My 2 cents Stay focus , and make a choice . You can use a pen and paper to list all advantagesdisadvantages from available choices . It helps . But that is for the next year . For now you should just focus on university . You are catching up a year ' s study in weeks , there is no time for anything else . Have some sleep , and then start to study . There is no such thing called LOL exist , in 2016 . Tell it to yourself 4 times before you sleep , every day . If you cannot study at home , go to the school ' s library . The goal is to keep your student visa for next year , so it should not be too hard . Ask any help from any professors and students as well . Also talk to advisors in school to see if and how you could get some financial assistance . They are reliable and know more resources . Next year , if all goes well , maybe you can try LOL one more time . But you gotta stay focus get challenger , and contribute to your team . There is no time to go home , so just make some excuses . It is only for a year most , anyways . Then slowly move from there . There is always hope , so dont give up ! Good luck !