i thought right , but still , he had a knee down <| sep |> Apparently he was ill on the boat . Poor dude . Though I find it a bit disconcerting knowing some fans know and spread what was happening during his travelling I mean did I expect anything else though lmao <| sep |> I have essentially created the same system as you , this makes me sad . I am now sad . <| sep |> I have read , have been searching for it , but only seen it quoted second hand that he wishes he was straight , and that he wasn ' t gay . This is something that basically every gay guy struggles with . It ' s pretty much textbook . Yeah , maybe it would be a little bit easier if there weren ' t people who describe you as a degenerate faggot who deserves to get AIDS . Just saying .