That actually both sounds like they ' d leave once the school year ended actually <| sep |> Idk why not <| sep |> Eyes up here , Michael ! <| sep |> Yes ! Dude , yes ! I couldn ' t agree with this more than I do . <| sep |> alot of grocery stores cool down prepared deli items that don ' t sell during the day and sell them as EBTapproved foods . <| sep |> I seem to can ' t stop the lurking . But I am on the same exact boat as you . I can ' t seem to stop comparing the new girl to me , and how I feel like I wasn ' t good enough . The only advice I can give is to surround yourself with friends , bug the crap out of them . I drink as well , and I convince myself it wasn ' t gonna work out anyway . The part that sucks is when you wake up feeling empty and it all resets and you have to comfort and convince yourself all over again why she left , why she didn ' t try harder . I hope it gets better for you and for me .