After visiting a concentration camp , I discovered a dilemma For God so hated the Jews and other ' undesirables ', that he gave his only begotten son , so that anyone who does not believe in him would be tortured on earth and then tortured in hell forever . God was complicit with the Nazis in fact finishing their work , destroying souls where they could only take lives . For a while it seemed satisfactory to conclude that hell did not exist and adopt a more liberal theology . This lead to questioning what was believable in general and why . Why should one believe a specific proposition or not ? Naturally God fell apart here and I came to terms with the reality that God is a construct in people ' s minds . Casually speaking , I am certain God does not exist . Philosophically speaking , you must define what you mean by God , spirit , or any other related terms that are part of your definition or description of god . ETA Was a Christian as Christian can be . Read Bible cover to cover multiple times . Went to a Pentecostal church . Supported all the Christian political positions . Led multiple Bible studies , prayer groups . Got deeply involved in church leadership . I ' m a much better person now that I got ' saved ' from Christianity .