I ' ve lost a chunk on the value of my propertyI see you ' re in London . Does that mean that overall you ' re worse off or still better off by at least double digit percentages from when you bought it ? <| sep |> Hat Chat . The podcast itself is a pretty basic frame but it ' s the people running it that really make the podcast enjoyable . Hat Films are really funny guys on YouTube and the podcast is literally just them talking . It ' s absolutely hilarious though , their spin on things is great . <| sep |> Your motivation will be bigger than yourself . I am fairly certain that most morbidly obese people eat themselves near to death for a multitude of reasons depression , anxiety , low self worth , no self esteem , history of abuse . Something has to make you see your value and it is usually something or someone else . For me , I am an urban missionary that works with at risk kids , mostly Hispanic , in public housing . These kids talk about the bodies they found in the parking lot , what prison their dad is in , will they be deported next week , etc . About 15 of them keep asking me about the Appalachian trail my dad was a big section hiker and we discussed it one time . They all want to try real hiking , and their with their families and their culture I am their only hope to make that happen . At 353 pounds , with degenerated discs in my lower back , I wasn ' t taking these kids anywhere but a restaurant . If I let these kids down I am a useless piece of trash and everything I say to these kids becomes garbage . I have no choice . Find that kind of motivation . Or , just realize you are worth it and get it done and deal with whatever led you to this point .