Keep the Shaggin Wagon <| sep |> Thank you all , very good insights . Strong cases for and against trainers . I will be learning the 25 t for sure as I like the aircraft . Sounds like the F 5 is right up my alley but alas , not on steam yet or so I read . the steam sale is what prompted me to get inquisitive . I was poking around about upcoming modules , thinking I might wait to get into a favorite that I would be very passionate about . Alas , badassery like the Tornado , F 4 , and Gripen seem to be a bit far off at this point . Still , the A 10 c is pretty damn badass . I may just jump in with that , but we will see how the SU 25 goes . Thanks for the help guys . <| sep |> Coming from someone who also was in a shitty relationship there is nothing wrong with you . Given , my circumstances were , and still are , vastly different from yours but from what I read I feel like we have at least one major similarity . We are way too hard on ourselves . Based on how this post reads to me , and I could be absolutely wrong , you love her . You love her a lot . When she comes to you she makes you feel loved which is an awesome feeling . And there are few feelings worse than when someone who you think loves you hurts you so bad . But there ' s nothing wrong with you . Everyone loves feeling loved . It will be hard but you have to tell yourself that she isn ' t worth your suffering . You won ' t believe it for awhile but eventually you may , and that won ' t feel much better but it won ' t hurt so bad . It may be cringy to say but your love is worth something . And the sooner you let this girl deal with her problems herself the sooner you ' ll find a woman who appreciates that love . I wish the best for you and I hope good things come to you