You had one failed relationship , and you ' re already whining hurr a relationship won ' t make you happy ! !!. You are obviously ignoring that a good relationship will improve your life in almost every single way . <| sep |> did he post his collection yet its been 3 days i wanna see <| sep |> Jokes are hard . <| sep |> Best game i have played in years , only slightly beaten by skyrim . Have a great playthrough . i expect to see atleast 200 hours played before you finish with everything including the DLCs . D <| sep |> I wrote this a while ago for someone else who was asking for help . Heres my story . Maybe it can help you help her . I had a bad , baaaaaad break up 201112 . It hit me hard . Suicidal , depressed . I failed out of college . I was introduced to MDMA , sometimes it was mephedrone I ' ll be honest , but I was doing it every . single . day . At least for 4 months . I wasn ' t eating , I wasn ' t taking my actual meds for my thyroid . My buddy dealt . So I ' d wake up , do a rail , go to work , sometimes do a few rails at work , come home and head to his house and buy or get fronted . 1 to 1 g a night and just chill there and do it . Then I ' d wake up the next morning , drained of all good chemicals in my brain and thought , I might kill myself today . Maybe I should check into a psycheward . And just repeat the cycle . I was only happy when high . Over the course of those months I lost 50 pounds . I never really mixed drugs but I started doing other drugs heavily . LSD , 25 b , 2 ce , 25 i , 2 cb , weed , DMT , probably meth in E pills a few times on accident . I was a wreck . I had a friend who I thought was doing too much E tell me I needed to slow down and that was my wake up call . To this day my anxiety is horrible . For a while weed didn ' t do anything for me except induce panic attacks almost immediately . After years of stubbornness I took a break . I stopped smoking weed , didn ' t really take drugs very very infrequently but at that time I discovered benzos so it helped me that way . After maybe 2 years of therapy and trying to say detoxed most of my negative symptoms are gone . I can ' t trip anymore something I loved to do oh so much because that anxious 45 come up immediately makes me think bad thoughts . I had had 7 bad trips back to back on different substances . And I mean living nightmare trips that I never thought I would recover from . Weed is still a gamble and I still take benzos more often than I should . But most of what you ' re describing has gone away for me . I hated love , idolized David Duchovny in Californication thinking I was going to be a fast talking rolling Stone bad ass with almost no emotions lol , sex wasn ' t even that enjoyable . But I cleaned up , found someone , got married and having something replace that void of ecstasy in my life really helped . I ' m still not the old me 100 %. But I ' m definitely better . My parents even say that I ' m not quite how I used to be , which was happy and carefree . It ' s a price we have to pay but it doesn ' t have to be super severe . You really need to detox , and find hobbies for a while . Then dip your toes back into some drugs if you wish . Sorry if this post is all over the place . I ' m thinking faster than I ' m typing . If you need any advice DM me . Peace .