No , no , no your attitude is frightening please speak to a therapist or counsellor . Your whole post screams of desperation , fear and unrealistic expectations , in short you are setting yourself up for disappointment as it sounds like you have a schema that will not bode well for you , schema is a psychology term for a deep down ingrained way of thinking that is so deep you don ' t even realise you ' re acting on it , its automatic , automatic actions , automatic assumptions , automatic trust or distrust , Please read my post further down the board , the man I love has a damaged schema I realise that now , he said his childhood was shit and his father was shit to them , he was the jealous type , he said I was the most important person in his life that he loved me more then anything , would spend his life with me and would never do to me what his father did to his mother . Now his mother says he ' s doing to me what his father did to her , but he ' s in denial . Don ' t take my post to be doom and gloom its not , its a warning , right now you are not ready for a relationship , love isnt going to fix you , you need to get help to fix yourself so that you can have a healthy happy relationship .