Kiss me by sixpence none the richerI remember hearing this as a little kid and thinking that was what I ' d be like , that is you Id become . I ' d have my first kiss under the stars , and run through wet night time grass , and giggle at our innocent fun . And then I grew up , and I saw that apparently that sort of life only existed in movie , or maybe only other people got it , but either way , I wasn ' t getting my fantasy . I got nameless stranger grinding his rough stubble against my chin under sweaty dance lights , and then saw how many more I could get that night . I wanted innocent rebellion and instead I got unsatisfying halfrebellion , a shit version of a cautionary tale , the consequences without any of the fun , the bruises without the adventure . So sometimes I put on that song , and I imagine my life as if I lived in that song , as if I were made to experience it , as if I had had the chance . And I rewrite history , one made up innocent childhood memory at a time .