I ' m so sorry for your loss . If it ' s not too personal , why do you think the two of you drifted apart the last year and a half ? Do you think it was the lifestyle , or do you think you both would have changedgrown apart anyway ? Ideally , would you have wanted to get clean together at some point ? Did you ever think about having kids ? I ' m sorry for so many personal questions , I hope I didn ' t overstep any boundaries . Thanks for responding , I appreciate it <| sep |> Proper debunk ? Of people making the logical leap from pizza to child rape ? How about Occam ' s Razor ? Or common sense ? <| sep |> I ' ve had those things but I don ' t anymore and it doesn ' t make a difference that I had them . I know it seems like you ' d feel better if you had but the people you shared those times with drift awaychange and the best times in your life just turn into nostalgia , which is a negative emotion IMO .