I think many uf us were that kid . its ok to be a 12 yr old when you are 12 <| sep |> Oww , sorry . Its just the song is in such a happy tune . I thought you ' re that kind of mood as well . Better days are coming . Cheer up bud <| sep |> This is something I have been struggling with recently as well . Feeling like I have been the source of much of the negative events that occur in my life , mostly because of sadness or anger that I am feeling often sadness disguised as anger . The relationships that I have are going well and then someone says or does something that I think is wrong and I get very accusatory and angry and start to say things I later regret . I have been looking to go to therapycounseling to seek assistance in figuring out how to manage this . I did it a couple years ago and just being able to talk to someone about whatever was fogging up my head helped tremendously . Talking to someone who is unbiased about what is going on in your life can be a strange but wonderful thing . It sounds like you already have a sense of what you are doing that is hurting your relationships and that ' s a great start ! Just gotta keep admitting we fucked up and try to move forward . It ' s not easy to say I was wrong but sometimes that ' s what will help us the most in the long run . Hang in there and remember that even if the relationships you once had are gone , there are millions of people in the world to create new connections with