Your advice means a lot ! !! Thank you for your time . Yeah I make sure the first thing I do when I meet them is they know what I ' m after so there ' s no games . If I notice them playing games and our relationship is not genuine bc of mere convenience , I drop out . Also I had made a post in the nofap section a few days ago about one factor I thought would come into play in my life and to a BIG extent that ' s true , until recently past year of course . But I ' ve gotten past that addiction and it ' s relieving that everything else biological urge to procreate is normal compared to everyone else . <| sep |> Then they broke a law and are still here illegally . <| sep |> Ended up making out with this dude in a nightclub when I was about 18 . My opinions after it were that I don ' t like kissing guys and they kiss differently to girls .