In defense of his teammate as well <| sep |> I don ' t know if she ' d be allowed back , but Willam . And if not Willam , then Trixie and Courtney <| sep |> It ' s easier to push them away than be pushed yourself at a later date <| sep |> I did not feel it was right to put him in a position of choosing between me and his little sister . Whether he lived with you or his mom , he was always going to have a sister . You ' re noble sacrifice only robbed your son of living with a dad who cared about him . You ultimately accepted the judge ' s decision it was more important for your son to live in the same household as his half sister . Stop blaming the judge for your decision to give up on regaining primary custody . You left your son without a choice when he became old enough to weigh in , that is 100 % on you .