Wonder if I ' ll experience that tonight when I presume the rest of the deals go live and I have to make decisions on what I want to buy . So far all I bought was Life is Strange in the very beginning of this sale , had no problem then . I ' m sure the traffic was a lot lighter then though too . <| sep |> Hi , I think I understand what it is that you ' re going through because I think just about everyone on Earth goes through this at some point , or at least everyone who is of average intelligence and above . When I was your age I spent a lot of time thinking about the meaning of life and why I was alive . At a certain point it made more sense to me to stop asking that question than to keep looking for an answer . Maybe it was because I realized it doesn ' t matter , or maybe it was because I decided it was more useful to stop wondering than to keep trying to find the answer to a question that doesn ' t have one . Its been so long I can ' t really remember . DWhen you ' re young you have angst . Anxiety . As you age you learn and it gets easier to live without so much anxiety . I ' m not trying to minimize your pain or even the validity of your questions . I ' m just trying to reassure you that your anxieties will generally become less intense with age and from my experience thats a good thing . Peace of mind is nice . Okay , so for now here are a few things that I ' ve come to believe about death that might help you find some direction answers . You didn ' t choose to be born . as far as you know anyway You won ' t choose to die . No one knows why or how you are experiencing things . That is the truth . People can claim to know but in the end life , consciousness and subjective experience is a mystery that only a fool pretends to understand . I find that accepting this vulnerability gives me a kind of inner strength that I cannot find any other way . Existence is a strange experience , isn ' t it ? Have fun exploring and stay away from all the people who will inevitably try to keep you fenced in mentally . Embrace the mystery . For me , life is not some pleasure cruise that I have to get as much out of as possible . This is far to dark of a place for me to believe that or maybe I ' m just far to dark of a person to believe that . O To me life seems to have a deeper meaning and I look for it by gazing inward which is where you should also look . Don ' t expect me or anyone else to tell you the meaning of your existence and don ' t look to hard either . Getting to know yourself takes time . The progress is usually slow , requires a lot of effort and you ' ll never be finished . There have been plenty of people in my life that have tried to tell me who I am and what the meaning of life is . If anyone tries to tell you something like this save yourself some time and avoid them . They are either mindless zombies regurgitating someone else ' s BS or they are just trying to manipulate you . My guess is that once you learn to look for the meaning of life inside yourself you wont be as anxious about death . Anyway , here ' s some word vomit . Maybe one of these ideas will make sense to you We ' re all different pieces of the same broken mirror reflecting each other back upon ourselves . Upon your death you will live on in an infinity of reverberating reflections echoing down through time among peoples and places to numerous to fathom . You are a multitude of ancient and ancestral processes , images , stories , dreams , delusions and nightmares replaying one more time with a few extra flourishes and alterations . Experience is fragmented chaos stitched together by an enchanting dream . You are far more than you will ever know or experience . The mind is a deep ocean of immense complexity . The ego sails upon the surface . The great struggles of our Universe rage below . Power is alluring and dark and always comes to an untimely and horrifying end . Unicorns await you . All your dreams will come true . Abandon all hope . With some things the less you try the more you achieve . Don ' t do most drugs , except for mushrooms , do those at least once . Whether or not you go to college , read books . Always read even after you ' re done with college . Otherwise you ' ll just be a moron . Good luck .