Second place maternity division . Missed first by two seconds ! !<| sep |> Ideas are corny and would be more for sentimental value than for publication . Are you interested ? I could send you one of the ideas with one of his rough sketches . <| sep |> I can relate to this . I ' m a single father of two relatively young children . My ex committed suicide and my kids came to live with me full time . I had a new relationship and was just married . Everything had always gone well with our kids before that . But after their mother ' s death everything began to fall apart . I started drinking more and more . Now my wife and I are separated and the feeling of loneliness is so overwhelming . I love my children and we do just fine now that the dust has settled but between work and no family and two children I have no time to do much else and the nights are the worst . I can ' t wait to get through the holidays . I put on my act of happy holiday dad for the kids but damn it sucks going through everything alone . I ' m not a victim in any of this . I ' m reaping what I ' ve sewn . I had kids carelessly . I turned to alcohol and regressed emotionally when times got tough . It ' s been a while now since things all fell apart and I ' ve taken steps to deal with myself . I quit drinking and have been in therapy . So far I ' ve made a lot of progress but still don ' t know how I ' ll ever forgive myself for the pain I ' ve caused the people I love . For being weak when I should have been the one to hold things together . That is what I see in the mirror . When the kids are in bed and I sit alone in my room the lonely is all that ' s left . I started to reply to try and offer something by saying I could relate to your feeling lonely . I apologize for turning it into whatever you call this comment . Happy thanksgiving .