It does . But remember this is undoing years of conditioning it . can sometimes take months or years to undoIt sounds like you are still living in the past a little . Maybe find something to keep your mind busy like reading a book and give it a little break <| sep |> Well you have Super Fans like Sign Guy , Frank The Clown , and Handsome Fan . Who just somehow have had money to go for years . Then you have Stunt Grannies who are typically old ladies they give tickets to , sometimes family of the talent , to boo and hiss and get the crowds riled up against the bad guys <| sep |> I ' m really not a fan of her anthem <| sep |> Writing is a great way to get things out , so keep posting ! I just read through a few of your previous posts , and the bacon incident . it looks like your Ndad is just looking for excuses to get angry . I ' m so sorry . I hope you can move out soon . I also want to invite you to make a few articles for my blog , if you ' re interested anyone on RBN is welcome to , which is why I put this as a comment as opposed to a private message . It ' s a blog about abuse , and becoming a cycle breaker , or someone who was abused but decides to not be abusive . If you want to take a look , it ' s cyclebreakers . org I have major depressive disorder , so I haven ' t posted as often as I ' d like to , but I could always use help Also , all the names on the blog are pen names , so please be sure to pick one if you want to remain somewhat anonymous . Thanks in advise if you decide to help I thought I ' d at least ask since you post so often and I like your stories .