I think it was the change of friends , for me . When I was younger , I was bullied a LOT . Always called ugly , always told I was weird for being outgoing , stupid for being gentle and kind to everyone , a tryhard because I made good grades . Over time , it gave me a sour attitude about everything . I met a group of girls who were nice to me . They did my makeup to make me look pretty they would all giggle and say ' it looks so good ! ' as they put on eyeliner so thick I got the nickname Raccoon . I thought these girls were my real friends , and they were popular , too . Isn ' t it just great when you get to hang out with the cool kids , completely blind to how evil they are ! These girls made me bully other kids , the typical bullyturnedintobully situation . And eventually everybody was afraid of me , except for these girls . They did horrible things that I easily forgave them for , and we continued to be this way until my Freshman year of HS . During that time , though , I was a total bitch to my family members , specifically my sister . I picked on her a lot , and made her feel horrible for many years , but after that Freshman year of HS , I finally saw the importance of family and friends , real friends . I left that group of girls , and apologized to every person I had ever said or done harsh things to . They forgave me and befriended me . I would cry every night because I knew I didn ' t deserve friends like them . I deserved loneliness , I didn ' t want them to forgive me , I wanted them to continue hating me . But they didn ' t , and neither did my sister . I formed friends I can now say that I trust , and I love them with all my heart . Just as I love my family members the same . I ' m a gamer , my sister is a TV show person . We almost never get to have discussions that aren ' t onesided , but we have them nonetheless . We compliment each other , hug each other , watch shows and play games together even id we don ' t want to . My brothers are very kind to me , too . And my parents tell me that I ' ve become the kindest , most lovable person they could ever meet . Sometimes we laugh and talk about how I used to be horrible . But we haven ' t had any arguments since I met those new friends . Friends who actually cared for me , friends that didn ' t use me for money , relationships , transportation , etc . Friends who treated me like a human being . Those friends are the reason why I cherish my family . They appreciate my levelheadedness . And I appreciate everything about them . We have different beliefs , different opinions and views on life , but we argument in ways of which there is no yelling or fighting involved . We just simply stay openminded and enjoy the conversations . I love each and every one of them to bits , and I am so glad I was able to change and become a person they could love to have in the family . Edit After rereading this , I could have given much more detail . It doesn ' t seem like much , and I apologize for it .