But wouldn ' t cubicle be a better deal , it ' s cheaper and better prepared . Oh wait you aren ' t sponsored by the cubicle , <| sep |> He chuckles and sticks his tongue out at Serena . Rex chuckles . R So , any other plans ? <| sep |> Find people that you enjoy to be around . Get some hobbies . Stop complaining about yourself and make strides towards the change you want . Get out your comfort zone . Stop being too cool for school . <| sep |> Is it just me or are those Aldens priced way above US retail to start with ? <| sep |> Andrew Nathaniel . I ' ll call you Anal with an E for short . Thanks for your input Anel . <| sep |> I ' m glad you ' re here . You ' re not alone . Too many of us have experienced this kind of turmoil and abuse . I suspect your mother is doing her best to prevent you from calming down and selfsoothing , so you stay emotionally raw and easy to blame for her own inability to control herself . She might also make some small gesture toward you and expect you to forget her tirade narcs have to make everything about them . She can ' t stand that a holiday exists that is supposed to be a celebration independent of her , and she can ' t stand that you have your own feelings she may not even realize that you do , which is why she ' s using you as an amplifier for her own instability selfloathing . Is there anything you enjoy , and that calms you down , that you can engage in without bringing down more Nwrath ?