That makes sense , but you ' re giving me Conclusion , rather than Path to Understanding . As a person who wants to be in your shoes , how did you get there ? And I ' m talking on a micro level , not the big vast learnings you came to , but rather HOW you approached the question , how you started your transition , how you changed your understanding of the truths of not just God , but specifically the CHRISTIAN God from what I ' m reading I could be wrong I just spent like , the last 810 years arguing and debating and trying to learn from my parents , my friends , various religious people in my life , pastors , therapists , strangers on the internet , and when I hear you describing what you learned , it ' s just making me sad because I didn ' t arrive at your conclusion . Tell me what happened ! Edit thanks for taking the time to respond , by the way ! I hope I can get a response on this question , as you can see I ' m super obsessed with understanding your journey .