Considering what you said about your fianc , may I suggest the Akathist of Thanksgiving ? When I found it , I was looking for a way to reconcile positivity and God as I found these are often spoken of as enemies , i . e . happiness is almost a sin . With regards to your definitive , logical approach , was there a particular hang up you were having or is it just a general anxiety ? My personal faith has grown immensley since I started looking for God in all things and seeing where I could find His hand . If I were to approach it as a logical excersise , I am not sure I would have been successful . Faith seems to be self propogating as the more you have , the more you find . It has come full circle where I feel not believing in God is illogical . As far as definitive goes , people can witness miracles and not be moved . The relics in this case , full bodies in the Kiev Caves are one such thing . Some of the relics maintain a sweet fragrance and experiments from the USSR found that they would bleed if cut and diseases would be destroyed on contact . Some relics were swallowed by the earth when they were to be siezed and in searching for them , only water was found . In other places , dead trees have bloomed , rainbows have appeared around the recently deceased , and you can find so many stories of even recent martyrs in books such as Jesus Freaks by D . C . Talk if you want to avoid specific religious organisations . Beyond this , and more as general advice , try to pray everyday . You can do the rule of prayer but it is heavy yo start . Just reach out and say hi , He is always listening and you may see His response differently to what you expect . Edit Fixing link format