Keep up with therapy and move on . Worst case scenario is he cheated on you , I ' m seeing some red flags for general lack of or waning interest on his part . Second and more importantly , you hit him . That ' s not okay . It ' s not alright to hit people you love , and it doesn ' t sound like you even feel bad about it . I understand that this is probably due to socialized American norms , where girls hitting guys is okay and cute or like a kitten hitting a doberman , but the reality is that it ' s not even remotely okay , because we ' re all people , and physical violence hurts us , even if we ' re large strong men and you ' re a slip of a thing with a very weak right hook , the fact that you felt like physically striking him in that moment , the emotional side of that act , is not easily dismissed . Some guys manage to shrug such stuff off within the context of our societal norms , but they hurt in other ways because of it .