Hmm good point . Spring loaded wrist sheathe ? <| sep |> I would say that that is where difficulty is a good thing . It is something you need to learn , not just something everyone can do right off the bat . There are other strategies but new players block until you can attack <| sep |> My inner voice tells me to give up on occasion , but my logical side knows I ' m not ready to yet . I ' ve adjusted my expectations from more than 2 less than 5 as our how many kids plan down to 1 would be great . and I ' m still emotionally working on that one . We have zero sperm and are using a donor . You mention wrapping up your masters and husband ' s work getting crazy soon . That ' s ok , take some time to do just what you ' re doing , research donor and what it means to go that route , talk to a counselor after Christmas , talk to each other . You ' re post has a tone to it that you still want kids and are ok with donor , so go for it when you ' re ready . I think all those angsty shitty feelings are normal and are in some way us trying to protect ourselves from us . But don ' t let them drive everything . Listen to your logical side too . Like I mentioned we ' re a donor sperm couple , so if you have any questions about anything sperm related don ' t hesitate to ask .