Yeah , I told my guild that I am cursed , but everything seems good so far fingers crossed <| sep |> PC MASTER RACE <| sep |> Also our economy is poor and everything is more expensive here . Probably less money for disposable fun stuff <| sep |> how do you do that ? tell me please '<| sep |> I do not care about anything in this post for one reason . FUCKING COMIC SANS ? REALLY ! ?!?!?!<| sep |> Oh my , that was both hilarious and slightly horrifying to think about . What about students who hadn ' t learned the vanishing spell yet ? Maybe that was a detention task for older students , going round the castle cleaning up . <| sep |> I sympathize with your outlook it got me where I was 9 weeks ago . I get it , I really do . Being obese is so easy . You get to eat what you want . You don ' t have to do any kind of exercise . You ' re free to do what you want whenever you like . Even though your conscious mind knows the truth that you are LITERALLY killing yourself slowly , the back part of your brain is refusing to acknowledge that , and get on board . The pain and struggle of being obese is a distant thought compared to the ease of giving into your lower self . You want to care more about food than health . That ' s a recognizable and easily explained food is linked directly to the short term happy button in your brain . Your brain wants to keep that button on as much as possible . When you come along and try to take that away , your brain goes NO ! and does all kind of stuff to fight back . You don ' t want to change , and part of you fears it Also very understandable . Humans are hard wired to hate and fear change . You know the truth to stop being obese , to regain your health , you HAVE to change , in a permanent and long lasting way . That ' s TERRIFYING to you ! You are comfortable , your happy button can be on all the time . You don ' t have to make effort . You need to move past these two blocks before you can move forward . There ' s a lot going on in your brain that you ' re going to have to sort through . Don ' t neglect the lessons we have to learn to be successful at weight loss . Step 1 Let go of the idea of an emotional state of Motivation . You may never feel motivated . Motivation is simply this reasons to change . It doesn ' t make it easier . It just makes it more worth while . There is no magical state of being , where weight loss suddenly becomes a whale of a time . You have a journey to go on , and it ' s okay to take a while to come to terms with that . Step 2 Reassess your REAL motivation the REASONS you want to change . The media has taken a long time to stuff reasons to lose weight in your head . Your doctor may have a list as long as their arm of reasons . If those were real REASONS then you would already be done . So , it ' s time to make some lists . List 1 This is a list of everything you love about your current lifestyle . A whole pizza on a Tuesday night . The freedom from thinking about calories . Your favourite spot to sit and browse the internet . Netflix and six pints of icecream . List your fears , too the things you don ' t want to lose , and your worries about losing weight . List 2 This is a list of everything you HATE about being obese . Leg pain . Back ache . Not being able to breathe . The way you look , feel . Difficulty wiping your ass , not being able to buy clothes , social anxiety , the look a guy gave you across the street . Real things . Things that have happened to you , are happening right now . Things that you experienced for example , my weight half ruined a day at the fair because absolutely everything hurt . List 3 Everything you stand to gain by changing your lifestyle FOREVER . Pin this list somewhere visible , and add to it every time you think of something . Everything you want to do in your new life climb a tree , buy some clothes , visit a national park and take in the sights . Look , perhaps you think you know the truth already . But writing stuff down has a way of solidifying our thoughts . It ' s important to get into words all the things you need to express to yourself about your weight and the way it affects your life . Please try it for me ! Step 3 It ' s time to start working out what your new , healthier lifestyle is going to look like . It ' s time to start changing , and prioritizing health over food . Take a look at your three lists . What can you lose of list one to make list three a reality ? What are you willing to reduce , to moderate ? Can you cut that tuesday night pizza down from a large to a small ? Two slices , some wedges , and a salad ? A lot of your stuff on list one will need changing , but it ' s okay to take it steady . Don ' t make yourself miserable ! This is going to be your life , and you can explore . Forget about losing weight , this is about looking after yourself , in a way your body deserves . Step 4 Make the rules . These are the key facets of your new lifestyle . This is a life you are going to live for at least a year . maybe more ! Your rules may change over time , as you gain momentum . Right now , they might look like Start Making Better Health Choices , Learn to prioritize Health over Food , Stop eating so much cheese ! I really recommend you make it a rule to always log and track your calories , no matter what you are eating . You don ' t have to always aim for a deficit you may even go over maintenance . Just get into a habit of logging your food . Step 5 The time has come to live the rules you have set . So get to it . A really big factor here , is not making yourself miserable ! You need to learn yourself . Learn what sacrifices you ' re willing to make . Learn what temptations you need to avoid . Learn how to preserve the parts of your old life you want to keep , in a way that doesn ' t impact on you so negatively . Example I used to love a good binge on sunday nights . I still can ' t leave the house on Sundays , or I WILL go right to the convenience store , buy a family bag of Doritos and a pint of ben and jerries , and eat the lot . These days , I get myself a stack of mango and a small pack of crisps , maybe a chocolate bar if I ' ve saved enough calories , and have a moderate Sunday Night , maybe once a month or so . I still eat pizza two slices , salad and wedges , Heck , the other day I had greasy take away kebab With salad , on a plate , with a wine glass full of diet coke . Sue Me . The point is This is your LIFE ! find a way to enjoy it ! Try these things . They might not work this time there ' s always a tipping point where you realise that change is a thing you want to happen . I felt exactly the same as you I knew change had to happen , but I didn ' t want it . Then the things I kept missing out on by being so fat started to come clear to me . It wasn ' t an indistinct melancholy anymore , it was the knowledge that every day I was living could be improved in real , concrete ways by not being so damn big . You will reach that point . I hope that it ' s sooner , rather than later , so that you get a few more years living a happier life !