I was like you , not to the extent of rwting , but stake my stack , win or lose end up getting cleaned from going back . Then i ' d go and make more money from mostly kalphite king when it first came out , and would always end up back in the arena getting cleaned . Lately i ' ve cut out a lot of what motivated me , i ' ve stopped watching twitch staking , and realized that all this time if i would have just never went to the arena i would have a hat on my head and a bank full of gear , and i also found a constructive way to gamble in clue scrolls . Essentially instead of putting up 5 m to roll the dice , i put up 10 minutes of time . I ' ve made 2 . 2 b from 368 elite clues so far , and havent even thought about returning to the arena . Tldr find something that makes you happy and do it , mine was clue scrolls rolling the dice on every clue satiates the desire to gamble .