Yeah fuck them for having fun right ? <| sep |> They ' ve been working in the wildcat for a couple weeks actually . <| sep |> I can ' t , it looks like I ' ll be contacting her soon enough . <| sep |> I found this source video of the round on cEEeixw 5 yA <| sep |> Throwaway . Never told anyone else this , have compartmentalized it pretty well , doesnt bother me anymore . Twice . First time I was 15 , traveling alone to meet my friend in Austria from Italy , where I was staying with my family . On the train ride back got to talking 50 ish year old Italian guy . He gave me cigarettes and seemed alright . Getting near to Rome he told me I should come to a party he was throwing at his home . I was bored and naive , and unhappy at leaving my friends place , and figured it could be a good time . So I told my parents I was visiting a friend , and might be out late . Went to his house , no party , him and another guy . He told me more people were coming and offered me booze . Being a 15 year old that didn ' t party or drink much and who was too trusting , I figured why not . To cut a longish story short , I got trashed , and was raped by both of them . Not sure if I was drugged or just drank too much , but I remember most of it . Left the next morning and shut it down . Never talked about it again . Forced myself not to think about it . I rapidly decided that it wasn ' t my fault , and I could either move past it or let it fuck my head up . I just moved past it . I don ' t think about it often anymore . I ' m not as trusting because of it , but I don ' t think its changed my outlook much beyond that . Second time is shorter . 2 years ago , was 24 . Girl I thought was my friend liked me , I made clear I wasn ' t interested . Went out and after 2 drinks blacked out . I ' m not such a lightweight anymore , usually its 9 or 10 to get me to black out . I found out she insisted on taking care of me . Woke up the next morning naked in bed with her . Broke off the friendship and let a few people know . Removed myself from that friend group . I dont know why but this one hit me a little harder . I ' m more of a recluse now , but have a few friends I really trust . I ' m generally happy , living with a girl Im fond of and nearly done with my law degree . No great advice or anything , I ' m pretty sure this ' ll be well buried . I just wanted to finally unload it .