Take your time , try to stay calm . maybe meditate . Deep breathe . And get your needs met ! ! They May be the experts generally but you are the expert in you , tell them if a medication doesn ' t feel right . don ' t be afraid , in a calm , rational way , to tell them if you are not happy with any aspect of treatment . We are all individual ' s with individual needs and any good doctor will know that . I just cannot believe that after everything you ' ve been through you have managed to get the strength to not only to see through it but speak out against the cult . I wish you love and strength . <| sep |> Oh and this was also in reply to a spammer who hasn ' t commented but wants to post on everything HR related and a couple of military subs . and I think spammers need to go .