I had a pretty similar experience . I definitely was attracted to girls when I was younger . I don ' t know how real the attraction was , or if it was just the hormones of puberty combined with societal expectations . That being said , it definitely did feel real at the time . By high school , I was attracted to both , but over time I started becoming more attracted to guys and less to girls . About half way through high school , I fell seriously ill . When you ' re barely alive and everything is exhausting , attraction is a luxury that you don ' t really have time for , so I don ' t even know if I felt anything toward anyone at that time . By the time I got through the worst of it , in my last year of high school , I had a period of self discovery and realised that I really wasn ' t attracted to girls at all . I came out a few months later to my friends and family .