Only smarks care about clean and dirty losses . <| sep |> I does not sound like depression at all . I sounds like boredom . I also have done alot of things in life , been in alot of places , now i have a simple programming job , a nice house , a samll farm . Im alone , and always been alone . Im in therapy for depression and social anxiety . My world view is pesimistic and dark , and the only thing i still wait for in life is death . I believe that people like us need a greater purpose , beeing part of something huge and important would give me at least the will to live . <| sep |> Seems as though everybody ' s already prepared to battle competitively . I still need to get a destiny knot and everstone . The only mons I have right now are a 4 iv ditto and a perfect vuplix from wonder trade , of all places .