And that attitude is exactly why the polls were off and Trump won . Keep shooting the country in the foot so you can feel morally superior . It ' s going to work wonders . I cannot believe how many actual adults think saying this shit actually does anything . <| sep |> I ' m trying to sell off good stuff , jewelry lenses , DSLR ' s and that even . The problem is I am not in NYC at the moment . NYC is home so I keep up with it . I love the city madly but I don ' t live there currently . I wish . If I lose my place in Dec I will be going back if I have to hitch . If I am going to be fucking homeless I ' m going to be homeless in NYC . If I die I wanna die THERE not here . Who knows maybe if I take my cameras and that with me I will be able to sell them and get by for a month or two ? Maybe even find a shit job to get a real roof over my head ? If I was in NYC my shit would have sold in a week on CL . Too many people not to . Here ' s nobody wants my shit apparently and there is very little by way of anything I can go to for Thanksgiving . What there is I can ' t get to . No bus on Thanksgiving . Even when there are buses they are unreliable and take forever to get anywhere . Plus I honestly can ' t afford to waste any money on bus fare . I ' m down to $ 34 in my account plus I ' ve got about $ 20 in change at home . Every penny I ' ve got I ' m holding onto it . I can ' t afford not to . I ' m seriously thinking about packing up everything I could sell and grabbing a train or bus to NYC . There ' s just no point in trying to make it here . It ' s just not working at all . Maybe I can sell off my shit there , get a room by the week , find a crappy survival job at least there . Who knows ? At least I ' d have decent transit and food banks that I might actually be qualified for . I actually have mad computer skills and I ' m a trained photographer but it ' s not been doing me a lot of good here . The only work I can get is weddings and I can ' t physically handle a job that big . I ' ve been too sick for too long . All month I ' ve been trying to sell a very good camera and lens combo . If I just sold that I ' d have my rent and that . But the brand is just not popular here and at this point I can ' t afford to go online to sell it via auction or whatever . CL bites lately so I ' m fucked . I ' m still hoping it will sell this week that someone will see it and buy it for someone as a gift for Christmas or something . I ' m not sure I want spend the $$$ to stay here though . I need a roof over my head but at the same time I can ' t help but think I need to get out of here . I wish I still had wheels . Losing my car that hurt . I totally regret selling it now . I wish I ' d kept it and just packed it all up and left . I should have settled for living in my car . I ' d have probably done better . I ' d kill for a camper and car or something like that . I ' d definitely hit the road if I could manage it . I make jewelry . I think could make a living doing craft shows up and down the coast if I had a way to get around and no rent to pay all the time . I might be able to make enough for gas and food consistently anyway . I wanna go home . sigh .