I can ' t make out shit from a screenshot of a half visible text file , sry . <| sep |> You ' re going to probably be using Serum the most in the long run , so why not start with that ? And with the $ 10 a month rent to own deal , there really is no better choice . <| sep |> I ' m so sorry to hear that . I ' m going to give you a bit of unsolicited advice that I wish we had have had when we lost my fiance ' s dad one is that people are going to say some stupid ass shit to you in the next little while , because nothing brings out the occasional crazies like death . Two is that you need time probably years , in fact , to grieve and that is okay . People around you are going to be moving on with life at lightning speed and they will expect you to , as well , but don ' t worry about that it legitimately takes a couple years to be okay with losing your parent . Internet hug .