Look like craab , dress like people ! !<| sep |> Yeah , I heard about that , but I didn ' t realize how widespread it is . I ' m hella stoked on the game , but I can ' t read anything cuz there ' s spoilers feckin everywhere . <| sep |> It happened when I was 5 years old . I had a female babysitter that I and my folks trusted dearly , she ' d play games with me , watch movies , go shopping go to the park etc . One day when my folks were away for hours going to another town she called my name from my parent ' s room . I was watching cartoons in the livingroom . She told me to . lick her , that it tasted like honey . I remember even at 5 I knew something was wrong so I hesitated , so she threatened that I ' d be reported to my folks as being a bad kid . At that age all most kids want is parents to be happy , for me that was massive so it hurt . I did it , I remember everything up til it starts then just black . My mind blocked a huge chunk of time out , up til she went home . I was sobbing and begged my mom to never let her babysit again , she never did . That sent off a chain of events that lead to severe anxiety disorder and depression developing at age 7 . I had my trust in the world obliterated first by her sexually harming me then by multiple deaths in family and by friends , my mom being horribly abusive my dad being at work 6 days a week for construction . That one part describing it , that still takes so much to write or say . I find vaginas repulsive now , though I ' d had a gf at 15 and we did things and I was fine so that might just be sexual preference . Regardless my anxiety is based on not trusting the world in general . My fiance knows all of this and we ' re doing very well thank the stars .