Abby arrived at the party wearing a reddishbrown cloak over a white robe , dressed as the Greek goddess Hestia . Instead of going to the bar as per usual , she explored the party , looking at the scenery and searching for a familiar face . <| sep |> perspective change from going up the steps <| sep |> You are very lucky . I have many friends who want to move to Canada because it seems like such a nice place to live . More progressive , better job stability , and easier to get a work VISA . <| sep |> I was in an abusive relationship . He was extremely emotionally abusive and sexually abusive . It didn ' t work out . Leaving that relationship behind was the greatest moment of my life and I have never been more sure and proud of a decision . That may be how your ex boyfriend feels . I am not trying to be harsh and that is great that you acknowledge your bad behavior and are in therapy for it , but that doesn ' t mean your ex boyfriend can or should forgive you or trust you again . Abuse is a constant cycle . You have to be very committed to potentially a lifetime of therapy . My ex would acknowledge how fked up he was but it didn ' t change the fact that . he was still fked up and took it out on me . Again , not putting you down here , but I am actually proud of your ex boyfriend for getting out and I encourage you to leave him alone and just worry about working on yourself . Set him free and set yourself free by continuing therapy . Good luck .