much appreciated , my dude <| sep |> I have been ! I have a whole gross folder of mouth sores and this . I haven ' t been including the circumstances , though , I ' ll be sure to start . Thank you ! <| sep |> What ' s eating gilbert grape . <| sep |> You don ' t love me back ? 😢 <| sep |> But with the money you spent , you could have bought a rug for a temple . Priorities ! <| sep |> The worst part is the first few days , then it ' s smooth sailing . If you want to quit , quit ! Listen to yourself . <| sep |> Praise a game from two years ago and it ' s a shitpost , praise a game from twenty years ago and it ' s nostalgia . <| sep |> Just focus on your amazing , awesome , gorgeous DS and hope he has an absolute blast for his birthday <| sep |> I guess I can share the way I dealt with my stressful situation . My mom died from cancer when I was 12 years old . It had been a long struggle , and towards the end she wasn ' t even awake to say anything to us . My dad sent me and my siblings off to vacation in Canada , and literally on the same day that we left she died like 3 hours after our flight left . My dad didn ' t tell us about it the entire month we were there because he didn ' t want to ruin our vacation . When we got back , he sat us all down and told us the news . I remember the sound very clearly of practically everyone but me crying at once . I left the room and locked myself in mine , and just sat there telling myself that I can ' t cry because I need to be strong right now . this isn ' t a ' look at me i ' m so manly I don ' t cry about those things , just what happened . Trust me , when the funeral came , it hit me like a ton of bricks and I had never cried harder in my life . I pretty much gave up on school and being nice to people . I ' d go weeks without showering . I picked up smoking cigarettes the summer before 7 th grade , got addicted , ended up quitting them after my friend who introduced them to me moved away . I had a behavioral rap sheet that was 3 pages long in middle school . Pretty much everyone gave up on me , and I gave up on myself too . I didn ' t want to do jack shit with my life , I wasn ' t really suicidal but I didn ' t want to live past 30 . High school comes , it starts off as more of the same . Then I remember seeing a documentary about BUDs 234 . I felt that fire burning in my chest as I saw those dudes carrying the boats , being miserable , shooting guns , doing all sorts of shit . I wanted to be there the very next day . I started running , I started giving a shit about my grades and went from classes that were essentially for mentally retarded people to college and honors level classes in less than a year . I started visiting my mom at her grave again , and I started accepting what had happened . Now my life actually isn ' t very much better , but at least it isn ' t because of what I was doing to myself . I guess that wasn ' t an example of what you should do when you ' re very stressed out , just what happened .