You are probably right . <| sep |> Should have put it as a task , maybe someone would have already helped you out . Still in need ? <| sep |> It ' s kinda like why people stay in abusive relationships . It ' s not all bad . There is hope the person will change . Maybe some psychological need for love from a parent . Like if I just try a little harder , or give a little more , they will be proud . They will love me . Because parents are supposed to love their children and children are supposed to love their parents . Throw in massive amounts of manipulating and self esteem issues . Leaving is easier said than done . I cut out my father for two decades . We are working on forgiveness . We wish each other happy holidays . That ' s enough . Still really crave his approval though . It ' s totally fucked up .