Last time we beat the boks Biggar was playing some good rugby though , he steered us through that game . Still , I ' ll choose to focus on the positives too . This is a good enough 23 to beat the springboks on paper lack of outside backs cover aside so let ' s hope they finally wake up on the weekend . <| sep |> The paper towels made me smile <| sep |> Still holding out ! Thanks for the encouragement it really helps . <| sep |> I understand , people including my self hate seeing sob stories especially today , during thanksgiving . I don ' t know why I wrote it , I just wanted to get it off my chest because until tomorrow when I tell my parents what happened , its just my friend and I carrying this burden , trying to figure wtf and how we are going to tell our parents and wondering if we just set our lives back several years .