Yeah this is my first time actually seeing one of these . <| sep |> 411 woohoo ! Time to report it . <| sep |> Well , the really great part about being young is that you get to fix so much and do it right . The downside is that it doesn ' t seem that way . Everything can seem perfectly messed up forever , but it isn ' t . Red will move on . don ' t give yourself or him so much power over what you think will happen . You can move on too . I ' m not old , but I ' m over 40 maybe old to you . Ever notice how the older people get , the more blunt they are ? It is the process you are in right now that needs that type of maturity . You are young and need to develop the courage to be honest with people and yourself so you can move on and get right . When I had problems like yours , I would tell myself to pretend I was someone else even a character from a movie or book who I felt had strength . Now I don ' t need to pretend , I have to try and sugar coat things , if anything . You ' re human , you are young , it will all be much better , even though you can ' t see it . Have faith that I and so many others have been through this , and it is a journey worth taking . You may want to read The Road Less Traveled by M . Scott Peck for starters . I did at your age and it helped a great deal . I care about you . No BS . Be strong , fellow traveler . PM me any time .