omg love this ! !! <| sep |> 20 by this March . <| sep |> interesting , I wasnt on the sub then . howd people know ? <| sep |> Who would of guessed the green in Green Party stood for that green ? <| sep |> Who am I ? What year am I ? How am I doing ? What mod do I have loaded ? <| sep |> Thank you so much , I know I don ' t pass well now but I think I just wanted some other people ' s opinions that when I start HRT that things will get better . I just want to be the best version of me that I can be . Thanks again ! <| sep |> I guess so , but I dislike even the idea of having fancy rank names for your players instead of just a ranking . Calling you gold or some shit even when you ' re actually garbage kind of has that same you ' re shit but i ' m not comfortable with telling you that because hey you give me money vibe to it . You don ' t have such things in sports Elo systems . You have a neutral number , no bullshit , no sad attempt at giving virtual treats to players that didn ' t earn them , when they are in fact asking for objectivity and ruthlessness . Because it goes without saying when you get into some competitive sport that you ' re not there to be treated like that retarded kid , that everyone is so convinced he ' ll never achieve anything that they decided that they might as well have him stay delusional by telling him nice things only . I think this way of managing a game is both intellectually dishonest and also extremely condescending towards the players . And I believe that Dota success is the proof that this isn ' t how you make people play your game . Valve doesn ' t try so hard to massage your dick and milk you at all cost in the way they design dota , they focus on giving you what you actually want . They acknowledge that their playerbase are here not only for wins and relaxing and having their ego satisfied , but also for challenge , frustration , sweat , struggle , maybe even tears , and they let you have it all . The whole process of what makes video games so frustrating yet so satisfyingaddictive .