Eyes on side of head . If I saw them as an inconvenience , I could just grow my hair back out , and put patches over them to keep hair out of my eyes . <| sep |> Yep , I share a 4 bed , 2 bath , 2 kitchen house with four other guys for just under 1200 a month including utilities , internet , etc . <| sep |> Illinois Nazis . I hate Illinois Nazi ' s <| sep |> I mean this is the best way possible , but if you are considering selfharm and believe that everything around you is fake , perhaps seeking medical help is the best option . I understand many of the things you describe , and can relate with many of them . However , I think maybe you just broke the camel ' s neck . is that how the saying goes ? Seeking medical help doesn ' t mean they throw you into an asylum it guarantees you the ability to become yourself again . Mental hospitals aren ' t what most people make them seem , and I highly doubt you would be recommended for them . I really hope you do not harm yourself in any way , as it is purely illogical . You have a lot you can do with your life , and it is silly to squander such opportunities . At this moment in your life , it may feel hopeless , but new situations arise , and you may find yourself laughing at the way you are feeling now five years down the road . If you want help with suicidal thoughts , please consider callingtelJust remember this whole community is here for you . Stay strong .