My depression is really bad right now . Nothing feels worthwhile except taking care of my hedgehog and being with my boyfriend . And my boyfriend lives 90 minutes away . So I literally play games for 8 hours a day , and sleep for 1012 hours a night while also taking one or two naps during the day . I ' m taking a semester off from school , and my parents support me , so that ' s how I can do this . I feel so guilty . I feel like I should be doing something more productive . I ' m a talented artist and musician , but drawing and composing can ' t distract me enough from the hopelessness I feel all the time . But games do . I feel like I ' m wasting my life . And that just makes me feel even more hopeless . <| sep |> Random shooting every couple weeks ? You have no idea what you are talking about .