I was attracted to my favorite male movie and TV stars and some real life older guys when I was a kid . I had no idea what the attraction was or what it meant at the time , but as I grew up and learned about sex I finally put two and two together and figured out I was a homosexual . <| sep |> The puns quack me up . <| sep |> He looks ' fit ', and doesn ' t he know it . <| sep |> Yeah , that ' s the fear I feel most of the time . I wondered if that was something that is seen as weird for most . I don ' t know . It just seems like being a nonsexual person makes you a freak of sorts to most people . Like you ' re some sort of psycho to them . Well , it always makes me feel alienated ostracized , excluded from everyone else . I just never knew why people made it out to be that you are like messed up for not wanting to have sex . Like what ' s so wrong with that ? It ' s insane to me .