You sly wizard <| sep |> There ' s just no fucking effort . It ' s a fucking disgrace to play this poorly . <| sep |> A friend of mine who is more volatile than azioazide azide . He had a crush on this high school professor of ours , and 3 months ago I took her to a carnival to talk about the good old days . He seemed to hold it in pretty well . <| sep |> Oh , hug . Recently , esp from my activity here , I ' ve been practicing using the same kind voice I have for my friends , for myself . I would never say the BPD things I hear in my head to a friend . So then why would I talk to myself that way ? ! I ' d be so supportive and kind to a friend , I think it ' s really wonderful that you ' re taking such good care of yourself . I ' m really proud of you for recognizing what you need . It ' s really great that you ' re listening to your own voice . It ' s totally not a stretch for me to say this to a friend ! I ' m practicing saying these things to myself . And like any new skill , it takes time and practice . So be gentle while you ' re learning . But eventually it gets easier . I promise . Just try one little thing a day , whatever teeny one you choose . Don ' t be overwhelmed by the big ball of everything . Just one little thing a day . Eventually it will feel natural and you ' ll feel strengthened ! I really AM so proud of you for seeing a therapist . That ' s huge ! You ' re admitting your BPD ' s treatment of you wasn ' t ok , you ' re admitting you need help , you ' re doing it ! I know you can do it .