I feel you , it ' s scary . It ' s a sad time . But you just gotta make the best of it , learn what you can and bounce back . Facing the music sucks . I came so close to losing my best friend a few months ago . He had helped me so many times to get sober and I just kept screwing up . He watched me throw so much potential down the drain , it was hard for him see it anymore . It ' s rough . We gotta do it for ourselves , we can ' t squander what we have left and ruin our relationships . It ' s not worth it . I have lost so much to drinking , it ' s hard to think about , but we can ' t run from the past , I could never drink enough to change the past . all I can do now is live for the present and the future . Stay strong , stay positive , be honest and strive to be happy . Best Wishes have a good thanksgiving .