Alrighty . Thank you ! <| sep |> You could have come to my house dude . All you had to do is ask . <| sep |> Can I get a source on this ? I ' m not saying I don ' t believe you because this would explain so much . <| sep |> I told her we were out of condoms and I passed out drunk . I woke up with her on top of me . i developed quite a fear of intimacy , and for some time after the incident I did nothing but sabotage opportunities , including nights with some really amazing girls . I don ' t think about that night much anymore , but I struggle with the lost time . I had just started to become successful , and I was the best looking I ' d ever been . It should have been the peak time for me to explore . Now I ' m happily in a relationship , and will not have that opportunity again .