it ' s getting quite the rind on that one <| sep |> As a nonwhite person , there are too many to name . One guy , liked my hair and began to touch it , and I literally walked away . <| sep |> better than original <| sep |> Hey man , I ' m sorry that you ' re going through a really rough patch in life . We can always try to improve but we can ' t change the hand that is dealt to us . So please hold on and help other people in their struggles it ' ll help you take a lot of focus off yours . There ' s always someone much more misersble than you . As for me , I do NoFap because I want to be present . My mom will be gone someday , and I want to soak up my time with her , not focusing on fapping . I fap to get away from whatever stress insecurities are troubling me . I ' m emotionally numbif you want the brutal truth , I would most likely not even be moved if an extended family member died , even the ones I ' ve known since I was little . I hate that . I want to be present . I can ' t even feel your pain , but I want to be moved by what you ' re saying . I ' ve drained away too much effort emotion trying to get the perfect fap . It ' s never going to happen . So I ' m going to live my life without a stupid dependency . Yeah , life sucks a lot , but I ' d rather go through it , feeling every up and down , than being a zombie to everything that happens . I hope this helps even a smidget , my man . I hope your situation , whatever it is , improves . Don ' t be alone in your strugglereach out to someone who cares , or talk to a professional .