Truly a God among old men <| sep |> It was clear this could happen since 2010 . I ' m actually surprised Obama won reelection . <| sep |> Go back to the mainland , haole . Just kidding . small kine . <| sep |> Thank you . I love that you phrased it that way I need to at least try to survive because that is what it truly feels like , trying to survive . At this point it feels like I have two options get help or kill myself . I don ' t have insurance , but I did some further research and found that many kind therapists in my area have a reduced fee for patients that cannot afford their services . I am glad to hear that treatment has been helping you and I ' m hoping they will help me too . <| sep |> I struggled with that too . You can ' t go wrong with I think .