My biggest issue is the stupid rng , I had pretty average rng to get 3 SJewels , and now I ' ve failed 15 Afusions in a row . For the past week I ' ve pretty much wasted my time grinding for absolutely no result . <| sep |> The start of ? Wake up . That ' s the way 90 % of Irish publications have always worked . <| sep |> Haven ' t seen any proof that any of the protesters have been brutalized . <| sep |> I reallllllly enjoy Dan Carlin ' s Hardcore History . He does a good job at personalizing the greatest historical events in amazing detail . The way he tells stories you don ' t realize that you just stayed interested to listen to 4 hours about the Persian empire . But he covers all parts of history . <| sep |> hugs . You ' re going through a massive amount of emotional and psychological turmoil , are you seeing a counsellor ? Please see one . You deserve to be happy and well . hugs . Be kind to yourself and just do the best you can on any given day . You will always be loved , just remember to take care of yourself too .