Ugh , it definitely IS that , which makes me believe maybe I should just come outta the damn closet already , you know ? That ' s what I was absolutely TERRIFIED of in high school people seeing me blush . I associated it with people thinkingknowing I ' m gay , just like you said . And eeeeee , on one hand I ' m a nervous ball of energy just waiting to , like , bounce right on outta there , and on the other I ' m just super scared . I ' m out to my parents I ' m really fortunate that they ' re so accepting of me and my cousin . That ' s about it ! Thank you so much for your response ! It even really helps just to vent . I ' m on the cusp of coming out publicly , but I guess coming out is never really done . I think it was a shock to my family when I came out to them no one ever really expected it except my dad who asked me outright because I was droning on about a girl at the time , haha . How do you think I ' d go about it within the group ? I ' m not really close to anyone in there yet , but I ' m really hoping to make friends soon . D