I had a really bad coffee addiction for a while for the same reason . I would literally walk from coffee shop to coffee shop . Started drinking black coffee and getting a lot of decaf which helped . I have two hours until I have to show up for thanksgiving and I ' m just kicking it in my car for two hours . Kinda nice . <| sep |> Well I texted him today to see if he was free to go out again next week since he is going to be busy the rest of the holiday and weekend . I never dated before til two years ago so sometimes I wonder if it ' s okay to be myself or not . <| sep |> It is extremely likely this happens on a regular basis . spez just was so use to it he thought it would be no big deal , like it is in the office . They ' ve been hanging out with the CTR Co people too much . Actually , before they gave up all semblance of aloof professionalism , the admins have used their darling SRS thugs to do their dirty work for years and oh god , they still do . Lately they don ' t care , banning and quarantining subs they find unprofitable for vague rules that their powermod puppet cabal break daily . They ' ll stick their hands directly in the shit themselves now . Except , this time , as spez said in their secret chat there ' s no scapegoat like Ellen Pau to blame it on this time .