Coming from another eagles fan , hell nah . Rather see the Giants at the playoffs <| sep |> Wow that ' s quite a long time to walk around with that kinda thing . What was it that finally pushed you to seek help ? Was it a loved one convincing you or did the situation deteriorated to a point you could no longer function ? I suffered from a clinical depression that slowly crept up on me . Those things are easy ignore with excuses like Just a rough patch natural part of getting older Everybody feels like this , they just deal with it better . It was my mom visiting and confronting me with the fact that I no longer had any friends , lost 5 kg since her last visit and did nothing besides working and sleeping that finally convinced me to seek help . Not because I thought I needed it but because I was like Sure I ' ll go . It ' s not like I care enough to give you a reason not to go It only took ~ 3 weeks after taking my fist antidepressant to start seeing life in vibrant colours again . Instead of monotone shades of gray I had been seeing the last 34 years