i was shocked when i found that and hadn ' t seen it posted anywhere already , absolute fucking gold <| sep |> Ally , did you just recently find that out ? That sounds really sh ! tty . The thing is , they can say the right things and promise the whole world that they ' ll never do it again , but if they want to they will . Words just aren ' t enough anymore . <| sep |> I ' m so dumb . I play destiny on xbone and FIFA on PS 4 . That ' s it . I spent 1000 on 2 consoles to play 2 games . <| sep |> Yes I am clean now . Self harm is better understood now than when I was a teen . There were very few therapists that felt that they could treat it . I was admitted to a psychiatric ward when I was 18 for cutting and the intake nurse just wrote down suicide attempt . I told her I did not intend to die when I cut and she got nasty with me , saying I couldn ' t just get dramatic whenever I was mad at my mom . Very invalidating and useless to me therapeutically . If it ' s in your area I highly suggest you look into dialectical behavioral therapy DBT . It ' s what I did that finally helped me . It includes a group component called a skills class that you may find really helpful . You can ask your current therapist for a referral to someone who ' s trained in DBT . You should show your parents some information to convince them to let you try a better therapy option . Right now they are paying for therapy that isn ' t effective . I ' m sure they love and care about you and want you to get better . They should know that they have better options . Here ' s a quote from one of the links below Dialectical Behavior Therapy starts with a set of assumptions . The lives of people who self injure are currently unbearable . They are doing the best that they can and want to improve . They have not caused all their problems , but they are going to have to solve them . In order to solve these problems they must learn new behaviors and try harder than they ' ve ever tried before . It ' s this approach that ' s helped me . Instead of dismissing my issue as a dramatic teen girl thing that I should just knock off it acknowledges that I have an actual reason to cut and I need help addressing the core of the problems , not shaming or being treated like I ' m stupid . DBT for s e l f i n j u r y b e h a v i o r t h e r a p yforselfinjuryinformation on DBTReview of treatment options for selfharm and their efficacy edited to add this invalidation . I think it ' s particularly relevant to you because it sounds like both your parents and therapist are invalidating you and that ' s super counter productive to treating cutting . Likely contributes to it . Marsha Linehan invented DBT and is also a former selfharmer who got better ! and came up with the theory of the invalidating environment and how it contributes to selfharm and the development of borderline personality disorder .