The kid was actually out on his feet from the first cross and the follow up jabcross was gravy . <| sep |> American abroad here . I lose sleep over coming back home . The crippling guilt of keeping my kids away from their grandparents is constantly at odds with the stressinduced insomnia of not being able to afford our healthcare . It ' s a huge reason why we moved . The other day I posted something on Facebook about being grateful for our situation here , and I got an angry email from my father saying how I am hurting my mother who misses the grandchildren I am keeping from her . Seriously . So I can ' t even talk about enjoying prosperity because it hurts my mom ' s feelings . Apparently being grateful for an opportunity means I ' m rubbing it in everyone ' s face about how glad I am to never come back ever and the way I was raised is garbage ?