But recently , my anxiety has made a comeback I know it never goes awayNo , it goes away . It doesn ' t have to stick around . It just depends entirely on whether you let those emotions control you or not . The simple emotion of anxiety will always be a part of life , but whether it becomes a larger part of you is dependent on how you handle it and how well prepared you are for it . Though if you already knew that , well , oh well . LolIt ' s so awful that you had to go through what you went through . It ' s always the worst the very first time it happens since you usually don ' t know what ' s going on or how to handle it . But I find that fact somewhat relieving , since it means that you can only really go up from there if you put an earnest effort into your recovery . I ' m sure it ' s different for everyone , but my major problem was with windows . I would get racing thoughts about how the world outside the window wasn ' t real or that I was seeing a hologram . In retrospect , the thought is harmless and easily disproved , but the panic that I felt alongside it was very real . Whenever I have thoughts like these , I think back to an episode of spongebob where spongebob was paranoid that everyone around him was a robot . Now obviously to anyone watching or anyone who remembers those are irrational fears and thoughts , with absolutely no basis to them whatsoever . Whenever I start thinking about reality or strange existential concepts I refer back to that episode and it helps me put things in perspective a bit , which in turn helps disarm the anxiety . Don ' t get lost in the distractions though , the ultimate goal is to face those anxieties and thoughts and be able to accept them without fear . Recently for me it felt like I kept running from everything that made me feel that way until there was absolutely nothing left , until I was pacing around my room and vomiting in the bathroom . I think I really faced those emotions last night and right now I feel amazing . The sun is real . The sky is real . The wind is real . I feel great . Personally , I want to thank you and congratulate you for reaching out and talking about these feelings . Keep challenging yourself and applying yourself to these anxieties and you will be feeling as great as I am right now in notime .