Bunch of cheerleaders laying on the ground like dead bodies in the background . <| sep |> I ' d fallen in love with a Scientologist at a time in my life where I felt pretty worthless . I got utterly absorbed in the fantastic tales and thought maybe I could get there some day . Unfortunately fortunately now I didn ' t get absorbed fast enough , and she eventually told me that she finally became fully clear , and because of that , she was no longer attracted to women , so she couldn ' t love me anymore . It was completely devastating at the time and I made some really poor choices after that , but I made it out with little to no long lasting harm . However , certain things , like really preachy videos that seem to avoid saying the solution they ' re going on and on about how great it is , like The Law of Attraction , trigger the same anxiety I felt while involved in Scientology because it was told to me the same way . So yeah , it ' s not that hard when you ' re lonely .