Okay cool . I really didn ' t study this subject I ' m depth beyond highschool . Only a couple of university biology courses . <| sep |> Agreed I guarantee some people will see this post and think it is 100 % true . <| sep |> I can ' t get any better at all when I ' m stuck in loneliness and isolation hell , thanks to my near severe social anxiety and abusive parents for not letting me go to any social events ever or outside . It ' s impossible to make IRL friends from my town and maintain them . Everyone who I knew from my town are alot better than me and I ' m only the one who consistently sucks at socializing and that causes me to keep losing friendships everytime . I will seriously kill myself anytime soon if nothing will still ever get better . I ' m just tired to wake up and suffer the same awful pain everyday . I had enough of this for 45 years .