I just convinced the wife to let me get this ! !! I am pumped . <| sep |> I ' m in a similar situation . My uBPD boyfriend hasn ' t held a job in over a year and I ' ve been left to cover the expenses , putting myself in debt . I feel like I have to watch everything I do or say out of fear of triggering him and being verbally abused . I ' ve wanted to end the relationship for a year but I get too caught up in feelings of guilt to actually follow through . I wouldn ' t want to put him in a situation where he couldn ' t afford to survive , but at the same time I know it ' s not my responsibility . It ' s all a matter of putting yourself first . <| sep |> I work 7 am 4 pm , but I ' m usually in by 630 M , T , Th , F , and start at 5 am on Wednesday rest day . I ' m up at 4 am everyday , in the gym at 5 am . I hit the weights hard for 45 minutes . My husband and I meal prep on the weekends . I eat the same thing for breakfast protein pancake with PB 2 on top , lunch ground turkey , broccoli , and mashed cauliflower , and dinner omlettes for the week , so it makes prepping easier . I also make and sell decorated sugar cookies , so I give myself an hour to make and eat dinner , then I have 2 12 hours in the kitchen to work on cookies . Then a half hour for kitchen clean up , pack food and clothes for the next day , and get ready for bed . In bed by 830 pm . I ' m an early bird , so this schedule works for me .