Jesus . Man the future is looking scary , <| sep |> I ' m currently living with it . I made $ 10 , 500 about a month ago . I ' ve decided not to get a place of my own as I travel the country for work I ' m in 3 cities a week and dont mind staying in hostels in between work , $ 30 a night . I decided to take a break from work , missing out on 3 contracts worth $ 5000 $ 7000 on average , and partying my ass off every night in the new city I was visiting cocaine , hookers , online shopping , restaurants , clubs . I have a hard time dealing with my loneliness , so I turn to this lifestyle . I happened to meet a girl in this city , and I think maybe because I don ' t get a lot of attention from women , and now had a girl who would do anything for me sexually and enjoyed me as a person , I spent money on her almost every night . Not in gifts , but just in hotels for us to fuck in , and sometimes , cocaine , usually for myself . Things didn ' t work out I got mad at her one night and ended our relationship ? . It was the right decision but I should ' ve been nicer , I was drunk at the time . Before I knew it I had less than $ 1000 left , started traveling again for money , but 2 contracts slipped through my hands so far . Now all of my money is gone . I ' m currently sleeping on the streets of some city in the Midwest in cleanish hiding spots I ' ve found downtown . I ' m homeless . I type this out with cold fingers and a gym bag full of 2 blankets and a pillow , another bigger bag full of clothes shoes I ' ve bought recently , and 2 loaves of bread with 2 salami pouches . I ' m stuck out here til the 28 th , where I travel to another city and stay homeless there until the 6 th of December . Before January maybe only one week before I ' ll be back to my normal self , sleeping inside a building with a bed lol . Only one of my best friends know about my current situation . But things could be so much worse , so I ' m thankful as fuck for the opportunity that lay ahead of me , and for my youth . Happy Thanksgiving