Holy jesus rfrisson . My entire body got SO TINGLY and still is . edit not frission <| sep |> Can you enjoy spending time playing the piano WITHOUT these feelings of perfectionism and comparing yourself to othersa huge goal ? Can you just enjoy a lesson this is another point maybe you don ' t do well if you teach yourself , maybe get lessons or play with others for its own sake ? Can you spend 20 minutes with your keyboard feeling like this is a pleasure SOMEHOW ? Doesn ' t need to be sheer fun , you will never be able to erase every bit of frustration from a learning experience , and it ' s not necessary either . Is there some fun in there somewhere from only doing this thing itself , or is the only pleasure you get from thinking about being a good player ? If there are parts of it you enjoy , what mindset do you need to be able to enjoy them ? When does the feeling of it being a chore starts to show up ? What about the idea of giving up learning to properly playing the piano , and just playing for fun and grabbing what you need for this along the way ? I ' ve always enjoyed just playing along with songs , figuring them out on the keyboard , etc . , without any lesson at all . It was fun . I also taught myself 1 or 2 songs with an app , which was also fun . The moment I would seriously start playing though would destroy this fun completely , so I don ' t play the piano and have 0 urge to do so ever . I think if you seriously want to learn something , you must be able to somehow find pleasure in the dry , frustrating and boring moments . I do think , however , that there must be something in it that is appealing to you , because I also like the idea of being a good piano player , but it does not drive me to start to achieve this . You care about this . Why ?