Huh . That makes sense . Reverting edit P <| sep |> I ' ve always liked people ' s idea of reworking him into a more offensive hero as opposed to a defensive one . <| sep |> yeah 99 . 9 % of people are not running that . I mean something that doesn ' t cost the amount of a small car <| sep |> Computer , Earl Grey , hot . <| sep |> Can you elaborate on the feminist gender theory comment ? I ' m curious , how does one subscribe to any other gender theory without being similarly handicapped in terms of expression ? It seems weird that you are singling out feminist when really any theory of gender would be similarly reductive when speaking of relative imaginative tools . <| sep |> If you want to transition completely , to a therapistdoctoretc . you would call yourself preMtF or preop MtF . Prehormones , or preoperation maletofemale . I think saying you ' re sissy would send the wrong signalnot sound professional . Sissy to me sounds more like a fetish term , so even if that is how you identify , for the sake of medical professionals I ' d stick to pretransition MtF . I don ' t have any other advice or help other than to stay strong and keep looking . It sounds like you ' ve got a good head on your shoulders and you ' re doing what it takes to get out of your situation and into a good one . I ' m confident you ' ll make it .