Yeah , not disagreeing with the using mousewheel but I think more people are just accustomed to number keys . I myself could never use it properly and so disabled it cheap mouse . Also my thanks is bound to SHIFT , but I don ' t use it as much as I do G 2 for Schadenfreude taunt lol . <| sep |> I was raped in 2015 , a little over a year ago now . Before that , I was madly in love with a guy who ' s ex before me killed herself while texting him a month before him and I met . Dude and I played couple but never did the full commit past exclusive , we both really fucked it up . I ' m burnt out on the danglies . Even the thought of a real chance of having a relationship or sexual encounter makes my PTSD flair up , I think I ' m going to be raped again . Speaking of PTSD , I ' m also in destructive mode on myself and I don ' t want to give anyone false hopes that I ' ll change for them because , well , fuck them .