Been a lot of subpar green Malay going around . Is your batch browner in color than it is green ? <| sep |> Now that is classy . <| sep |> I thought it was too until I read your comment . <| sep |> You have no fucking clue . I don ' t self pity or loathe myself . I get the fuck on with it . My life is fine , but I ' m not going to achieve anything amazing in this condition . Low life ' s like you ensure I have to get on with my life or die . So I get on with it . But don ' t tell people they can achieve anything because it makes you feel better . And , you have no fucking idea what an anxiety disorder like PTSD is like . I didn ' t . I didn ' t even know what physical anxiety was . Not a clue . And I hope you never do . I hope you never pass out or go into a seizure from shock . I hope you don ' t go into cardiac arrest and have to be pumped full of sedatives just to be brought back to life . I hope you don ' t require cataract surgery at 25 , or have a body covered in stretch marks because your skin is as thin as a sixty year olds . I hope no one calls you a junky because , after all this , after someone pulled a knife on you on your own doorstep , you were put on a sedative drug and took it exactly as prescribed . I don ' t see what Syria has to do with anything . I ' m not invalidating their struggle . If anything , I ' m confirming it . We ' re so much more privileged in general , and giving them inspirational quotes about being in control of your own destiny would be the height of cruelty . But cruelty prevails . I once thought like you . And frankly , until something happens to you , so will you . You might even think that way afterwards , and that ' s when you see self loathing and violence .