I ' d like to believe this . <| sep |> When I was on halodol I had blank mind and it was terrible . Since going off antipsychotics , I ' ve come to have clear mind the inner monologue was replaced by communications with external beingsthe spirit world . If you are really struggling , try a controlled spiritual journey with ayahuasca , mushrooms , or peyote . You might even be able to find a guideshaman to help you break through the barriers and arrive at a more healthy psychosocial spiritual experience of existence on Earth . When I lost my inner monologue , I felt like part of me had been taken away . Then I read about others in this forum who had their inner monologues hijacked ! These days , I think of the inner monologue as delusory a person is isolated in the believed privacy of their own head , when I have experienced that advanced beings cannot only perceive our thoughts and IM but also hijack , guide , or control them . While way may experience great comfort while experiencing an IM , talking to one ' s self in one ' s own head is not a good sign of mental health Maybe the gods will return your IM , but I would think it more beneficial and keeping it real ! of you to try to engage with them and their dreams for you with spiritually purposed psychedelics than return to Socrates ' Cave and talk to yourself in your own head like I once did . If your guides can take it away from you , maybe they can give you something even greater and help you escape the Veil of Maya we are wrapped in .