I like your list ! Stay strong . Enjoy your holiday . <| sep |> Again dismissing what someone has to say before you even give the friggin video a chance . <| sep |> Do you have your 12 word electrum seed written down ? <| sep |> Hey there , I had two events where something similar happened to me . First one was when I had an operation when I was about 9 years old , I don ' t remember the name of the anaesthetic but by the sound of what I lived through it might have been ketamine too . According to my dad I was screaming my head off for a while before finally waking up , then proceeded to vomit for 5 hours straight . Nice . But I don ' t think I was affected mentally by that , I was only 9 so I guess I didn ' t think about it too much ? Idk . And my second similar experience is from when I was 18 and had a really bad trip on weed . Won ' t go into detail , but the few months after that were really really bad . I guess you could call it flashbacks ? Except I didn ' t ' see ' or ' feel ' anything , just this great feeling of absolute terror and impending , unavoidable doom , just like what I was feeling during the bad trip . THE GOOD NEWS It will get better . BUT you will have to put some work into it , such as seeing a therapist and talking about your nightmares and your feelings and thoughts . Some things you could do in the mean time get a positive , short mantra . Repeat it in your head loudly whenever you feel anxious and ready to jump out of your skin . Personal favourite IT WILL GET BETTER . Works because it ' s true . distract yourself , keep your mind at work . I found that my unoccupied mind tended to wander and focus on anxious thoughts and feelings . Read a book , go for a walk in nature alone or with a good listenertalker , watch a funny movie . Things like that . take care of your physical health ! Going for a run or a quick walk is a great way to sweat out any anxiousness . This turned into a rambly wall of text , huh . If you ever need someone to talk to or just vent . Hang in there !