Id also like to add that Roger Gracie occasionally competes in mma . Just not in the UFC . <| sep |> No , I can still get mini crushes . I ' ll look at the merchandise , but I won ' t do anything else . Maybe because it feels too taboo for me to interact and get to know someone . I make friends by asking questions about their lives , I like to learn their story , however I also see this as something intimate . So maybe I ' m afraid of building a connection with someone else while I have a girlfriend . <| sep |> The last I heard he was heavily involved in his church his family always was and didn ' t date women because his standards were too high . Part of me wants to empathize with him because he may be struggling with homosexuality in an extremely conservative family . He might very well just be a straight up pedophile . And I ' m not saying you should feel angrier than you are it ' s your life and feelings , but as a gay person who has spent their entire teenadult life helping victims of childhood sexual abuse . being gay and in the closet is NEVER EVER EVER an excuse for sexually abusing a child , hell a baby if you were still in diapers . You really don ' t need to empathize with a horrible person who hurt you .