I need to be sober at work , which heavily involves creating art . Well I don ' t need to be sober , but I wouldn ' t feel right giving someone a tattoo when I ' m either nodding or geeked . Ive found its all about the environment you create for yourself as your work space . I love drawing and painting when I ' m high , but I also love it sober because it ' s my time just for me . <| sep |> Well , I had a three month wait after the referral until I could get in to see the endocrinologist . During that time , I continued to see my therapist with the understanding that I could pull out if I wanted to . Having that option helped a bit , but when the time came for the appointment I was super excited and super nervous . My doubts and fears were the usual ones am I trans enough , will I pass , is the endo going to be judgemental , am I too fat , etc , etc . Ultimately none of those fears mattered , although passing plagued me until pretty damned recently , when my friends from before FINALLY convinced me that I actually do look like a girl . Just remember to breathe and try not to worry . You ' ll feel better once you start .