Maybe the TR victim complex isn ' t so crazy after all . <| sep |> You could fuck the best lay on earth and find it unpleasant if you ' re not into it completely . Like years ago a long long time ago in a galaxy far away lol the first time hubs and I kinda fucked . We were at my bio parents house . which was an awkward shit hole think like animal hoardercrack denesque I have no clue why I initiated . I ' m a realllllly awkward person . Any who it wasn ' t good . I knew I loved my not yet husband at the time very much . It was just not the right environment lol . We later like weeks or something had like the beeeest fucking sex EVERRR at his then apartment . Obviously your situation is different and plenty of people in your previous post were probably warning you lol but meh gotta start somewhere I suppose . Shit happens , just go forth and conquer . Be super awkwardly honest with people . It will get you somewhere . I mean my hubs and I wound up together . We ' re fucking weirddddd people hahaha