Rest In Peace Ma ' am <| sep |> I think many of us can relate to what you are feeling . From what you wrote , and speaking from experience , it seems as though life lacks purpose . That feeling of alienation may stem from that feeling of no purpose which would definitely make it difficult for anyone to be social and create relationships . However , this could be your mind telling you to focus on yourself . Socializing with others is not a requirement for living and you can only become your best self by knowing yourself . Focus on finding what you like to do art , writing , reading , running , music . anything and everything . Once you are able to find something you truly enjoy everything else kind of falls into place . We all need to find our path in life , and it is never easy . But stay strong and focus on you . In doing that , something is bound to happen . Self discovery is something that not enough people focus on , but it is a very important part of life . I wish you the best and hope that this message may help . I have always had issues with connecting with people , including my family , but things get better . I promise . And please feel free to PM if you want to chat , rant , or want someone to practice socializing with . Much love ! 3