My mum got diagnosed with early stage breast cancer a month before my aunt died of her six month battle with stage IV cervical cancer . Survivors guilt is totally understandable . What YOU need to understand is that life is shit . It ' s so shit . It sucks . And you got to live . But I think something that is so important to focus on is the future . You ' re here , and your life is so important to the people around you . Even more important now that they ' ve been through such heartbreak . I promise you , no one is looking at you wishing you hadn ' t lived . And if they are they aren ' t worth contacting . I know how difficult it is to lose so many people around you , and know that everyone here is with you and here to support you through this time .