War . War never changes <| sep |> how is this manly ? <| sep |> No , it ' s because he ' s playing every position except for his primary . He ' s the best player on the bench but he barely comes on because he fits no position the team plays . <| sep |> And I hate myself for not feeling sad enough to disengage completely from everything and stop thinking about myself for a few days . Say you do these things . Then what ? It won ' t help your friend , it would only damage you . Push through what you need to push through , then go through the stages of grief while you are on break . <| sep |> I bought high last week , 12 . 50 . Bought more at the dip yesterday at 9 . 36 <| sep |> I think prior to reading some of what you sent me , I was so eager to jump in that I just wanted to get my hands on something . But now I will just keep reading and once it starts to warm up , I think then I ' ll start with the one tree a month until it gets too cold .