I didn ' t hear that comment as Sophie blackmailing Stone on Gettrick ' s behalf I heard it to be one of the only things Sophie said whilst pretending to be Alice , that was entirely for herself . To me , she was actually saying How can you forgive yourself , for having the chance to tell the world the truth about Gettrick , and to save us , but not take it . To elaborate . I believe Gettrick reached out to Reed in a time of crisis , i . e . when AliceSophie were in labour with Lucy . I think Reed helped , given his nature , but then it dawned on him why Gettrick hadn ' t taken this young girl to a hospital . I think Reed went to Stone with his suspicions and Stone either turned a blind eye , or alerted Gettrick to the potential whistleblowing ultimately leading to Gettrick throttling Reed to keep him quiet . I expect a flashback in Episode 8 of this exchange . The other actions being 1 . Leaving flowers at Reed ' s grave to pay homage to him , since his final actions were to save herAlice ' s life , and that of the child , Lucy ' s . 2 . Apologising to Hetz for framing him she had to comply with Gettrick ' s endeavour to get revenge on Nadia , for the sake of Lucy . The fact she apologises to Hetz through Matthew , to me , shows that she does not have Stockholm Syndrome , and in fact is well aware of the monster Gettrick is . I rather hope Sophie gets the killing blow on him , in the show climax .