Normal mods are just better . You can tailor them to your specific style and preferences and you have more options . Plus they have much better spinning aesthetic imo . I think it speaks volumes that not a single world famous spinner uses a ZG . <| sep |> I can ' t help but wonder if there ' s any possibility of it leading to a lasting change and if that would even make a difference at this point . Yes , and Yes IF you can release the inevitable resentment that you have with his nearlycontemptuous treatment of you and the relationship . As I said , it ' s clear that you DO still love him , or his pain wouldn ' t be hurting you as well . If you can remember the love and forget the resentment , then there ' s at least a chance that this change might become permanent . Yeah , go back and read that paragraph again and note all the weasel words if , might , chance , could . Don ' t get your hopes up too much but it COULD work out . Good luck !