First of all , we are here for you . Don ' t be hard on yourself ! This is big , hard , heavy stuff . I ' m also trying to escape and can completely understand what you are going through . Like others have said , try to reassure her she has done a good job and be a good daughter to her . She needs to see that leaving this cult has made you a better person , not a worse one . And keep postin ! The people on here are amazing . They are supportive , caring , and give the most incredible advice . And they are right . Listen to them ! Also , congrats on grad school <| sep |> It ' s been an inspiring journey following the Tigers . I remember when Monte said HUYA Tigers probably wouldn ' t be able to compete against top teams since they were a bunch of former Najin playersrejects . However , they have been performing ever since they joined LCS and the addition of Peanut made them one of the best teams in the world . I really like their personalities and while it ' s sad they ' re splitting up it sure has been a pleasure watching this growth . Hopefully they all Smeb ? find new orgs they enjoy . LCK Spring will be incredible !