useraston 0037 This Submission has been removed for the following reasonImages that are already photoshopped are not preferred as the basis for a photoshop battle . Also , one of the rules here is that submission titles need to objectively describe what ' s visible in the photograph . For more information , please refer to the submission rules page . <| sep |> Broke up about 2 days ago 1 No , I was holding out hope that he wouldn ' t delete me on facebook after complying and taking down our relationship status . When he logged on this morning I left the house . When I checked he had deleted me . I broke down and messaged him asking him to please not delete me . Later on I sent him a picture of the christmas tree I put up that I had planned to send to his mom . He knew how close we were and how we were both excited about decorating their tree together . I left it up to him to share it with her . 2 I showered and put on a yellow dress today , hoping the bright color will brighten my face up rather then show how shitty I feel . I skipped out on makeup since I have been crying on and off today . 3 I stepped out the house to go feed my bosses cat . He lives near my ex and I atleast resisted the urge to drive by . Small victory . 4 I haven ' t exercised today but I did help out in the kitchen a bit . 5 I haven ' t treated myself . I know I shouldn ' t be so hard on myself but I feel like shit . There is so many delicious food being made and a lot of my favorites but I haven ' t been able to eat . I have no apetite and I can ' t keep anything down . 6 First goal I am working on is to spend more time with my family . My ex started me on fishing and I love it , my dad hasnt fished in ages and when he saw I bought a rod I had it over at my exs he said that he should get one again and go out with me . I am happy my family is being supportive . Second goal is to work on some short term school related goals I had set for myself and finish the semester strong . I am not sure what a third goal to set is I have a new hobby 7 This actually is pretty difficult to think about at the moment . I am just in a self hating loop . I think of something good and then a negative to go with it . I like that a year ago I was not willing to try new things and now I am less fearful of going a different path . that is about all I can muster at the moment .