Yeah that ' s what I ' m finding , depending on the ink and paper I ' m using Rhodia mostly you can get a nice amount of shading with some inks . <| sep |> You are impressive for sticking by your principles . Most would just give in and have kids with her in fact I think this is why many men have kids just to keep their wives . At least you will never feel bad for the suffering the kids you could have had would experience . If she was willing to choose future children over you she wasn ' t worth being with anyway . Think about it that means that even if you had had kids with her , she would still care more about the kids then you . It actually shows that she wanted to use you if children were what mattered to her most . Sorry if these words don ' t help much . But I want to say I admire you for not giving in and I hope that in time you will see that having kids would have given you more regrets than breaking up with her . The fact that she wants to be with someone who is so controlling over her makes her seem a bit pathetic and desperate to me , sorry to say don ' t mean to offend you so I hope you can find a woman who is more her own woman to be with , maybe that will be an even better bond . But it ' s important that we don ' t need to be with a partner to be happy so i hope you can find your happiness by yourself again , even if you never find another partner .