I can understand that . It ' s just , some people on here can be so vehemently antitulpa . <| sep |> dont try to figure ' it ' out . make some small changes and stick with them , then when they are part of your life make some more . Im glad you posted . That is a good first step . You must know one thing everything you have been doing prior to this post you have been doing wrong . It is time to do some new things . some different things . It is time to do the opposite , because what you are doing now isnt working . Go join a gym and visit it 3 to 7 times a week . Go light running if you can 3 times a week . Start with other small things . Clean your room , completely , today , the sheets , the carpet , fold the clothes , everything . Declutter . Then , clean the kitchen . Learn to cook an amazing meal for your mother , she has a hard life too , take the stress off her for a moment . Learn a language in your abundant spare time instead of videogames www . duolingo . com . and here is the last thing . You need to develop your social life . It sounds like you are doing nothing , not in school , working , ,,, so this one is going to be hard at first . do the stuff above first . Stop the videogames , put the computer outside your bedroom if you need to , and if your mother asks why tell her . Tell your therapist you are doing nofap . Call an old friend ? Anyway , you are at the beginning of a journey . you can do it .