Are you suggesting life can be produced from nothing ? The evidence suggests that life probably arose from a gradual progression of simpler structures to more complex , not a sudden appearance of life from nothing . But I can ' t say if it ' s possible for something to come from nothing or not . Another reason , without eternal life , our existence has no meaning . This is an appeal to consequences fallacy . Whether the consequence of something being true would result in you deciding that your life has no meaning is irrelevant to the truth of what you are considering . I ' ve never heard this claim , that the Matthew and John that wrote about Jesus are not the Matthew and John that were with Jesus . Why do you believe this ? I ' ve looked into the evidence quite a bit online and on places like racademicbiblical . I would suggest posting any questions you have there because you will get different answers from many users who are actually professional biblical scholars . I do not claim to be an expert so I would not proclaim the scholarly consensus to be wrong , and in fact my evaluation of the evidence has convinced me that the consensus is probably right . You disagree with the consensus which is why I questioned your reasons . For a neutral overview I would suggest looking at Wikipedia and going from thereAnd Paul , who condemned saints to death for Christ ' s teachings , suddenly becomes His greatest proponent ? There are dramatic conversion stories for various mutually contradictory religions . So this is not good evidence for any particular religion . And the rapid growth of the early church among people who rejected resurrection and lived by the old covenant is proof of the powerful message of Christ . It proves that something about the religion was popular , which may have been the message of Christ . But the number of people who believe something is not good evidence that the belief is true .