Damn . I ' d love to help but I ' m on vacation right now . Good luck with the search ! <| sep |> If they don ' t want , I will gladly eat their share of the lasagna <| sep |> A slightly depressing thought but here goes . Life is not fair and it doesn ' t owe you happiness . There is too much emphasis placed on being or appearing to be happy . For the most part life ' s filled with failure and disappointment and there ' s no glamour or glory in that . Take pride in your failures . It means you are trying unless you failed because of inaction . Persevere to achieve something and if you fall short try to get something out of it . Eventually on a rare days you ' ll get some wins some small , some big . Those are the moments worth living for .