Its shit cheap soil from the store . Ive had serious problems like this every time i try to run a grow . Yeld has been terrible . Bought good soil yesterday . Maybe i should just root this plant out and repot it in the new soil ? <| sep |> Feel free to pm <| sep |> That ' s a moving target like any other auction . You will never know for sure who will be on the next block . That ' s been the same for some years now . Nothing new . <| sep |> You gotta get your gamer gear on point . <| sep |> I like how you can see the emotion on his face when he plays his guitar . It ' s moving . <| sep |> hello sister . I know what you mean . I spent a few days going off on holiday by myself a couple of weeks ago , and managed to drive my emotions into the ground . afterwards I thought Ndad would be proud of me for ruining a holiday all on my own ! he did it without fail throughout my ' childhood '. I ' ve been reading a number of self help books , one of them stood out for our kind of problems Google for cptsd by a Pete Walker . basically , similar to a ptsd sufferer who flashes back to a visual emotional memory , we flash back into the emotional memory of complete isolationalienationabject fear of abandonment when the appropriate triggers are present holidays in this case . I ' ve found mindfulness meditation helpful to catch the triggers before I go into full blown flashback , and also ' self compassion ' in terms of accepting this isn ' t my fault , and talking to myself silently like I would to a loved friend who had a similar problem ' it ' s okay , it ' s just a flash back , you are safe now , they can ' t hurt you . you can do things you enjoy . you deserve to enjoy your life and you ' ve earned this break , etc .