Heh , I ' m using queen excluders to keep recent cutouts from absconding . So that would be one use . Edit she got away anyways . <| sep |> to add to this , the Razer Naga mouse is also very nice , i believe its 80 bucks normally , can prolly get a black friday sale on it . it ' s more expensive then that Logitech , but between the two , the naga feels much better in my hand , i have a pretty big hand though . Razer also comes with its own software that ' s simply amazing for what youre looking for <| sep |> Move to a college town like you said <| sep |> Yes , I have found beauty in sunsets , in music , and in the sacrificial love of others . It ' s just difficult for me to do so if hell never ends . Like I said in the op , it ' s hard to communicate this over the Internet . If hell really is absolute , endless , continual conscious torment forever , it ' s hard for me to find joy in anything . Yes , I have considered the other two descriptions of hell , and I beg the Lord that they are true . I hope no one is taking this the wrong way . My post and comments could definitely come off as something I don ' t intend for them to be , but I hope it doesn ' t . I ' m in a state of anguish , maybe even existential despair , if that makes sense . It is so difficult to truly follow Christ and there is absolutely no way I ' ll ever be good enough for Him . I know that He is my only Deliverance . I guess I don ' t know exactly what I ' m trying to communicate . Sorry for the inconvenience