I totally get that . I wanted to CT it out and that ' s what I expressed to my doctor . After stumbling across some information about kratom and it ' s ability to ease certain symptoms , I figured why not openly try it and team up with my wife about scheduling it ' s dosage and taper . I ' ve read a lot about its power in high dosages but I wanted to feel the suffering as well . Living life in and out of CT withdrawals every month has shown me what to expect . I ' m not one to get a lot of the nausea and sweating . My usual struggles right out of the gate are the RLSSleep at night , loose bowels in the AM and hardcore emotional wavesmalaise . <| sep |> Oh my . . . now that ' s a game I ' ve not played since I was a wee babu . HOW DO I REMEMBER ? !