You ' re fine ! Just keep trying . When I first started , I headed the wrong way towards the graveyard . That was the only path I found . I then spent the next 5 hours fighting those bastards thinking I sucked the whole time . Made it to the catacombs , realized they were resurrecting and thought that maybe that wasn ' t the way to go . hahaMuch easier when I went the right way . <| sep |> Same , it ' s just a giant conveyor belt . <| sep |> So very hard . I was opening the front door constantly , expecting NMom to be there , or a weird package or letter . But nothing . And no relatives wishing me a Happy Thanksgiving like they used to . It was so calm and happy . My kids went to bed early from all the excitement , ready for tomorrow . No one made me cry except from happiness . I napped on the couch and my kids cuddled with me . We put up the tree and ate the simple dinner I made . Tomorrow we ' re going to a fair . My heart hurts from how wonderful it was . My first holiday without the NFOO . I wished my friends Happy Thanksgiving . They are all with their families . And my SO is working so I ' m watching Netflix by myself and drinking . It ' s still better than being with my NFOO .