I had to be the evil bitch ending a long term relationship when I knew deep down for a year that I wasn ' t happy anymore . I spent a year hating myself and trying to change how I felt , a year trying to love someone , a year trying to make things okay . But in the end my mental health was suffering so badly I had to end it . And every day I still cry because of all the pain and suffering I ' ve caused . Because they are alone and its all my fault . The person I loved more than anything else destroyed all because of me and my stupid feelings . Because I couldnt force myself to love them anymore . <| sep |> It ' s possible to use in moderation , just like heroin But alcohol , by fact alone , is generally terrible <| sep |> What can I say , we like our Skytrain .