At least the sun is gone <| sep |> Also , truck drivers eating crappy truck stop turkey and potatoes and listening to the radio . <| sep |> The irony was that the therapist felt I was fine , but just needed the supportPsychologist or social worker ? You aren ' t fine . You ' re obsessed with her to an unhealthy level . I do see a bit of my younger self in you and that ' s not good . I fell into a BPD ' s claws right as I was newly out of my selfesteem slump but still willing to accept companionship no matter what . If you get your selfesteem way up and your ambition going , she ' ll probably slap you right back down by giving you what you want To sleep with her . She ' s not worth it . There are tons of girls out there who are kinder and gentler than her , and those girls will not play hard to get if you treat them nice . Trust me , I know ! I ' ve had a 1 year sabatical from my BPD girlfriend now wife where I realized it was way easier to meet a girl once you stop worrying about rejection . Unfortunately , I didn ' t know that the passion my BPD girlfriendwife had for me was not real love , so after losing my interest with 2 girls , I went back to her . I should have just kept on trying to meet new people .