Google it . <| sep |> I never thought if that way , that he might think I ' m doing this for attention ? That ' s kind of messed up . I genuinely hope he or anyone else wouldn ' t think I was that manipulative , using a death for attention ? I think I ' m trying to figure out if this is a deal breaker for me . Like , being an adult is hard . Life is hard . Bad things happen . There will be times when bad things happen to both of us at the same time . Does this mean I can ' t rely on him during those times ? It ' s making me think a lot . <| sep |> I wanted to see DC dismantle rumble again . <| sep |> cool . I ' m buying video games <| sep |> No , send her some brochures for North Dakota nursing homes . FUCK that old lady ! No offense to North Dakotans . I ' m sure y ' all take hella good care of your old folks . The prairie is just a much less desirable retirement location than Florida .