if you truly feel you need to get help on that level then go . if anything that will put you in the psych ward for observation in my city the psych ward is the last place you want to end up in but in the end they wont do much but give you medication to calm down but under supervision . which might not be a bad thing since you fear medication . maybe its the push you need to take medication on your own . medication is designed to help you , not harm you . i can see the fear in it but you yourself has to take a step back and outweigh the pro ' s and con ' s of not taking medication . in all honesty whats the worst that can happen ? if by some chance you have a severe reactionnot likely you can always go to the ER . have someone babysit you while you take the medication just in case . i know it can be the hardest thing to do but you have to do it for yourself