Jesus fucking Christ that ' s a <| sep |> OCD isn ' t just germaphobia , its obsessive , obtrusive thoughts that you don ' t want , and the compulsion to act on those thoughs . For you , you have obsessive thoughts that you didn ' t close the fridge door , and the compulsion is to check it . But for nonOCD people , that thoughtaction happens once . For someone with OCD it goes on repeat . Definitely try your university , mine had a clinic and gave me samples to start with , and then got me a referral to a pyschiatrist to start on the therapy . With a lot of mental illnesses , medication is only part of the solution . Therapy can be really useful for detangling your thoughts and helping you break the loop . The sooner you can get help , the better . I have the lovely habit of ignoring my mental health until I ' ve hit rock bottom . Don ' t do that , please . edit Forgot to add , it will take a lot of work , and time to learn to work with how your brain works . It won ' t be an overnight , suddenly no more OCD .