Gift card receieved . OP , thank you so much . Also would like to thank ujustscottaustin for matching OP ' s donations . Happy Thanksgiving rAustin . <| sep |> He complained about his post getting downvoted while OPs was upvoted <| sep |> I understand how you feel recently had a relapse after getting an rx for adderall . Was 3 months porn free and was feeling confident in life . For me , stimulant comedowns leave me so empty that porn is the only escape from the mental anguish . I literally have no interest in my normal hobbies on the comedown . that goes for all uppers . I ' m also a poly substance addict so a day doesn ' t go by I don ' t use something . It ' s frustrating and id really like to be completely free of all addiction . Best of luck to you youre not alone in this . Inbox me if you ' d like someone to talk to about it .