Sweater kinda dominates but damn that is a nice looking sweater . <| sep |> I don ' t know . I ' m torn . we ' ve always tried to stay optimistic cycle after cycle , for 7 . 5 years . Unfortunately right after I ' d start a new cycle or have a negative test , I ' d get very down , woe is me , I hate this sht etc etc lots of self pitty and anger and after 23 days is make myself get over myself and keep trucking along . That ' s all you can do it keep moving forward . Unfortunately , for almost all of those cycles I was completely anovulatory , absolutely no chance to concorde that cycle because there were no follicles to fertilize , but it didn ' t make it any easier . I found that focusing aggressively on treatment and appointments and taking it one step at a time worked well to distract me and ever test or exam or ultrasound was a small win once I started to actually respond to treatment . You have to keep your head up and just keep going if this is what you want , as hard as it may be some days .