Oooo . a Star endergetic generator circuit . <| sep |> That room looks like a good dining room . <| sep |> Thanks for your perspective . Oddly , it actually gives me a little hope maybe this means that somewhere , deep down , there is still a desire for physical affection in him , and maybe that ' s why loss has this effect on him but didn ' t for you . I don ' t know . It ' s weird . It doesn ' t seem entirely selfish on his part . He ' s actually being kinder to me . I ' m at work , but I ' m pretty sure he went out and bought me flowers before he left for the airport . In some moments , I think he did need my touch , but in others , it felt like he was just more willing to meet my need for touch . Unfortunately , I think you ' re right this probably is temporary . But until I know that for sure , it ' s bringing up a lot of confusing feelings for me . One day , he ' s snapping at me for trying to hold his hand when clearly it ' s not the right temperature for handholding , and the next , he ' s holding me tight and telling me I mean the world to him . My head is spinning .