so what we did is justified . You didn ' t do anything . Stop trying to inherit the guilt of your ancestors you selfloathing pussy . <| sep |> Been an educator for like 10 years and have had more than a few students in your situation . First , you need to talk to your parents and admit that you have a problem . Have them control the parts of your life that you can ' t . If they crap out on you , contact someone they respect and get them to mediate grandparents are normally good . If something is ruining your life , get help removing it . Second , get a job . Ask your parents , friends , old teachers and anyone . It doesn ' t matter what kind of job . You need a job to get a job . Use a crappy job to get a better job in a few months . Last , and most important , get people in your life that will keep you accountable . Right now you ' ve screwed up like we ' ve all screwed up . Your family is , rightly , upset that you have screwed up your life . It sounds like they will be the ones that will best call out your crap when you flag . Use that . To get that , expect a lot of apologies and having to listen to a ton of advice .