You don ' t sound like a prude at all . Many people don ' t like it . It can be really pleasurable and fun but it can also hurt like hell . And many times for it to get to the point of pleasurable and fun you have to go through some pain first no matter how much lube you have , or at least no pain but feeling uncomfortable as fuck until you get used to the feeling because at first it feels like shitting lol . Many people never do and it ' s all right . Not prudish , just not your cup of tea . <| sep |> Look into Clairefontaine . Really nice paper but affordable spiral options . <| sep |> I remember when my little brother was , like , six , he said shit to the school bus driver and we all thought he was the coolest . <| sep |> When I realized I had to choose one or the other when I had no option to say no I knew I was fucked . I knew Red ' s team from HGSS so I went with him and somehow managed to get by .