thanks for the nice words . the challenge with therapy is definitely sticking with it and not crawling back into the hole . those old habits die hard . glad you ' re doing well with the depressive aspect of things . i can ' t imagine escaping it after all this time but it ' s not a desperate , miserable kind of depression for me , just . time and personality disappearing and a lack of any drive or ambition . simply existing . who knows what the future holds for any of us though . thanks for the encouragement . <| sep |> I do understand . Apparently you don ' t . <| sep |> Yes , there are plenty . Internet 2 , ESNet , CENIC , etc . They aren ' t federal government and therefore do not have the strict security limitations that gov ' t agencies have to endure .