The game being fast and less stressful is also great . Every LoL game made me very tense in a bad way , and don ' t get me started on the flame . <| sep |> Sort of . Had a friend ' s dad die a couple of weeks ago I ' m 12 weeks in . He had been suffering from stage 4 terminal cancer for the past couple of years . Oh , and actually another guy in our church in his 4050 s had his wife die unexpectedly just this past week . Church is working on funeral arrangements . And my mom ' s cat died a week or two ago which , if you were to listen to her , is on the same level of impact as me losing my fiancee . And my older brother just announced he ' s getting divorced from his wife who he has 3 children with . So I know none of these are explicitly another relative , but the emotional responses from people are all over the place . My brother is being supportive of me but I can also tell he wants sympathy for his situation . My mom wants me to grieve just like I am my fiancee . My friend understands my situation is different and is relieved his father isn ' t in pain anymore . My church understands what I ' m going through and wants me to focus on that instead of being there for the other guy . For me ? I ' m just kind of numb . I empathize with the guy who lost his wife , but I can ' t be some sort of emotional rock for him . Same as for the rest of my family , I just can ' t be that person right now . Most people understand . I ' m just focused on myself . I have that right to be selfish right now .