Damn . Glad you got it figured out . Sounds like a pain . <| sep |> Dawg nobody cares right now <| sep |> I think that sparkle happens as the Pokemon image is loading . You ' re still seeing it after awhile ? <| sep |> Many people feel depression without having a specific reason , don ' t feel guilty , it ' s likely primarily because of some sort of hormoneneurotransmitter imbalance . Have you tried any sort of antidepressant medication ? Maybe it could helpYour obsession with the korean guy does sound pretty extreme , maybe try exploring other artists so that you don ' t feel too attached to any particular one ? It ' s great of your teacher to be so supportive . It ' s important to fix your lack of self esteem . You can always make friends , discover hobbies you enjoy and decide on what you want to do in life . But you need to try to control your depression somehow so that you have the motivation to actually care about your life in order to do those things .