ' ve found that having someone else to be accountable to can help stay on track .