I ' ve heard a lot about the Strafe a pretty popular keyboard . <| sep |> About dip samples ? Yes you can get them at most boatcargun shows too . They ' re like a mini size can or pouches advertising new flavors <| sep |> I was bullied pretty hard throughout school , and outside of school experienced sexual abuse throughout my childhood , eventually turning into rape as I approached teenage years . As a consequence of my past I ' m too uncomfortable with physical contact and physical proximity to even consider being in a relationship . On the bright side I ' ve never actually wanted to be in one , so I don ' t feel like I ' m missing out . My parents fought with one another constantly throughout my childhood , frequently telling me that I needed to decide which of them I wanted to live with ifwhen they divorced . They wound up remaining together only because neither of them wanted to be poor . Having seen what a bad relationship looks like , I would never want to be stuck in a situation like that . And given the divorce rate , a bad marriage is more likely than winding up in a happy long lasting one .