Was Cyber Monday last year . Got all excited when I saw 598 on here , then saw the C and got sad again . <| sep |> Tony Hawk ' s Pro Skater 3 <| sep |> Putting religion over science , is not a matter of an opinion , It ' s ignorance . <| sep |> I went through this in maybe 5 years of a ten year relationship . It was so hard and so heartbreaking . Finally at some point when he made it clear that he didnt want to be with me except when he wanted to be with me and although he didnt want to actually be with me , he also was clear that he didn ' t want me to be with anyone else either . I gave up on him . I started seeing someone else during one of his monthlong hiatus periods . And he tried so hard to fix things in both negative and halfassed positive ways . But I was done . The new relationship was a rebound I guess , lasted barely 2 months , and was essentially a nightmare but one good thing among many positives that I took from it was that I finally was able to keep him out of my life . It ' s been 5 months now and despite a feeling of gnawing emptiness from not trusting anyone to have a real relationship right now , I feel like I ' ve been let go from a trap that mept pulling me back in , because I allowed it . It ' s the last ten years of my life that I don ' t regret and know that so much good came from it , but that I ' m better off without it . I miss him still and I probably always will but I don ' t want it back . I want to move on , and I will , eventually , in full .