It . can be . But filming can be fun too . I may seem like a total fucking wreck on the screen sometimes , and I kinda am in general lol , because I have anxiety issues and stuff , and I ' m still kind of trying to find my own voice for the channel but a lot of the time I have a ton of fun filming , aside from the actual vaping part lol . That part can be hell . But it ' s usually short . It ' s like getting a shot at the doctor ' s office . It sucks , but it ' s over sooner than you know it . But it ' s not all bad . And imo it ' s all worthwhile in the end . <| sep |> 10 Things I Hate About You . Ain ' t no secret though , that movie is the tits . Heath Ledger . That ' s all that needs to be said . <| sep |> I ' m going through the trial process currently . It ' s still pretty fresh and the whole justice system is making healing even more difficult . I guess maybe when this part is over I ' ll get around to healing ?