Don ' t get a tattoo . it ' s like trying to buy some years off someone . or pay money to get true love . Understand that we all grow at different rates . yours might be slower . It could also be the fact that you ' re maybe limiting yourself to some extent . maybe it is a psychological issue . maybe you fear expressing all of your emotions , and this traps you to only feel certain things and act like a younger person ? Meditate , there are thousands of studies about and how even in just 2 weeks your brain is changed forever ! Try it out yourself . Lastly , here Leo speaks about manliness and I think this is exactly what you needits a youtube videowatch ? vX 6 YMWUP 5 ik <| sep |> A bit confused by your first sentence haha . What I meant was now that I ' m done work I ' m going to enjoy some cheese ! Calligraphy is cool . I ' d love to learn it but not willing to put in the time .