True but they haven ' t been able to all year and he still goes for it . <| sep |> Man it ' s just like that guy who considered himself an analrapist and had his drivers plate say anus tart <| sep |> Alright , thanks for the help man ! <| sep |> Not this one . A few coworkers got 84 in Epiq ' s with hutches and lockers . Those things are huge ! <| sep |> I hear you and understand you . I ' ve been in the same boat recently , and still am . I ' m working through it , I think . I hope you do go get help . It ' s been working for me . I still don ' t see the light at the end of the tunnel . Some days I still want to die . BUT , there are more bright days and fewer darkasdeath days . Meds help with that . I ' ve tried using my fear to spur change in myself . Sometimes it works . You have to want to change , and reflect on it to figure out how you can change . I have to believe that it will get better eventually . I don ' t know how old you are , but you still have the rest of your life ahead of you . There ' s always time to change or get better . There will be someone out there who willcurrently does love you . Sometimes little bits of love and kindness have to be enough , though we feel we need more . If you ever feel like you need to talk to someone though , the people at ULifeline are pretty great , as are the people from the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline . I ' ve talked to them before , and they genuinely care and are there to listen and help as much as they can . It sounds stupid . I thought it was , until a friend with whom a similar situation occurred as to what you described in your post , as far as I know called them and asked that they call me . They helped because they were there to listen and care when no one else was . There ' s no risk . They don ' t know you and won ' t talk to people you know or employers , etc . They ' re only there to help . I just want you to know that . National Suicide Prevention Lifeline and ULifeline tel TALK a word