So do you work at Walmart ? Do you mind me asking you a question in regards to tomorrow ' s sale ? <| sep |> Except for the lady in drive today who told me it was because she couldn ' t have dairy . <| sep |> Look at TD ' s Ama tab if you are at it <| sep |> Legit life coach . <| sep |> X 220 t usually goes for USD 200 , so that sounds like a good deal ~ USD 157 . It ' s a good laptop if you can get around the screen resolution . <| sep |> I haven ' t done a ton recently . I did postcards , though ! That was fun . <| sep |> cbs sports network , if you have that <| sep |> I think , as long as it ' s a fight , it ' s going to very difficult . Sheer power of will will not be enough . I ' ve read posts on here , and know it to be true from experience you can create all the fail safes keep a diary . browse here every day , UrgeSurfing when you have an urge . But at the end of the day , if you wanna look , you ' ll say screw all that and look . It ' s a huge first step that you ' re talking to us about it on here . Is there anyone you can talk to about it with in real life ? Or maybe you ' d feel more comfortable going to a therapist or someone like that ? I know therapy can seem lame but as I grew older , I realized , everyone is in therapy these days , or should be , lol . If your parents ask you why , and you aren ' t comfortable saying , just tell them you feel anxious at school sometimes . Anyway , I ' m just referring to someone you can talk to openly and honestly about your feelings whether it be a friend , a sibling , or a therapist . Just like you did with us . I think , if you don ' t wanna look at the diaper art , well , don ' t . But I think you should examine these feelings of guilt , repulsion , etc . Where are they coming from ? Are they coming from you ? Or are you worried about what other people will think of you ? I ' m not saying it ' s one way or the other . But I am perhaps formulating the question based on my own experience . I don ' t think you will find an easy solution to this problem , nor to the other question I posed to you in the previous paragraph . But I think , opening up about your thoughts and feelings is huge . In whichever way you feel comfortable . Start with us and work from there . And be as patient as you can . I have to follow this advice too . These things don ' t get solved overnight , and , it ain ' t really about solving them anyway . It ' s about learning to live with the questions . Cold hard experience is the only way to really figure these things out . And in the meantime , don ' t be ashamed of who you are . You don ' t have to go around telling the world , but tell somebody . We ' re like little flowers , we gotta make sure we take those suckers out into the sun every once in awhile or else they wither . Good luck , my friend . You ' re on the path .