Thank you for this . Ohh , the memories . <| sep |> You don ' t sound crazy at all . You sound like most of us did as we were figuring things out . HRT and time is all many of us need to pass . HRT is usually pretty cheap too . Mine is covered by insurance so I can ' t really help with tips on what dosage forms are cheapest or anything . If you make a post about it there are lots of people here I ' ve seen talking about how to get HRT as cheaply as possible . A single masculine feature isn ' t enough to rule out passing . My bestie has a very masculine jaw line and still passes quite well . You can call it a gamble , sure , but what in life isn ' t to some degree or another ? From what you wrote in your original post it sounds like you already feel a sense of regret when you think about not transitioning . If the road you ' re on now is already one you feel you ' ll regret what have you got to lose by exploring a different path ? The regret rate for those of us who have transitioned is extremely low , and most cases of regret stem from a lack of acceptance of a botched surgical result or similar and not the act of transition itself .