Thank you . Yeah the assholes who haven ' t experienced it and say stupid shit like ' ride the wave ', ' just breathe ', etc need to fuck off . Yeah obviously those are helpful . if your a normie experiencing anxiety as in anxiety the feeling not anxiety the disorder , if that makes sense , or if the disorder is very very mild . but not when its , and I quote my doctor here , the worst case I have ever seen . He ' s not a new doc either . Problem is that he ' s an addiction doctor , so you automatically know by that that he doesn ' t give a single fuck about actually treating anybody ' s problems , just figuring out what ' s addictive or abusable and making sure that the patient either doesnt get any , or gets very little , because god forbid they might abuse something . in a good person ' s mind , the fact that it could help their suffering and prevent them from killing themselves should outweigh the risk of them being diverted or abused . A lot of the people who work in the addiction field , from my experience , are not good people . But then some of the people who aren ' t good are often fucking amazing people , like Tracey , so there ' s that at least lol . I need to switch doctors , i just wish it wasn ' t such a pain in the ass getting one .