you sound like you ' re doing great . don ' t be so hard on yourself . you ' ll grow up and go live your life , and maybe your family will still be part of it and maybe they won ' t . you ' re so young , and you ' re right at the very beginning of your path in life . give yourself some credit for the clarity you ' ve already attained , and continue to be open for the many things you will yet learn . and knock off that i ' m probably not worth anyone ' s time shit . selfpity will destroy everything you can build . it is the wellspring of human weakness . <| sep |> If I remember correctly , I got a bronze player for completing level 9 . It may have been a goldsilver player but it was shitty card regardless . Don ' t expect guaranteed good card for just completing a level even at higher levels . Now I ' m playing level 10 because of the guaranteed diamond player and a shot at few rubyamethyst players plus Isiah Thomas .