Om on stormrage . a pve server with a 201 ah . I forget horde players even exist . <| sep |> See I didn ' t tell people because of the bad reactions I got . I was very emotional about it . A had a few people not understand and blame me because everyone wanted to know why it happened . So I kept it to myself . I don ' t know why it happened . The only really supportive thing he said was that it wasn ' t my fault . I wasn ' t sure if he understood that . He didn ' t however understand that it caused me a lot of emotional pain . It ' s not something that is easy to understand until you go through it , so i get it why people don ' t understand . But it still hurts . In my family , you swallow your pain . You pretend it isn ' t there . You don ' t use it as an excuse or try to emotionally coddle yourself . You pretend you ' re a robot and you hide your pain . They don ' t really get taking time to heal . They call that sulking and feeling sorry for yourself . I ' ve learned that this is really big flaw in myself and I need to learn to feel my emotions and not just think them .