This happens a lot at Best Buy . You put something in your cart , and check out , and they say , Suck a dick ! This has been sold already ! <| sep |> CHINESE TAIPEI ! HER NAME IS CHINESE TAIPEI ! t <| sep |> Who would have thought Ohio State fansalumni , Crips , Bloods , and Orthodox Jews would have this much in common . Pretty much anybody that understands how ingroupoutgroup relations form . The most successful being the Orthodox Jews , as there ' s a small bit of evidence that Yahweh was a Bedouin chieftain from the 14 th or 15 th century BC IIRC , I may not be , I could be off by several centuries . <| sep |> Okay stop . Stop right there . Breathe in , breathe out . Now listen . Listen . I know how you feel . I felt it , sometimes feel it again , but I ' m much much better than I used to be . I broke up with a guy I was MADLY in love with because he didn ' t respect me anymore ? , made me feel unloved and lied to me . And I allowed it , for months . Why ? Because I didn ' t love myself . And now I do . This break up was the hardest thing that I ' ve ever done I dumped him , yay for selflove and for weeks I was a mess . I ' d been depressed and anxious for years . I would cut myself , plan suicide , drink , smoke , you name it . At the time my nowex made me feel loved . I was suddenly beautiful , happy , full of life . Until I wasn ' t . When he started to pull that love away , I was left with nothing but a great big hole in my heart , soul and selfimage . I dragged the relationship on for moths because there was no way that I was ever going to feel loved again , right ? I couldn ' t do it on my own , right ? I ' d been depressed for years , my selfconfidence was nonexistant , I was worthless , ugly , etc . You know the thought process , I bet . But I wasn ' t going to be walked on anymore , so I broke up with him . And I was empty . Crying , even more depressed than before , suicidal , couldn ' t eat , lost weight , almost started antidepressants . And after two weeks I went and begged him to take me back becuase without him I was less than nothing . He didn ' t , luckily for me . I was faced with a harsh realty then . Either continue my downwards spiral , or move on . The easiest thing in the world would have been to give up , continue being depressed and anxious , wallow in selfpity and overall be a complete and utter excuse for a human being . And I did exactly that , for weeks . But one day I found myself in my bed , crying over our photos , considering just ending in then and there . But you know what , I didn ' t . For the first time in . ever . ?. I went to the bathroom , looked myself in the mirror and told myself that I loved myself . I used to scream at my reflection , hating everything I saw with passion . I used to cut my wrists because I DESERVED it for being a worhtless piece of shit . Not anymore . You can do it too . You can wake up and thank Alah I ' m presuming , since you wrote you ' re a Muslim for your wife who obviously loves you since she married you , for the fact that you ' re healthy , etc . There are numerous way you can start being positive , but it has to be your decision . No one else can do it for you . I can tell you where selfhate leads to misery . You hating yourself effects everyone around you . Change , now ! It ' s the easiest thing in the world to continue feeling the way you do . Actually doing someting about it is much , much more difficult . But I did it and so can you . Look up positive psychology , accept yourself the way you are . Do you think I ' m perfect ? Hell no , but I love myself nevertheless . Seek professional help if you have a chance . See everything that happens to you as something positive . You feel bad ? Good , now you have an opportunity to learn how to turn that around . I won ' t pity you , because there is no reason for me to do it . I do , however , offer help , and it comes from my experience . YOU HAVE TO DECIDE TO BE HAPPY WITH YOURSELF . That ' s it .