Hmm , interesting . I was considering getting a small windows laptop specifically for installing only Melodics , Maschine and Komplete , as well as getting one of those mini launchpads . Do you still have the launchpad ? Once I get over the technical issues , I ' d actually consider subscribing to Melodics , just for how fun it is . <| sep |> Me too dude , me too <| sep |> I ' m curious if you could take a picture of spring that looks just like summer on a sunnier day . <| sep |> I live in a country where being gay is frowned on and I practice a religion that forbids any form of moral sexual conducts . While I am thoroughly convinced about my religious obligations , I just not attracted to the opposite sex ! I am asked constantly , why I am still single beautiful , educated with a good job , depending on my mood at the time I just look for an excuse to avoid further questioning . I can not tell my friends that what is considered normal for them is a struggle with me . Oh , the nights I have gone to bed in tears ! The guilt any time I indulge in homo sex , the hatred for self when its a hetro sex . Oh boy , would feel nice to be intimate with someone and not have any of these . Well , I guess this is will remain a torn in my own flesh !