I know , it ' s weird . I ' ve been ft for over a year and I ' m only really just now becoming comfortable relating to others as a woman . Like , being able to tell my old male friends that I miss them that would have been way too much emotional intimacy before and really feeling like a part of female only groups rather than an outsider . <| sep |> Oh yeah , I watch iPlayer too , obviously . I can ' t think of anything on ITV that I have any pressing desire to watch though . Can ' t be doing with panel shows , they all seem to have become somewhat contrived . <| sep |> Jesus . need a drink or an icy hot ? Your back must hurt from carrying lol <| sep |> Thanks for the encouragement , people on here aren ' t really the target market tbh .