Yes , she was . As I felt abused , I was willing to stop seeing her . In fact , I didn ' t see her in school for three day , days that I used for telling some of my friends . But as I noticed that no one of my friends would care about it , nor my family noticed that I entered the house with a white skirt stained with blood , I felt alone . I couldn ' t stop seeing her , but we didn ' t had sex after that . Like 4 months after that , I guess I can say we tried to have sex . She was hitting me softly with a belt she took off from my pants , but I couldn ' t do anything because I was stunned , and right after she tried to unzip my pants I started crying out of nowhere . That was the point I realized that things would not be fine even if I tried to forget . We stopped seeing us after that .