Oh wow , where are you from ? I ' m in Canada , so it was only like 1130 pm or something . You ' re so kind to help I ' m glad you ' re so familiar with this kind of thing . I feel like I used to be really socially on top of things , but then when I developed anxiety , it all kind of went away . Thanks so much for being here . I don ' t invite her places because I always assume that she would either have plans , or need to relax , or that she would invite me if she wanted to see me , but that maybe if I asked her to hang out , she would feel like she had to say yes even if she didn ' t really want to . She ' s quite an introvert herself , and I don ' t want to be clingyover the top , so that ' s why I was kind of trying to follow her lead on how frequently to hang out . I ' ve never once asked her what she thinks of me or anything like that . I think I was having a rough week this week so I got a bit rattled and then I think the appearance of me being rattled was enough for her to just kind of automatically reassure me , but I never explicitly asked I thought about asking her for a hug , but decided that was too needy so I stopped myself . I think there was one time I asked her Oh no , did I already wear this outfit this week ? but other than that , I ' ve been pretty good about not asking for anything , apart from the drives to work . I think it would be healthy for me to branch out as well . It ' s not good to feel lonely when I ' m not able to hang out with my friend . Thanks ! I think I really will try to do that . Tomorrow will be the first day I do it . I think it ' ll be good . I ' d like to feel more stable that may come as well from not bottling up my feelings , and venting in the pages rather than to my friend . I think when I talk with my friend sometimes , and I talk about things that have happened , she knows I ' ve been through a lot and bad things have happened . We read our horoscopes once and mine said I was loyal , dependable , and practical and she said I was all of those things , so I ' m glad she sees me that way . She is generally not a great texter but she has that issue with everyone , not me . So like , I ' ll see her read a text and she ' ll tell me about it afterward because she tells me nearly everything and then she ' ll say something like Aww , that ' s sweet . But then not text the person back . Sometimes she texts back right away or sends me really long texts , and I always appreciate when she takes the time to do that . She is very happy when I accept invitations and then tells me she enjoys my company a lot and sometimes extends invitations like Do you have plans for dinner or would you like to stay with me ? or Are you busy ? Want to go shopping ? You know how I hate shopping alone . I ' ve never declined though . She ' s been through a lot in her life abuse , family falling out , messy divorce , etc . and she ' s confided in me about a lot of it . I listen to her and then validate her feelings and when she tells me something especially awful I tell her something like You should be really proud of yourself for getting through that or I really admire the way you kept going . In the past , she would tell me a lot that she said she didn ' t tell anyone else . Recently , she hasn ' t told me much . She did bring it up today she said I got your text , and don ' t worry about any of that . It ' s okay . I ' m your friend and I ' m not going anywhere . and then I said Thanks . I ' m not going anywhere either ! and then she said There you go ! And then the conversation moved on and didn ' t seem weird and everything was normal . She is a warm person , but not a very verbal person . I think she is really good at using actions to show people she cares about them , but not so much words she especially gets really anxious when she has to sign a card for someone . She is older and is like a mother figure to me , and just kind of dotes on me even if she doesn ' t specifically express verbally how much she cares , I think . And then when she said she loved me I just felt amazing . my mom never says that much to me so it really made me feel warm and fuzzy . And I of course responded Aw , I love you too ! But then she hasn ' t really said it ever again so then it made me think that maybe she said it by accident and doesn ' t really feel that way towards me . There was also a time when she was really upset about a family thing , and I was the only one around , and then she was trying not to cry and then I asked her if I could give her a hug because at that point we had never hugged , and then she said yes please and then really started crying while I held her . But then she never said anything about that after apart from Yeah , I ' m not a big cryer . It seems like she forgot , which kind of makes me sad because I felt that was the turning point where we became friends . That ' s a good way to be it would for sure help my anxiety and get closure even without a response to the text . I hope you ' re having a great day too . Thanks for everything .