Yea , I also really like his ' theory ' and it ' s definitely plausible . <| sep |> The only chances of achieving anything come from accepting the painful feelings that come with it . If I want to learn a skill I have to struggle through the plateus . If I want to meet people I have to struggle through the awkwardness . If I want to move up in my job I need to work harder . Most people can take this baseline punishment and have it pay off in the end . I ' m just not willing , and for as long as I ' m not willing the chances for happiness are nil . What I then have is something I ' d rather lose spending a lifetime getting nowhere through my own lack of will , actually living out the failures I ' m experiencing through my own inability to take on the pains of life . I ' d rather just die , which is the scenario where I neither face the pain of struggling for my life or the suffering of not living the life I ' d have had to struggle for .