Hi there . If you check my latest post you will see that I am basically at the same place than you , even though I have been suffering for 3 months only . But to sumarize I have been experiencing the same issues , feelings of hopelessness about my relationship , feeling that things would just be easy if I just gave up . And it ' s truly a horrible feeling . Now , I ' m not gonna give you reassurance but I will say that you have to consider that you have a disease , you have OCD , and any kind of OCD is without exception tied to feelings of intense anxiety , depression and overall lack of will to keep on fighting . I assume that in your moments of clarity when you can feel well and anxietyfree you acknowledge that that is the case . So I guess the only tip someone with a brain as fucked up as yours can give you us to try your best to see through your thoughts . Don ' t interact , let yourself feel the anxiety and always remember that it is there because you have OCD . Remember , ROCD is just a form of OCD that targets our intimate relationships , perhaps it targets them because they are the most important things to us , perhaps for some whole other reason . But the thing is , it ' s OCD and it just so happens that it ' s targeting your relationship . So don ' t treat things like they are relationship problems , treat them for what they are , OCD problems . Right now it feels horrible , it feels like the worse pain in the world but remember that you are questioning everything about your relationship because of OCD , if your ocd was targeting something else you would have no doubts about your relationship or you would but they just wouldn ' t take such a toll on you but you ' d still have OCD anyway . So bottom line is , you ' re right , it ' s time to dig deeper , get therapy , look up CBT , ERP and ACT , treat your OCD issues and then when you have a clear mind and no obsessions you will be able to see clearly if there are actually any relationship issues or if it was just your ocd talking all along . If there are relationship issues than you will know how to resolve them without OCD clauding your perception , if there aren ' t then I guess its what we all here want isn ' t it ? To go back to a fully loving life with our partners Wishing you the best of luck , if you ever need to talk PM me and I ' ll be glad to talk .