What ' s clickbait ? You know exactly what it is before you clicked it . <| sep |> Well , the paperwork is everywhere . It looks like the desecrated graveyard of a small medieval wood . Photos are also everywhere , but most of them are duplicates and I ' d mostly managed to corral the bulk of them into a few large boxes the first time around . There ' s a bunchton of old china and a big old piece of furniture crammed with crystal vases , and there ' s the boxes and boxes of perfume I wanna grab because someone said they can maybe be sold to make up some of our expenses in getting there and staying in a hotel . I ' d be okay with letting everything go up in smoke . But J , like D , had been believing for so long that all these things must be important and valuable because they were so important and valuable to his mom , it ' s gonna be really hard for him to write it all off as wasted . Thank you for saying that , really . Because it feels like we should have been able to do something for D . He wouldn ' t leave , he wouldn ' t let me throw away more of the trash and junk J ' s mom left behind , but how can you know how bad something is and then see it play out and not feel like you should have figured out something to make a difference ? Ugh . Anyhow .