Honestly , at this point I just feel like my self worth is at zero . I used to be a pretty confident guy but it ' s just shot . I went out and joined a gym and decided to better my life at this point . Make new friends , maybe try and date a little bit to see if my feelings change at all . I don ' t know , just lonely , heartbroken and in shock . We had talked about this past few months buying a home and possibly having our first child in the coming year . I feel betrayed . Good on you brother . You know the score , but I ' ll reiterate what many have said below . This wasn ' t a one time mistake as if that ' s ever a thing . She cheated on you purposefully multiple times . The reasons why don ' t really matter . She ' s upset now because her backup plan staying with you is falling apart before she has been able to land one of the various Chads she ' s been fishing for . Don ' t mistake that for her loving you . You know what you need to do . Hit the gym , eat healthy and take care of yourself . You can and will find someone worthy of you .