I don ' t think there ' s anyway to tell , best of luck though ! Hope we both got ours signed lmaoo <| sep |> the fact that she knows what happens when Agent Connie Frazier turns up with a gun means yes , she acts like a soldier , kill or be killed but she ' s doing it to defend her friends which makes it a more deliberate act than simple self preservation instinctive reaction . Well , she was also defending her own life . So I don ' t really see any real difference between her actions at Berny ' s and at the school . Besides , I also don ' t think that acting by instinct and in a deliberate way are necessarily mutually exclusive . Did Eleven know that she was killing them ? Of course she knew . But my point is that she was in such a mental state in that moment where the instinct of selfpreservation overrides any scruples that someone would have under normal circumstances . it ' s possible to look at the body count and see Eleven as a monster but you ' d be wrong to do that . Well , let put it this way . The simple fact that Eleven sees herself as monster , pretty much already shows that she isn ' t one . Because it means that she aware about how bad those actions are and that she hates herself for constantly being put in situations where she has to defend herself in a violent way to survive . For me the real monster other than the obvious Demogorgon is Brenner , cold , calculating , manipulative and abusive . Yes , no doubt about that .