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Chasing Readers, A Fundamental Flaw
January 30, 2019 January 30, 2019 / Euphoria Blackwood
So, I've realized I hate blogging.
This is an especially problematic thing to admit when you're a self-published author struggling to build a devoted audience. The thing is, writing is an extremely personal thing for me, as you can probably expect, and sitting down to do such a thing for an extended period of time often leaves me feeling emotionally-drained.
I'm quite good at what I do, even though writing fiction in and of itself comes with its own Santa's sack of stressors and spectrum of insecurities. But at the end of the day, if I'm going to write, I'd rather direct that expendature of energy towards long-term projects, such as The Quest for the Crystals or Eri, the Monster Sealer (The former of which is going quite well in its second installment's drafting).
If I'm being honest, blogging is easier in some regards, because I don't really have to think much about structure or formatting — everything just seems to come together pretty organically, whereas writing fiction is rife with overanalyzation, underestimation, and copious amounts of self loathing and theraputic alcohol.
Fact of the matter is, when it comes to blogging, I just don't have a lot to say. Or at least, it certainly feels that way.
If I'm writing for a larger audience — or attempting to — there's this sense of pressure on my shoulders that demands that everything I write must offer my potential readers something. Giving stuff away for free has been the go to mantra of bloggers, artists, and dot-com entreprenuers since the dawn of Internet Capitalism(tm), because when you give away something of value enough times, people will begin to pay attention to you. Apparently.
This includes tutorials, advice and insider secrets, webinars, e-books, behind-the-scenes insights, et cetera. Look no further than Geoff Goins, Mark Manson, Tai Lopez, and every other web-funnel guru with an e-mail list giveaway (Yes, I realize I've only listed men here — they're the first number of folks who popped into mind. Don't have a cow). These guys make a killing by giving stuff away for free, because people value what they have to say, and wish to pay them for whatever services they have to offer.
All I want to do is write fiction. I don't care about maintaining Facebook adverts. I don't care about chasing after whatever trendy hash-tags are available on Twitter. Nor do I really desire to spend every waking moment vlogging my way across Youtube John Green-style when I should be sitting down at my word processor.
All of these things feel like superficial distractions to me, that may or may not aid in building in audience — but only if I have a solid audience already established. Which I don't. These things aren't guaranteed. I know plenty of struggling authors and artists in the same boat as me, desperately chasing after someone — anyone — to pay attention to them. And I kind of can't help but pity their desperation.
I'd rather spend what available energy I have focused on telling honest and engaging stories that entertain the most important audience to date: myself. This is a somewhat scary thought, because I know deep down that the stories I have to tell are important ones, that need to be shared far and wide, except I just don't have the emotional capacity to sit down and whore myself out online for a smidge of traffic.
I'm an introvert by nature. I've always been a lone wolf, and the idea of forcing myself to engage in social media-centered fellatio in dire attempts for Sempai to notice me feels somewhat unproductive and exhausting. Just thinking about logging into Wattpad or Twitter makes me want to take a nap and avoid anything related to the Internet.
I feel like I've rambled in a few directions here, and ultimately, I'm not sure what the answer is. I don't like blogging, and I hate social media even more. But as a self-published author I feel almost obligated to take part in these acts, because every other self-published author and dot-com success story tells me I have to, in order to be viable and relevent.
But what about all those other artists and authors I know who believe this, and are still total unknowns?
Obviously it boils down to genuine connection — but I've never been very good at putting myself out there, pushing myself into public spaces and being the centre of attention. Most people get on my nerves easily, and I'd rather not have to John Green my way to success if I don't have to.
Part of me really envies John Green though, and every other content creator out there who has enough of an outgoing personality to pump essays and vlogs out at a consistent rate in order to satiate whoever throws a couple bucks towards their Patreon account.
I just don't have the energy to expend that kind of effort. What do I give away that's useful to other people? I don't have a lot to say, nor do I see myself as an effective mentor-figure. I'm just a spooky YA author who cries like a baby at opening credits to Don Bluth films and consistently has Doom 64's title theme stuck in her head.
It's a lot to consider.
How about you? What would you like to see from me? Off the cuff journal entries? Short stories and poetry? Reviews? — What kind of advice do you have, if any? If you're also a content creator, what's your experience been like in this frontier? I'd love to know.
Mental Health, Self Development, Writing
author, blogging, diary, fiction, inspiration, John Green, novel, reader opinion, self publishing
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3 thoughts on "Chasing Readers, A Fundamental Flaw"
onereasonableperson
Why do you think blogging and social media are important? Those are things that do work for some authors, but most simply don't bother much with either.
Formula for indie author success:
Pick a subgenre that people are reading. Write a series that satisfies the readers of that subgenre. Discount the first book and pay to have it advertised on the good promo sites.
Nothing about that involves blogging.
Euphoria Blackwood
Some great advice here! Thanks!
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