I ' m so stressed . The past six months have honestly just felt like a continuous roller coaster of emotions and it ' s crazy because I ' ve never really had this problem before . The problem now is that my scholarship is on the line . I get it on a semesterbysemester GPA basis . This semester I ' m on a study abroad , and all of my courses are passfail . which isn ' t applied to GPA . and no one thought to tell me until now that even if I pass all my courses , I technically won ' t have a GPA for them to base my scholarship award on and will lose it for at least next semester . This really fucks me up it basically pays my school bills that are left after Pell and has enough left over for ~ 4 months of rent . Now I ' ll owe the school an extra thousand on top of needing a job for rent money . It ' s not the end of the world , I guess , but if I knew this study abroad which I could only afford through scholarships in the first place . was going to cost me an extra $ 3 , 000 this semester I wouldn ' t have done it . There were also so many other solutions I could ' ve taken an online course back home that would ' ve been graded normally or something . But now there ' s nothing I can do but wait for the scholarship office to call me back . next week after break . I can ' t deal . I feel so worthless .