So many hugs ! My baby is just starting to break out of the 60 minute nursing every 6090 minutes pattern I think after 12 weeks , but I totally understand how demanding that schedule is . It ' s a never ending cycle of nursing . And I feel you on the obsessing , too . Even if you track diapers , you don ' t see the volume of milk going in . Even pumping for a bottle isn ' t an accurate representation since baby drains a breast differently . You might talk to a doctor about anxiety if it ' s really upsetting to you . I also nurse away from family at big gatherings . The older generations in my family tend to be pretty conservative so I don ' t want to make them uncomfortable . It stinks to hear everyone else having fun . I do nurse around my siblings and friends , though .