Hey I ' m looking for a place but won ' t be moving till January 1 st . 24 F , depaul student and I work full time . I ' m super clean , pretty quiet and do a lot of knitting . Let me know if you guys are still looking around later December ! <| sep |> imo , new players wont want to become a part of such a hostile community . <| sep |> Tournament client or no , of course they would be playing in a custom game , unless I misunderstand what you mean . <| sep |> I ' m not a very good writer and I tend to ramble occasionally but bear with me . I was raised in the Pentecostal church from before I was born . I too have since taken a stance of atheismagnosticism . One thing I know for a fact is that god they worship in that church is not real . As a historian , I have been able to study all about the history of the world for my entire life . One thing that occurred to me as a child was that the tongues and interpretation was always done in Old English Thou shalt and ye and whatnot . It was strange to me because I knew that people only spoke like that in 16 th century England . Why would God be speaking 16 th Century English to a 21 st Century congregation ? Additionally , there was a kid named Austin in my church who always used to fake speaking in tongues . The adults acted like he was doing it for real , but I knew he was faking it . That made me start to wonder too . They preached hellfire and damnation in my church . They were essentially scaring people straight so to speak , do this or else . I never thought that was fair . I always thought , why would a merciful and loving god throw people into such misery and torture for ETERNITY ? For the stupidest shit . Say a bad word just before you die ? Bam you ' re in a lake of fire forever . What the FUCK ? ! I ' ve actually spoken in tongues before . I wasn ' t faking it either . Doesn ' t mean I believe it is a holy language , or proof by any means . Yes it is possible to speak in tongues and yes you ' re actually not doing it . It ' s trippy shit . BUT , I think that , as others have said here , it is a meditativehypnotic trance that people fall into under the right circumstances . Besides , lots of people fake it . To me it ' s quite easy to tell the difference . All in all , I think the pentecostal church is one of the most evil organizations that this world has even seen . Even worse than ISIS . At least ISIS is upright and honest about burning people alive . I have an intense fear of fire and burning to death in a car because of that godforsaken church . Imagine me , seven years old , sitting in a church pew listening to some selfrighteous cunt who thinks he ' s better than everyone because he ' s saved rambling on about a woman burning to death in a car just because he wants to scare people into being good . And he got DESCRIPTIVE . The smell of the burning hair , the woman ' s screams , and of course it was a true story . Whether it was or not I don ' t know , I certainly don ' t believe the spiritual and otherworldly aspects of it . But I know that people burn to death in cars all the time , and now that ' s a fear that will stick with me the rest of my days . The one thing that comforts me is that no matter what may happen to me in this life , I have a life of peace waiting for me after I die . I don ' t have to go to heaven and worship some entity I don ' t want to forever , and I don ' t have to go to hell and suffer . I think death is like what it ' s like before you were born , just nothingness . And I ' m okay with that . What I ' m not ok with is the pentecostals who INSIST that they are right and that they must save as many people as possible . They think that their way is the only way . They think that if you ' re not dancing and speaking in tongues that you ' re damned to burn for eternity . They may not say it but they honestly think they ' re better than everyone else in the world . They ' re selfrighteous , and they NEVER give back to the community . One thing I notice about other churches is that they at least give back to the community . Some churches do food giveaways for the homeless and they ' ll donate clothing and money and stuff like that . But never in a pentecostal church . It ' s all about tithes tithes tithes . Didn ' t pay your tithes ? No one wants anything to do with you all of a sudden . They pretend to care about the community , but they won ' t do anything for them . Instead , their way of caring for the community is by harvesting souls , i . e . more tithes . That church is disgusting , sickening and straight up malevolent . I feel sorry for all the children who are dragged to those godforsaken churches by their dumbfuck parents every Sunday . I could go on and on and on but I won ' t for your sakes , I just wanted to get this off my chest and maybe hear from some fellow expentecostals to see how they feel about it . Thank you for your time .