Sie wussten genau warum sie nur 40000 aufgenommen haben . Weil zu der Zeit Antisemitismus genauso wie , unethische Menschenversuche und andere NaziHobbies dort auch ziemlich angesagt war ? <| sep |> No , i just dislike idiots like you <| sep |> What is the source of that video ? <| sep |> Don ' t know , never opened it . Didn ' t want it all to myself and no one else was in the mood . <| sep |> Works just fine for me , but I had it since initial release <| sep |> Hi First and foremost , you being on this sub means you are very far from alone you have our support ! I think a lot of us can say we ' ve felt or experienced similar things . I ' ve ended up letting relationships die because of my depression anxiety , and thinking I have nothing positive to contribute to someone ' s life . I ' ve also learned that one very good friend can mean more than ten people who have no desire to understand me . For years I ' ve forced myself to be polite pleasant around new people to avoid confrontations or negative feelings , without success . It felt wrong to me being unable to truly express myself , and I could feel the people around me felt uncomfortable sensed I was being ingenuine . It ' s going to hurt , but you need to realize that there are a lot of people who cannot understand where you ' re coming from or who you really are , but please also understand that you don ' t need to feel guilty for not connecting with them . I guarantee you there are people in this world who will look at the way you think and see life and be so absolutely grateful to have you in theirs . I have met some extraordinary people who were able to clearly see the love I had to offer , despite my sometimes confusing moods . Also , in this day and age , where we ' re so inundated by social media , it ' s easy to compare ourselves to others , and to get down about a lack of progress , etc . Think of it this way though most people only post their best moments , the things they want you to see . It ' s like a highlights reel in sports you see all the coolest , most exciting things in a 30 second clip , from a game that took an hour to complete , with many slow or fumbling moments inbetween . Facebook , etc aren ' t accurate representations of our real lives . it ' s all best of the best , with the dull , sad or unsuccessful parts cut out . Also , regarding the suicidal thoughts if you ' re able to , please please please set up an appointment with your family doctor ASAP , and explain that you have mental health concerns , meaning you ' ll need more time to discuss things . If this isn ' t a possibility for some reason , Please check yourself into your local hospital let them know the situation . I promise you that there are SO many good people in this world who want or live to help . You have a beautiful mind , please stay with us share it