Compare and despair . Average in CS is great , especially in a good program . Every exaddict will tell you they ' re glad they ' re sober and enjoy life . Logically that should tell you that it ' s worth it , so do it . I ' ve perused your post history a bit . Why not cooperate with people who want to help you ? Their best interest is literally your happiness , so you should trust their advice i . e . check into somewhere where they can help you . That ' ll be all from me as to not egg you on , but please don ' t it . If muh feels from others and those close to you mean nothing to you , then please consider that dying for a drug makes 0 sense . thanks for the advice on assembly btw <| sep |> Yeah , I see , since you ' re looking even more like death . She sarcastically replied .