you literally can ' t describe it ! <| sep |> I got rejected for 12 months and then a further 6 months before getting accepted . It goes by pretty quickly if you get a job , go to uni or whatever and honestly , im glad I got rejected for 12 months since my job preferences changed so much in that time . <| sep |> sorry had a bit of nog and i remember my melee group bitching about bosses not being in range so they get better use from the power pot , but once you hit the last phase of the fight everyone shoould be using the big boy pots , oh and have your healers dps too when they can <| sep |> Take a deep breath , let it out , and stop for a moment . Bad years are tough , but look at how far you have come ! Seven hundred and twenty six days or twenty three months and three and a half weeks . We don ' t have to have everything under control all the time , we work on what we can change , make mistakes , get better at somethings , make new mistakes and slack a bit in other areas but that is what makes us human . From what I understand being bipolar is rough even when everything is ideal , from meds , mental awareness , stress , environment , and support but here you are still going strong even when it is hard . I am proud of you internet stranger and of your accomplishments . I guess I don ' t honestly have much to offer but I needed to give you my $ 0 . 02