Yeah , that part sounds terrifying . I used to be 230 ish lbs . goddamn I don ' t want to gain all that back if I ever recover . But here is how I see it at the end of the day , I ' m in control of how much I weigh . Even in recovery , if I ever am lol , even if I experience extreme hunger and respond to it by eating whatever it drives me to eat and I start gaining loads of weight . I can always stop if it ' s too much . Extreme hunger is hard to resist when you are in the mindset of ' recovery ' or ' allowing yourself to eat '. but once I decide no more , I personally can stop even if it means tapering off . So it ' s worth giving it a go if you feel ready for recovery , right ? To see what happens ? You may not gain all the weight back at all . You may have changed your basic eating habits in a way that means you naturally don ' t take in enough cals to gain all the weight back , when extreme hunger is gone . Who knows ? It might go really well . Instead of being worried about it and stopping now , allow yourself to stop if anything that really worries you starts to happen ? Easy for me to say . I ' m not even close to wanting to attempt recovery . beh . Alternatively , find other ways to cope with the extreme hunger that don ' t involve responding to it by eating 3 For this , you may need to talk to a professional for help and advice .