Blowjobs on the moon ? <| sep |> I ' d also add in Christians Against Poverty and the Citizens Advise Bureau <| sep |> I tended to have the opposite issue , that as soon as I got into a relationship , I would just do anything and everything for the person that I cared about . In the early stages , I ' d just be so full of joy and love and the sheer bliss of feeling cared about that I ' d gladly , happily just do whatever they wanted . All the time . Completely at the expense of my own needs and ideas . But of course over time , the shine would wear off and I ' d realise that I was doing all of the housework , or paying for everything all the time , or that I never got to see my friends anymore without a fight , or that we ' d never dowatcheat anything that I wanted without there being tears and tantrums . I ' d realised that I ' d already set the precedent so far in my partner ' s favor that trying to claw things back to a place of compromise was pretty impossible . So basically I have the habit of behaving in a way that just hides all possible red flags while also setting myself up for a lot of fights and resentment after the honeymoon period wears off . I know that I do it . And yet I do it anyway . So I ' ve decided just to stop doing any of it . I ' m just not interested in going through it all again . I choose terrible partners , and I behave in a way that naturally leads to unhealthy relationships . I ' m just better off on my own . I was raised in a very solitary way by a very unemotional family , so it ' s not like I feel terribly lonely or unloved . I ' m not really missing anything other than other people ' s unwelcome intrusion into my life , so for me this is a pretty lovely state to be in . I am lonely sometimes , but it ' s rare . I can walk out of work on a Friday night and turn up again on Monday morning having not spoken to a soul all weekend and feel just fine about that , so my tolerance for solitude is already pretty high .