Agreed . It seems unlikely he wouldn ' t find it important . <| sep |> I ' ve got some 5 IV Popplio , if that interests you . <| sep |> You seem like you are on hormone high . It is great that you are feeling alive again , but be careful with making risky decisions . Eventually side effects will subside , and you need to have something to keep you grounded . I tried before to train and lose weight to be more attractive to my partner . But side effect was that whenever i got into a fight with my girlfriend , my training and diet would suffer . I tried training for sex . To look good and to be attractive . But as soon i got to that level , i stopped training and got fat again . Eventually your motivation will run dry and all that will keep you going is your discipline . So try to make a habit to train every day at the same time for nothing else than training itself . Risky sexual behaviors are , well risky . Do it only with people you know and trust . Ask your partner about things he would like to try . Don ' t be mad if his are not the same as yours . Try to find something you will both enjoy . Sometimes it takes long time doing less risky things before they get attracted to more risky things . You can read books like the loving dominant , sm 101 and other things if you want to learn more . Polyamory is not only about sex . Its about love . Its a bout being in relationship with more people . While it works for some people it may not work for others . All the issues you have in normal relationship will become 10 times bigger in poly relationship . If you are only looking for sex maybe open relationship is better for you . Be open with your partner and therapist , don ' t judge them or rush with your decisions . Try out new things but be careful and smart about it . I wish you good luck .