Hey , I feel you . So stuck . Empty . Restless . Today I had such a nasty stuck agression , forcefulness in me . It really sucks . I don ' t have solution , obviously . Today what worked best , and felt most honest is focusing on survival , in a psychological sense . Which in my case meant distracting myself as well as possible , playing computer games , listening to music , surfing the net . Distraction may not be a solution to anything in a deep sense , but it may be part of selfhonesty . The truth is , sometimes I am seemingly incapable of anything better . So I guess the best I can do is to acknowledge it mindfully and not beat myself up for it . <| sep |> Why do they keep letting people butcher the national anthem . <| sep |> Grey ' s Anatomy has had some bomb covers and I liked the theme song from the first season and some of the tegan and sara songs that have shown up .