I ' m so glad we got the better WVU transfer . Terry is amazing . That said , I hope Harris improves for you guys . MSU is good people . <| sep |> He wanted to figure out which women I liked and Jennifer Aniston isn ' t one of them <| sep |> Pretty sure all humans can eat meat except for those with celiac disease , or what have you . And in that case , that ' s not what I ' m talking about . <| sep |> Fuck prater man , does this guy ever miss ? <| sep |> Just some high grit sand paper . keep checking it in the hop unit so that you dont take too much off , stop once the lips clear the feed tube should only be a tiny amount <| sep |> Because I recently got out of a fouryear relationship with someone that I ' m still very much in love with . It ' s kind of a long story , but I suppose I don ' t mind sharing it with the internet . Writing it out will probably help me , anyway . I was a miserable human being . I went through a severe existential crisis that no one around me really understood . I had no job , no social life , and no desire to change my situation . It lasted for a little over a year . Through all of that , this girl stayed with me . She provided for me , encouraged me , and was generally a good influence . Sure , she had her issues she ' s a compulsive liar , a bit of a controlfreak , and an anxious mess of a human being . But , she has a heart of gold and the kind of warm personality that can melt a person the day that they meet her . When she broke up with me , I wasn ' t expecting it . We had been talking about getting married only weeks before . I had finally gotten a job , decided to quit smoking pot , and begun the process of making positive changes in my lifestyle . I ' d planned on buying a ring and proposing . I have a tendency to act in ways that ultimately lead to selfdestruction . I ' ve been told that I ' m charismatic and great at making connections with people . My skill at building bridges is met by my skill at burning them . I did not handle the breakup well . The last time I spoke to her was a little over a month ago . She told me that she doesn ' t think I ever loved her . She ' s essentially accused me of being a sociopath and a narcissist . I ' ve never felt lower or more worthless than I did when she told me that .