The hills arent very extreme for being extreme hills actually xD <| sep |> I lost my dad when I was 18 almost 8 years ago now . It still hits me like a brick that I ' ll never listen to one of his stupid dadjokes again and I ' ll never hear him laugh . I can ' t believe how long it ' s been . How have I survived this long when such an important part of my life is gone ! ? But that ' s the thing he is still a part of me and my life . When it happened I thought I would die too . But I ' m still here , and he is too in a way . And you will too . 8 years will have gone by and you will be okay . Because they will have wanted you to move on and be happy . Please don ' t bottle up because that will only make it harder . Just feel what you ' re feeling . Cry . Be sad . Be so , so sad . Be angry . It ' s okay and you will be okay . Consider therapy when you ' re ready . It is never going to get easier , and that ' s okay too because you wont want it to be . I am so , so sorry for your loss .