Walsh sends his regards <| sep |> being proud of who you are is one thing , explicitly saying youre proud to be white is often another . and i was just pointing out the difference to the other commenter about why saying im proud to be black is different <| sep |> The fear mongering is the Police Union connecting it to their displeasure with ONLY a 7 million dollar increase to their already inflated budget . <| sep |> for myself , allowing myself to feel genuine anger really helped . Channeling it and feeling it rage through you . Cry for all you lost , scream for what you never got . Give yourself permission to take stock of what you missed and try and give yourself a make up experiences . Amazingly my anger is fading to the background , I never thought I ' d run out , but it ' s fading . I still have to wrestle with shitty memories and I still feel my heartbreak a little when I see a happy momdaughter .