He is blaming himself for not saying no to the strat . And also blaming noone for suggesting the strat . <| sep |> Great answer ! When I started to try different drugs I tried lsd and weed . Was my worst experience EVER . LSD went into a badtrip and I called the ambulance because I was sooo scared . Some month after this I tried my First Time weed and even After that low amount I smoked , I got such a strong panic attack again called the ambulance and I had a really high heart rate too 180190 . Couldn ' t feel my body and that really scared me Psychedelics aren ' t something for me . <| sep |> I know you saw many arab muslim evil comments about the situation , as one of them and surprisingly there are many like me share the same opinion with me , may god help your people and make them safe , please ignore their ignorance , governments are evil , people are the one who pay the price ! be safe !