Now imagine if trading came out RIGHT NOW p <| sep |> grandpas recipe <| sep |> To be honest I don ' t think that most of these girls were being malicious , I just don ' t think that some of them were aware of what they were doing . Some definitely did pressure me , and that ' s really what was most difficult to deal with afterwards . As I ' ve said to a couple of other commenters , I have been working on being more assertive regarding consent . It doesn ' t help that as an outcome of my past , my reaction is to kind of freeze up and go with it . But in my most recent relationship , after a couple of instances of being pressured into sex , I was able to firmly say that saying no did not mean that it was ok to keep trying to grab me and talk me into changing my mind . Again , I really don ' t think that my ex necessarily knew what effect it was having on me , especially since I had not really been clear in asserting my boundaries in the past . But after a long conversation it didn ' t happen again for the rest of the relationship , so it worked out in a way . I just also wanted to add that I am really grateful for your advice and support