So . my guess is that we ' ll have to wait and in my case get lucky ? PI just hope I can get one someday since Contrary really improves Snivy ' s performance in battle . <| sep |> Exactly . All that worry about what happens after you die . If you consider all that happened before you were born and before the human race even existed . Then that the you that exists now is a combination of random genetics and your life experience . You are your brain and its interactions with the chemical stew of your hormones . When that party is over , so are you . Get over yourself and enjoy the brief light of life whilst it lasts . <| sep |> doing that peripheral music junk to make a living is actually more depressing than giving up entirely to me . I stand with you on this one my friend . The thought of making music for commercial purposes that you yourself would never listen to depresses the hell out of me and I can ' t really place why exactly . I wake up everyday and go to a day job that I don ' t love , so why would it be any different if it happens to be music ? It ' s worth a bit of reflection . I just want a project to express my creativity and for people to enjoy on a genuine level . I wouldnt turn down the music I made to be used for commercial purposes , but I would never write it for that reason .