So your saying theres a chance <| sep |> I ' ve honestly never seen wm af in real life surprise . I just saw my family always valuing my dad and me over and over again . I don ' t look mixed in any sense of 2016 and family would just talk about that all the time so I thought looking like my dad was much better . I tried making fun of Asians once with my friends to separate myself from that race , but my 2 friends called me out on it and that I don ' t need to be like that . That was a long time ago and we ' re still best friends . Everyone else in my life wanted a token Asian friend , a back and fourth funny racist insults with me or to ask me about Asian culture that I wasn ' t raised with . I ' m glad I never partook in any of that thanks to that one call out . I yelled at my parents when I got too mad about the whole hapa situation is and how they ' re stupid . Told them they shouldn ' t be fit to be parents , but every idiot is allowed to breed , and how they thought gold digging and desperation was a sign that they shouldnt even try to mentor anyone . If they can ' t answer my questions they ' re usually just speechless and get depressed . I think of how they lived in the USA for longer than I have and couldn ' t adapt to societies expectations of kindness . My friends shouldn ' t have to be the ones teaching me not to be racists to black people and worshipping white ones . They shouldnt have to be the ones that helped me with my confidence , interacting socially , developing goodo humor . I made a post asking if I should visit home after years of nc . The replies and my own flash backs convinced me not to .