I mean that sounds reasonable . I ' m just here from rtheDonald to investigate and it seems like this is a good support group for such a taboo subject . If you ' re getting help and it ' s not helping then maybe role playing it out like you said would be beneficial . I only know that it ' s similar to addiction in that avoiding triggers is usually the best course of action . I ' m sure this creates a lot of conflict inside and you want to die but I ' m sure gay people went through that as well , but as you can see they manage to live fine , even the weird conservative ones who ' ve convinced themselves they ' ve prayed the gay away . What you are experiencing is normal in that this is a biological function . Don ' t fight it , accept it and what it means and do your best to survive . Also don ' t actually touch kids because for obvious reasons this is wrong , but you already know that .