I just went through a rough patchI thought I was a good player but i havent got past Div . 3 this year . I do feel the ELO rating system doesnt help but cant really use this as an excuse . TBH , with fifa this year i feel the style of play and the ease of counter attacks and longshots makes it easier for people to score . I ' ve stopped seasons because i was getting beaten by better and worse players . Also , I got so hung up on custom tactics and player isntructions tat i got frustrated when they didnt do anything . Ive just reverted back to default on everything and focused on passing and improving my dribbling . I was too prone to trying to rush my attacks . <| sep |> Depression isn ' t really an emotion to me . The way I experience it is as an utter lack of ability to feel anything and it ' s terrible . I ' d much rather be angry . I can still function when I ' m angry .