Honestly , try nofap . <| sep |> looks to me like it might be ba few things . could be root bound and over watering if the temp seems to good . Id feed it every six days and maybe even cut out the bottom of container to let them roots stretch down and out and raise the main lighting source . Look into adding a few 60 watt or something with less heat . keep low <| sep |> My sons and I are having pizza and then playing games online together . We might play some Cards Against Humanity also . With so many food allergies , Thanksgiving just isn ' t that fun for us . <| sep |> Ape Escape on playstion <| sep |> Look around the fountains and water features . Got my Dratini at the Belagio Fountain . <| sep |> People cannot show each other their true feelings . Fear , suspicion , and resentment never subside . This quote , along with many others is the reason I don ' t put much value into friendships . I won ' t say the rest because I wouldn ' t want to make you feel you feel worse or force them on you . I used to want to be popular or wanted by everyone , but that just isn ' t how things are . All I have now and value is family . I do have a small handful of close friends but I don ' t speak to them on the regular . But when I visit the city I can go hang , smoke , and play video games . If I lost the friendships ? Who cares . Everyone isn ' t me though . And you probably aren ' t either . So what I will say is , you still have so much time . I ' ve been sober two months , I know soon I won ' t need to be . I ' ve been making $ 9 . 25 an hour , I know soon I ' ll make more . And those two things will lead to other things . And if not it ' ll make me happier in general . Try to find something you can look forward to . Things fall into place usually . All it takes is one day to change everything . Just like one song gets artist famous or one play changes the score of a game things can go good for you .