I ' m as old as the Chernobyl and Challenger disasters . <| sep |> Ive tried the breathing but will try the posture and be more aware of it , thank you . I do feel bad sometimes about the way I react on the buses even though I know I should not . Sometimes I can see the guys get uncomfortable at my discomfort I guess I must ' ve been rather obvious about it and they sometimes move a bit further from me to try to avoid misunderstandings . Should I just get up from my seat the next time a guy sits next to me ? I did suffer from depression before but I don ' t feel it ' s as bad anymore . I feel a difference in the sense that in the past I would be depressed even though nothing bad had happened . Now I ' m usually only really depressed when going through a very difficult time that feels hopeless like the piling debts I ' m facing right now . I am starting to feel the depression creep back in because I ' m very worried and feel I ' ve not accomplished much . I ' ve never heard of that book but will be sure to pick it up at the library . Thanks so much !