Two weeks ago my girlfriend tried to kill herself by swallowing a bottle of pills . She broke up with me in the hospital . She had been battling with depression , and I didn ' t know it had gotten that bad . She told me that she doesn ' t think she is in the right place mentally to be in a relationship . She said it had nothing to do with me , but I will always blame myself . The fact that she came so close to death terrifies me . I would have been a mess . I would have considered myself a murderer , even though I never ever would have done anything to hurt her . So yeah . That ' s why . And it will probably be a while until I get back into relationships . This baggage is too much for me to bring into another relationship .