Funny . I have this exact feeling but it ' s because I have awful insomnia . I wake up after 56 hours of fitful sleep . Every night there ' s nightmares of tumbling , fighting , falling . Sometimes running . I do want to wake up , I just want to sleep first . I am so tired . Of how I feel . Of how I can ' t sleep . Of the lack of focus . Of wearing myself out so easily . There ' s nothing to do but get up tomorrow though . Nothing to do but keep going . If life is meaningless then death is just as so . There is nothing but what we make . We have to try and make good . <| sep |> ur wonderful human scum <| sep |> They ' re either pro sorry or anti not sorry . <| sep |> You I ' m a special snowflake that watched The Big Short and am a market savant . I will beat all these fools with their silly index investing by buying gold and using my expert knowledge to short whatever !