That ' s a tough one . Your best bet if you can ' t get your hands on one is to ask somebody selling one if you can get detailed pictures of the guts <| sep |> I don ' t agree with that call tbh <| sep |> I agree with the statement that votes matter significantly more in smaller states at the moment . What I have a problem with is that I don ' t understand why a voter in LA should have less of an impact on the election then you . Do you consider yourself superior to them ? Do you trust yourself to make a better choice then them ? <| sep |> This year it seems like there is no NFCN team that wants to win the title . <| sep |> Cam Newton wouldn ' t get the call . <| sep |> I really don ' t know . I alternate between that baseline of hollowness and depression , and complete overwhelming torment that makes breathing and sleeping and doing anything besides laying curled up in bed desperately hoping for dreams of better times impossible . I ' m doing my best to hold on , though , and I do consider her to be my primary reason for living still , yes . Even if she were dead , I ' d still probably get a good deal of mileage out of my lifespan before potentially succumbing to depression by trying to live in her memory . She wrote this poem from my perspective back when her suicidal ideation began to greatly intensify , if you ' re interested in reading . I ' ve made that stew your favourite let ' s shareIt like we used to do . As yours goes coldI gavage every mouthful and prepareTo heave , and puke the contents of the bowl . And if I may reflect while I projectThe Porter ' s words to you , I ' ll ask him whenMy own appointment ' s due . I ' ll resurrectYour memory beside the river ' s bend . But as a ghost , you ' re here with me I keepYour sentiments on life support and tellYou just how loved you were this while I ' m steepedAmong the dread and nothingness of hell . And though each day I struggle to remain , I ' d rather live than lose you once again .