It would be hard to miss if you have it . This is for the fender audio system that came in my Golf R . The cable bundle was routed to the factory sub where a spare tire would be and a channel was cut for it in the foam . Here is a picture of the car harness left connected to the one I built right from VW parts . <| sep |> Yeah I know . What would constitute professional help ? Because I don ' t think therapy is an option for me . If you know of any free resources online that ' d be great . But I know those things won ' t fix it as well . I know the problem is me and I have to work on it . Thank you , it did help . <| sep |> A snippet from a technomancer vlog . You know when you have too much time to thing and something fucked from your past just springs to mind ? Well , I just remembered the day I ran away from home . I think I was about 13 at the time . It was around when the ' Trix came back and everything was great for like a month before the corps fucked it up again . I just emerged and was waaaay too excited to toy with my new superpowers . Just moving things around the house with my mind was so simple yet exciting . Unfortunately for me , my mother wasn ' t being as neglectful as she usually way . She was a security spider and a little bit paranoid about home security . 13 year old me being me I never thought that random signals from a basically unknown user operating appliances and especially my Little Buddy at random would make her take a day off to actually look into the issue . That night I got especially bold and was just figuring out all the real tricks we got . I was in VR just toying with a few icons around the house . Eventually I ended up figuring out how to throw a dataspike and bricked my bedroom window . I thought it was harmless but my mother however caught wind really quickly and lost her shit . When she arrived I recognized her persona but she didn ' t recognize mine . This wasn ' t the persona she lovingly crafted and linked to my com . To her I just registered as some powerful device with a wonky persona she didn ' t recognize , so she didn ' t hesitate . The dataspike she sent my way was supposed to be harmless , well , at least to a normal matrix user . She didn ' t know that her son , a technomancer was on the receiving end of it . It wasn ' t until she received an alert from my biomonitor that and then moments later my Little Buddy that it hit her . She almost killed me without a second thought . Your first biofeedback will probably always stay etched in your mind , but the circumstances for me made it sting just a little more . Mom and I didn ' t really talk much after that . She knew what I was and she was too afraid to really confront it . We were both mutually terrified of one another after that incident . All anyone really had to go on technomancers was the media shitshow painting us out like terrorist . The last time I seen her in the meat was her standing over my hospital bed . That night I ran away and never looked back . While surfing the grid and looking for someone , the scruffy guy received a message from his fixer . Another investigation ? Fraggit , I ' m in . His response was almost instant while he trudged the digital madhouse for that girl . 6 JaURaRDI 1 bndUVncview is a painfully optimistic Technomancer .