duchyAlso , nice . Isn ' t wiping out entire families great ? <| sep |> That sounds dangerous . I like to balance my edge ! <| sep |> go jump off a cliff kid . christ . <| sep |> How easy it is for them to cum . <| sep |> That ' s the dumbest excuse I ' ve heard to not want to attend a cookout . <| sep |> Yeah but 300 at 6 ' is just as bad as 300 at 5 ' 1 . I get what you mean though . <| sep |> I honestly forget that it ' s winter sometimes . I had a moment just now when I saw this and thought , oh yeah , I guess it would be snowing in some places . <| sep |> Rayne hugs Bart back Yeah . I ' ve had some weird fans <| sep |> No . I love driving and hate people . <| sep |> Hi , thank you for taking the time to write out the message , but I think you ' ve somewhat misinterpreted things . Because my question is specifically about my mum , I glossed over the rest of my journey with mental health treatment , and maybe accidentally made it look like I haven ' t been proactive . When I say this has been going on for ten years , I mean it ' s been ten years since the first time I spoke to a doctor . I have tried five brands of antidepressants , three other types of prescription medication each tried for at least 9 months before stopping , done psychotherapy , hypnotherapy , cognitive behavioural therapy , talking therapy , private counselling , group counselling , charity helplines , had a social worker , had over 40 different mental health professionals therapists deal with me , seen about ten individual GPs , bought and read selfhelp books , taken time off of uni to recuperate , and been an inpatient at hospital four times . Those are , literally , all the options available to me . I ' m not saying I ' m giving up I ' m not , I ' m still trying new things . I spend literally all day every day reading about mental health and other people ' s experiences . But there are lots of people in the world who are going to have severe , crippling mental illness for life , and it seems like I might be one of them . To those that don ' t experience this , it can seem unlikely , and often people are quite shocked to hear that I ' ve already tried so much , and that the first antidepressant or the first visit to a psychiatrist didn ' t cure me , but that ' s life . My question is more about how I can make things easier for my mum when this is my situation and what I ' m dealing with . I ' m sorry if my post made it sound like the only thing I do to deal with my depression is call my mum . It would be more accurate to say she ' s just the only person who I have a personal relationship with , i . e . not a doctor or teacher who I don ' t lie to about what ' s going on . I am really , really , really serious about improving my health , it ' s literally my life ' s purpose at this point . That ' s why I feel ashamed I can ' t give my mum good news .