Keep switching between CC and paypal , other have reported this working ! <| sep |> I don ' t know but that ' s how I ' m feeling at the moment . It ' s not the depression I ' ve felt before . I can say that I have not repeated a word in my mind for hours . You should make some efforts to curb that . A good challenge for you might be mindfulness meditation . Here ' s how I do it . Rules a quiet space . There should be a zero percent chance that you will be interrupted by anybody or anything . the will and desire to actually give this a go . Without committing to it it ' s useless . Just like going after any goal . that ' s it I can ' t think of anymore . 1 Sit straight . Head straight . Hands up on your lap or knees or pillows beside you . 2 Tongue touching the top of your mouth . Just resting there behind your teeth . Breath . 3 Focus on the air moving in through your nose . Literally . Every sense you can gather from that action should be payed attention . 4 Are you still doing steps 1 and 2 ? 5 Breath out as in step 3 . Repeat . The principles here that I use is changing your focus from whatever is going on in your mind to what is going on with your breath . It ' s supposed to take a lot of concentration and effort . As you progress and feel that you can follow your breath consistently to the point where it doesn ' t feel very difficult then turn your attention to the thoughts that are no doubt obliterating your inner mind . This is the second part of it , where you aim to become observant of your thoughts . There is a lot of online resources that talk about this part , and it ' s the traditional kind of ' mindfulness ' AFAIK . 1 Same posture , same breath , same focus . This time try to quiet the voice in your head . You can ' t fight it . But you can learn it and push it away over time . 2 Eventually you will have no thoughts or words in your head . I think you should try that for a month . You will get better at it if you are focused and attentive to the practice . You will not improve if you think can do it without taking it seriously and exercising patience .