I don ' t drink because of this . I ' m allowed to have two beers . Anything more and all of my fears , regrets , and selfloathing thoughts comes pouring in and I can ' t stop it . I ' ve broke down crying in front of my friends and boyfriend . They were there to support me at least , when I was alone before I got dangerous . So now I just don ' t drink . <| sep |> Why before January ? <| sep |> I think any form of irrational hatred towards another group makes for unhappiness . They always see a entire group of people as a threat and they are constantly in fear and anger . This makes a lot of sense and I think it would explain the activities of a lot of identity activists . I can imagine this sort of irrational fears and hatred can cause massive amounts of endless stress that could develop into further mental illness . Though I ' m not quite sure that , as mentioned elsewhere , this isn ' t mixing up causality . It seems more likely to me that a propensity towards paranoia or similar defects will be likely to latch on to publicly acceptable views , like misogyny or misandry .