I failed a math course the first time around too . Retook it and got a lot higher see if you can do the same . <| sep |> I ' m one of those people who the song hit close to home for , I still can ' t listen to it without getting choked up andor full blown crying depending on the timing <| sep |> Yeh , I totally agree with that the game is pretty much gg in the fact it ' s incredibly hard to turn it around . The argument I was making was just that Dota is a game where you are more likely to turn it around than Overwatch , even if it is something stupid like 2 % vs 1 %<| sep |> Okay . Now what do I do ? <| sep |> He got kicked out for being crony . <| sep |> I don ' t believe you could be born attracted to people under the age of 18 You ' re not suggesting that being attracted to children is a choice , are you ? Because if it is , I would very much like to change my choice immediately . As for the questions about getting actual help and triggers , I would refer you to another post of mine . Having a forum made up of several people can provide insights from different perspectives , and talking about your issues can be helpful this is basically what my therapy is talking , asking questions , thinking about my thoughts and feelings and how they affect me and my actions . In a therapy setting you get input and engagement from only one person , here you can get it from multiple people , some of whom share these attractions and can therefore better understand how I feel although my therapist has not yet recommended that I kill myself as people on the internet have , but fwiw I think about killing myself often anyway . It can also be easier to discuss uncomfortable issues in an internet forum with random people than it is to do so in a therapist ' s office . For instance , how would you feel about discussing your masturbation frequency and fantasies with a therapist ? Do you think it is easy to discuss having sexual feelings for children or masturbating to sexual fantasies involving children to a stranger who is sitting six feet in front of you ? How about discussing that erection you got in the grocery store line from seeing a 4 year old in front of you and how it made you feel ? Lastly , I am generally depressed and often have suicidal feelings . I am terrified to discuss those kinds of feelings with a professional , because I am scared to death of being returned to a mental health facility on an involuntary commitment . One time I did discuss it and I was not allowed to leave the building alone my parents had to come pick me up and I ended up missing a day of work . I feel safer talking about those things online , even though I know my probation officer is reading and I may have to discuss it later with him .