No , these are thoughts that exist in my mind regardless of smoking , but i ' ve gotten really good at blocking them out . but they still haunt me cuz i think there ' s a level of reality to them . if i could see thru the illusion they would vanish . I rarely smoke weed because it can sometimes be so anxiety provoking . couple times a month is all , and small amounts . my mind is quite powerful and is sensitive to weed . the issue is that when high , all those thoughts which i have blocked out come vividly back and make me extremely concerned about my future , about who i am , about a day of reckoning , etc . <| sep |> rsuggestalaptop is a sub more tailored for questions like this . Also to properly answer a question like this a budget would be very helpful .