Fiction is where I normally go <| sep |> rend me hentai <| sep |> Idk man , being alone for thanksgiving and Christmas sucks . Having your relationship ruined by med school sucks . It doesn ' t really feel like a privilege . <| sep |> Of course nobody here cares either . I guess I really am just selfish . I still don ' t know what I ' m doing that makes nobody care about me , I guess I ' ll never know . I feel so stupid for getting my hopes up , but I guess that ' s my own fault . I always , always get my hopes up . I always think things are gonna get better . I always think somebody is finally going to understand me , or help me understand . I don ' t know . I don ' t even know what I ' m saying anymore . I can ' t even stop crying , what a fucking loser . It ' s not even a big deal , I ' m just trash . Trash doesn ' t deserve compassion or understanding . I try so hard , this is what I get . I ' ve been sitting here for a couple hours watching newer posts get replies , and I ' m happy for them , but I just . I just was hoping . maybe . me too . I feel stupid for even admitting that . I shouldn ' t want people to care about me . That ' s not for me . That ' s for good people . That ' s for other people . that ' sI ' m sorry