Some advice would be wonderful . I ' ve tried for 6 years . I resisisted medication of any kind for the first 3 . That ' s how I ended up in hospital with cataracts and kidney damage . I spent 2 months fighting pregablin withdrawl , having to miss work and school to avoid ending up back in hospital . I then made some progress on my anxiety and got down to moderate levels , over 6 months . Then some yob decided they wanted to intimidate me because I didn ' t have spare change for them . They attacked me and stole my bike . Since then my anxiety has been back to the levels after I almost got stabbed outside my own front door . Took 6 years to get them to a manageable level . And the other day I ended up having a seizure again . The doctor has prescribed me Meds . I still haven ' t taken them . I don ' t want to . I just want the anxiety to go away . I ' m not in control of it , at all . I ' m walking down the street , and my body will just go into overdrive . Some yob asks me for spare change , or gets too close and I came literally have a seizure and black out . If I could control that I fucking would . I don ' t want that . Or the diabetes you dismiss , or the thin skin , and likely organs . None of it is fun . I have not the vaguest idea what to do about it . I cannot afford therapy , and when I did get therapy , the therapist honestly told me I should move somewhere less violent . Leaving all my family , friends and job behind . Not sure that ' ll help .