You should have taken up writing . I would have if I could paint a picture like you with words . And , your ideas of heroes and authors is somewhat flawed and naively idealistic . Who says you can ' t write about heroes and be a hero by doing it ? Go through the history of mankind . The only heroes who stand the test of righteously are scientists , authors and their works . Time destroys everything otherwise . I am neither patriotic and nationalistic . I hate both ideologies . I love my country though and would love to work for it . It ' s just that I won ' t take another person ' s fundamental rights for the love of my nation . As far as an ideal career is concerned , I would love to travel and write about it . I am planning to go that route in another year ' s time . I would also like to write some fiction based on the stories of people I have met during my travel so far . I have some stories in my mind but i have absolutely no idea on how to weave the fictional narrative around them . I would blame the internet more for the way presidential results turned out . Agreed , the media has a bigger role to play . Internet has provided everyone with a loudspeaker . It ' s fine to have your own opinions but nowadays anyone can spew venom using freedom of speech and internet provides a platform for that . It ' s easy to indulge in sarcasm and mockery when you don ' t have any beliefs and arguing with such a person is extremely difficult . I would recommend you to watch the amazing Black Mirror episode called The Waldo Movement . I don ' t want to date anymore here because I don ' t know how long I will stay here . My last breakup was intense and devastating for both of us the reason was my decision to move back to India . And , yes relationships can bring certain amount of warmth which is usually missing from life . I thought you broke up . Did you meet someone new ? Also , how old are you ? If you are a 20 something you are way too mature and secure for your own age . Holidays were fun when I first landed here five years ago . I spent one paycheck completely on my first thanksgiving . Nowadays I just see the same items again and again . Bought a few dress shirts , trousers and a MacBook air for myself yesterday . Planning to buy few more electronics items for family when I go back to India . Going to Dallas today afternoon to visit a friend and his family .