Look on rall . I own the top two spots with this story KEK <| sep |> There is a kickstarter at the moment for a nonroving version of this , by a company called Ohhio . They started out selling the roving versions , but have developed this amazing braid that is washable , durable and knittable . I ' m not affiliated with them in any way , except that I want to back the project but don ' t have the money right now ! !<| sep |> I will , give me 5 minutes , I need to do something IG first <| sep |> They can ' t and won ' t . It ' s up to us <| sep |> Sounds a bit like PTSD , but I don ' t know anything about it . Definitely try to reach out to somebody like a therapist . Also , try changing things up a bit . Go for walks , get up earlier , go to bed earlier , learn something . Distractions are often the best medication .